Author: Susan

E-Mail: susanandtad@cs.com

Category: UC/CC, M/M, Maria/Kyle and Michael/Isabel

Rating: PG-13 – R (for language and talk about sex)

Distribution: Roswell Desert Skies. Anyone else can have it if they want just ask first.

Disclaimer: Don’t own a thing.

Summary: Eighth part to my Unexpected series, which can be found at Roswell Desert Skies.

Author’s Note: Series is based on Improv challenges. At this point who knows how it will end. It could be unconventional or conventional.

Improv #10: illusion - - luminous - - vanilla - - detest

Well it has been two months since I came back to Roswell . I am now 5 months pregnant and big as a house. Max told me months ago that the baby probably would come early at least by a month or even two. He said the baby was developing a little faster than normally. Since Michael is the father that didn’t really surprise me. Mom made me go to a doctor as soon as I came home and he said my due date is a little over a month away.

I haven’t written in this journal in a long time because things have just been plain crazy. First of all, Mom practically attacked me at the door when Michael and I got here then she took one look at Michael and punched him. She nearly knocked him off his feet. He never expected it and frankly never did I. Of course, then we had to take her to the emergency room because she had broken something in her hand.

Kyle didn’t come home. He went to stay with a cousin in Santa Fe . He told his dad that he had to get away for awhile and think and when he was ready he would come home. Jim understood of course. So did I even though I missed him so much. I knew that I broke his heart but I don’t know if Kyle realizes that my heart is broken as well.

Michael is being well Michael. For the most part he has been wonderful. He tries to take care of me the best he can but he also has a lot of things to deal with. Namely Isabel Evans. You see they had started being together after I left. I don’t know the details and I certainly don’t want to but evidently their relationship was somewhat serious at least on her part. I really don’t know how Michael feels. He broke up with her as soon as we got back to Roswell even though I told him that I wasn’t sure where we stood. I don’t know if we will ever be together again at least not like we were before. He told me that no matter what he would stand by me and he was going to be a father to our son. No one was going to stop that from happening. Liz told me that Isabel had a major problem dealing with the fact I was carrying Michael’s child. She had even gone so far as to tell him he had to make a choice between her and me. She lost. To say that she dislikes me at this moment is kind of an understatement I think detest would be a better description. I can’t say that she is particularly my favorite person right now either. Liz told me she has been talking to Kyle a lot on the phone the last month. No doubt she is turning him totally against me. Whenever I look at her I want to scream and scratch her eyes out. Part of me can’t help blaming her for the breakup with Michael and ultimately even for me sleeping with Kyle. Her actions have resulted in all of us being in so much pain. Yes I know Michael is also to blame but for some reason I can’t hold it against him, probably because he is being so wonderful to me now.     

As I said earlier I really don’t know how Michael feels. I know he loves me, he always has and always will, but what I don’t know is how he feels about Isabel. I know she still comes by his place to see him. There have been a number of occasions that I have walked into his apartment and caught a faint whiff of Vanilla and I know that Isabel has been there, that is after all her favorite scent, which by the way I know Michael hates. I don’t want to know what happens when she visits and sometimes, ok not very often but sometimes, I don’t even care.

I sleep a lot these days and not just because of the baby, who takes so much of my energy. Max and Michael have had to feed me a little of their energy on occasion because I was just so wasted. Liz and I joke that he is obviously Michael Guerin s’ son because he already demands so much of me. Well like I was saying I sleep a lot. My dream world is so much better than the one I am living in now that I actually can’t wait to fall asleep. I have built up an elaborate illusion. We are all still 15 and freshman in high school only this time Kyle is also our friend and he is dating me not Liz. Liz hasn’t been shot and we are still wonderfully clueless that there are aliens among us. In this world we are living the lives we should have lived if we had never got involved with the Aliens. It is comforting to me. I’m not saying that I wish that I had never fallen in love with Michael because that isn’t true at all. I just wish things were less complicated and that I didn’t feel like I was living in some kind of soap opera. And there are times that I feel like I was cheated a little out of a normal high school experience. The most normal teenagers have to worry about is finding the next party or winning the next sporting events, or when to go all the way with a guy. You know simple every day things. But my life for the last three years has dealt with hiding from the FBI, fighting evil aliens, being betrayed by one of our own and the worse of course losing one of my best friends. Add to that your boyfriend being half alien soldier and half Grandpa Dupree it is enough to boggle anyone’s mind. You can’t blame me for wanting to live in my imaginary world considering everything I have been through the last few years.

Well I am off to dinner with Liz, Max, Michael and shudder Isabel.

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“Maria you are looking beautiful tonight. I love that dress.” Liz says to Maria. Maria figures that Liz is trying to make her feel better because she knows how disgusting she is feeling these days.

“Yeah Maria. I never believed it before but it is true pregnant women do glow.” Max adds.

“Actually Max I like to think of myself as luminous. When ever someone says I am glowing I think I should be a glow in the dark or something. Thank you both though.” Maria laughs and gives both of her best friends a hug.

As usual Isabel doesn’t say anything at all to Maria. She barely even acknowledges her presence. Maria really doesn’t really know what happened to Isabel. Yeah they have never been close but she has never been down right mean to her like she was now. Maria guesses losing the man you love can change someone and it is obvious that Isabel is in love with Michael.  

Maria goes over to the kitchen to see Michael.

“You need any help.” Maria asks.

“Nope all covered. Go sit down. You look tired. Are you feeling ok? You don’t need an energy boost do you?” Michael comes over to her and puts his hand on her stomach. As always their son connects with him.

Maria places her hand over top of his so that she can see what Michael does. “We’re fine. See. I’m just a little stressed I guess.” Maria gestures slightly to Isabel.

Michael looks at Isabel for a moment than his eyes meet Maria’s again. “Do you want me to ask her to leave?”

Maria takes a deep breath and shakes her head. “No. I just wish things were different I guess. I don’t like all the hurt feelings.”   

“Isabel will get over it. She is just mad at me right now. I told her today that she can’t come by anymore. It isn’t right. Maria I wanted to ask you this after everyone left but I think now is as good a time as ever. Will you move in with me? I want us to raise our son together as a family. I don’t want to be a weekend father. Please.”

Maria looks over at Liz and Max who obviously know what Michael is talking to her about. They both give her sympathetic looks. Liz knows more than anyone how torn she is about the whole Michael/Kyle situation.  And Max is torn between his two best friends. He wants us both to be happy but he also knows how incredibly difficult this decision is for me.

“Michael…” Maria starts to speak but Michael cut her off.

“Before you answer I want you to know that I love you so much. I would do anything for you including letting you go if that is what you want. But you can’t ask me to not be part of our child’s life. I can’t do that. Maria neither one of us had the perfect childhood but I want that for our son. I want him to have two parents in the same house who will love him more than life itself. I want him to know how incredibly special he is to both of us all the time. I know that you love Kyle and I know he also loves you but he isn’t here Maria and from what Isabel says he isn’t coming back anytime soon. I don’t want you to be alone, either of you.”

Maria again looks over to her friends and then she looks at Isabel who surprisingly enough doesn’t seem mad at all just incredibly sad. Maria knows that Isabel told Michael the truth. Kyle isn’t coming back, at least not right now. And she can also tell that Isabel knows that it is really over between her and Michael. Michael is right about the baby. He should have what they didn’t. Their child is more important then anything else.

“Ok Michael. I will move in.” Michael’s face lit up in a smile. “But Michael for now this is just for the baby. I’m still not sure about us.”

Michael frowned a bit and then smiled again. “Fair enough. Come on lets tell the others.”

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So I’m moving in with Michael. Mom, of course, freaked out. She even went so far to forbid it until I reminded her that I was 18 and I didn’t need her permission. Then I told her I may not need her permission but I do need her support, especially now. She relented after awhile and then became a crazy woman planning all the things she needed to do to get Michael’s apartment decent for her daughter and grandson. Michael really has been good about it all. He didn’t even blink when she said that he would have to get rid of some of his worthless toys, like the foosball table. We are keeping it of course, that would be cool and unusual punishment to take away all his fun.

I don’t know what’s going to happen with Michael and me, but for now I will be in the bedroom and he is taking the couch. Mom doesn’t know that however, because she wouldn’t understand.

Right before I came into my room Jim pulled me to the side and told me that he had talked to Kyle and told him about me moving in with Michael. Isabel had beaten him to it, of course. He was obviously upset but Jim said he thinks Kyle understands why I am doing it. I told him that I was sorry. I really wish things were different. I told Jim that I still love Kyle and I miss him and that my heart is breaking a little bit more each day without him but I had to think about someone besides myself. I was doing this for my baby. He told me that he understood and that he was proud of me and that someday Kyle would come back. He was sure of it.

I pray that someday I will see him again. Maybe then I will feel alive again.

The End.

Coming Attractions: Kyle comes home.