Behind the Music…….

 

 

Maria put the dishes down. “So he’s not taking it well, huh?”

“Alien Defcon 5,” Liz answered. Max was freaked beyond control. His father had his entire life mapped out on a special storyboard, a board that had everything. Liz. Tess. The Jeep. Utah . Everything.

“First, I think you mean Defcon 2 or 1 … maybe 2 since 1 is full-scale world annihilation. The numbers work backwards, the smaller the number the more severe the situation. So Defcon 5 would be … um, peace?”

“Fine, Defcon 2 then! Maria, you’re spending way too much time with Michael.”

Maria squeezed Liz’s arm. “It'll be ok, I hope.”

“Let Max talk to Michael.” Someone had to talk sense into Max.

Maria glanced over at her partner in crime. Sense? “Right,” she sighed. This was so not going to work.

Michael peered through the order window. “So, when does Billy get here?”

Maria glanced at the clock. “I don't know. I thought he'd be here by now.”

“Billy who?” Liz asked.

“Billy Darden.”

“First-kiss Billy?” Liz actually smiled. “He's coming here?”

“Yes.” Maria picked up an order. Placing it in front of Kyle, she leaned a hip against the counter. “He's on his way to New York .”

“Wait a minute. Wait a minute. Your ex-boyfriend's coming to visit? That's not legal.” Kyle said quickly glancing at Michael.

“He's not my ex-boyfriend. We kissed once four years ago. I was thirteen, and I’m single, so no harm, no foul.”

Kyle shook his head. “You know about this?” he asked Michael.

Michael shrugged. “Yeah, we're all going to dinner.” He was okay with it; he had to be. Technically, he and Maria weren’t a couple, and he was just slowly getting her to think about dating him. He wasn’t going to mess it up by coming down all heavy and jealous.

Liz took her order, watching Michael finish it up. “No. No mayo on that one.” She turned to talk to Maria. “Um, so, where's he gonna stay?”

“At my house.”

Kyle lifted a brow at that. “Your mom's ok with this?”

“My mom's out of town.” Maria reminded Kyle, who should remember that fact, since her mom and his dad were no longer seeing each other. Thank god.

“What?” Kyle looked at Michael in disbelief. Michael saw the look.

“It's fine.” Michael shoved the plate at Liz. “There's your no-mayo.”

“Michael, Michael, Michael,” Kyle moaned, needing to shake some sense into Michael. “Let me explain something to you. Here on the planet earth we have this thing called jealousy.”

“Kyle, relax. I have nothing to be jealous about.” Maria made a face at him. “We keep telling all of you … Maria and I are friends. Friends, and they were 13-year-old geeks at band camp.”

“Ok, first of all, it was a, uh, songwriter's workshop,” Maria informed him. “And, uh ... Billy wasn't a geek. He was just a little skinny. He had a little acne on the face, but …”

“… and braces,” Michael added.

“We all had braces.” Maria informed them, but then seeing Michael’s look she gave up. “All right, fine. He was a little bit of a geek.”

“And you kissed him?” Kyle smirked.

“Would you shut up?” she asked Kyle, glaring at Michael who had started this conversation.

“Shut up.” Michael told Kyle before he got him in trouble.

Maria gave him a thankful smile as she went to tend to a new customer. “Hello. Table or booth?”

“It's me.” The young man was attractive. Maria looked him over.

“Billy?”

“Yeah.”

Maria couldn’t believe it. He was … not awful. “No.”

“Yeah.”

“Come here.” Maria hugged the guy laughing as he literally picked her off her feet. “Oh, my god.”

“Ohh.” Billy put her down, looking her over. “God, look at you.”

A dozen eggs sitting next to Michael on the counter, suddenly exploded. Maria glanced at him sharply, a frown pulling at her face. She quickly led Billy away before he could get curious. “Oh. Um, let's go this way.” She glanced back again.

“All right,” Billy let Maria led him to the outside tables in front of the Crashdown.

Kyle watched them go, smirking at Michael. “I guess the braces worked.”

Michael growled at Kyle as he mopped up the egg mess. He was okay with this. He was.

 

~~~

 

“God, last time I saw you, you were like thirteen going on thirty.” Billy’s eyes kept moving over Maria.

“And you were like ninety-eight pounds going on this.” Maria checked him out as well. She would’ve never guessed that he could turn out so well. “You look great.”

“Now don't take this the wrong way, but have you looked in a mirror?” Billy couldn’t take his eyes off her. “I mean, you went from the girl no one wanted to dance with to the prom queen.”

“Now, how am I supposed to take that the wrong way?” Maria rolled her eyes. Her gawky youth was best left forgotten. “And shut up.”

“I'm serious, really. You look great, Maria.”

“Thanks. Ahem. So …” Maria was suddenly uncomfortable at his regard. “Uh, how long are you staying?”

“Uh, just a couple days. Uh, is it cool with your mom, me staying over?”

“Sure. Yeah. And anyway, she's, uh,” Maria cleared her throat, so maybe this wasn’t the greatest idea, “she's actually gonna be out of town for a couple of days.” A week. Months. Forever. Maria didn’t want to go into detail.

“Oh.” Billy smiled sitting back. “Well, uh, I can’t wait to hear what you've been working on.”

“Working on?”

“Your music.”

“Oh.” Maria was suddenly uncomfortable.

Billy didn’t seem to notice. “God, I can still remember some of the lyrics you wrote back at band camp.”

“God.” Maria hid her face. “Yeah, most of it was crap, anyway.”

“Oh, come on.” Billy smiled even more charmed by Maria’s reaction.

Maria looked around leaning in conspiratorially, “Look, if anyone asks, it was a songwriters workshop.”

“Oh.”

Michael was watching Maria and her friend from behind the order window. He barely glanced over when Max came in the door after entering the Crashdown by the back.

Max whispered loudly. “Michael!”

Michael glanced at Maria again. “What are you doing in here?”

“When do you get off work?”

“Ten minutes. But I've got plans with Maria and Billy Bob Thornton out there.” Michael made a face at the other man talking to Maria.

“Something came up. Cancel them.”

Michael watched Maria laughing with Billy. “Forget it. Whatever it is can wait. I’m busy.”

“My dad knows,” said Max.

Michael frowned as Max quickly outlined his father’s investigation. Michael had heard this in La Jolla , and it kept Max from relaxing. Looked as if Max’s need to panic was in overdrive.

Maria and Billy were still talking in front of the restaurant as Michael slowly made his way towards them.

“That is so funny.” Billy said to something Maria told him.

“Hi.” Michael said interrupting them.

Billy glanced up at the larger man. “Hey.”

“Michael,” Michael said, introducing himself. “I'm the other friend.

“Hey. Billy.” The other guy introduced himself. “Nice to meet you.”

Maria smiled at Michael. “Ready to go?”

“Gotta cancel.”

“Wait a minute.” Maria quickly looked into Michael’s eyes. “We were gonna cook.”

“Something came up.” Michael said cryptically, but Maria caught the tone.

“What?” She glanced at Billy frowning.

“It's work-related.”

“Oh.” Maria caught the look. Alien stuff. “Of course.”

“Steve's wife, Cheryl,” Michael quickly explained to Billy, “she got the flu on my other job, so I gotta cover for her …”

“Oh. Him.”

“Yeah.” Michael met Maria’s eyes. “Sorry, Billy.” His tone was anything but sorry.

“Oh, no. You gotta do what you gotta do, you know?”

“I'll make it up to you. I promise.” Michael said to Maria, kissing her quickly on the mouth, but something made him pause, holding the kiss longer than usual. Michael looked pointedly at Billy. “Nice meeting you.”

“Yeah.” Billy got the message. Michael had just put up a huge ‘Keep Off’ sign around Maria. “He seems nice.”

“Oh, yeah.” Maria said distractedly. “He's a peach.” She smiled quickly. “Hey, I need to get my things. Can you wait for me here for a moment?”

“Sure.” Billy frowned as Maria quickly went into the Crashdown.

“Hey!” Maria caught up with Michael before he could leave with Max. “What’s going on?”

“Excuse us for a moment?” Michael asked Max.

“Sure,” Max glanced between the two. “Make it snappy.”

“Always a prince,” Maria said sarcastically. “Spill, buddy, and make it quick since we’ve both got people waiting.”

Michael quickly told Maria what Max wanted to do. Maria nodded listening.

“Liz told me about his new alien DefCon 2 strategy. Think you can talk some sense into him? Maybe calm him down?”

Michael and Maria both looked over at the jittery Max. “Not a chance in hell. Look,” Michael took her arm, “I’m really sorry about dinner.”

“No problem. Just come by when you can, okay?”

“You okay alone with him?”

“Who? Billy? Sure he’s fine.”

“Maria, four years is a long time. He might not be nice old Billy anymore. Just be careful, and I’ll be there.”

Maria nodded. “If you aren’t there for dinner, I’ll leave a window open for you.”

Michael kissed her cheek, quickly taking off before he changed his mind.

 

~~~

 

Maria and Billy were in the DeLuca kitchen cooking dinner.

“I can’t believe you're doing it.” Maria said tasting the sauce. “Moving to New York , huh?”

“Yeah, Greenwich Village .”

“Playing seedy bars and coffee shops,” Maria mused, smiling at their youthful plans.

“Well, that was the plan.”

“Yeah, but there are plans and then there are plans.” Maria continued cryptically.

“Well, I guess this was the plan.” Billy was confused by Maria’s lack of enthusiasm, something she had in abundance when they were younger.

“Yeah, I guess so.” Maria added some more garlic to the pot. “So, what are you gonna do for money?”

“As long as I make enough to get by, I'm fine, you know?”

Maria laughed smiling at him. “Oh, god, that is so romantic, I could just scream.”

“Come on.” Billy leaned up against the counter next to her. “It was your idea.”

“I know, but I mean, I was thirteen and talkin' about going to the big city. Even then I knew it was just talk. Michael and I’ve been talking about it, but until it’s a done deal, I really can’t say where I’ll end up.” Maria held out some sauce on a spoon. “Here, taste.”

“That's pretty good.” Billy said tasting the sauce. “That's not how I remember it. I mean, even back then you were pretty dead serious about your music. I mean, you're the one that gave me the bug. If I hadn't met you, I'd still be playing ‘Stairway to Heaven’ in my mom's garage.”

Maria shrugged, not wanting to care too much about this. “Well, I guess for me music was just more of like a passing thing.”

Billy went to the refrigerator taking out some cream, pouring a some into the sauce. “Well, I find that very hard to believe.”

“What are you doing?” Maria asked frowning at the cream he added to the sauce.

“The sauce is just a little thin, so I'm gonna show you a little family secret.”

Maria stared into the pot, her mouth open. “In my sauce? You're putting creamer …”

“Shh.” Billy offered her a taste of the sauce now. “Come on. Try it.” He shoved the spoon at her, tempting her. “Try it. Try it.”

“Ok.” Maria took a taste. “Mm-hmm.” It was good.

“Mm-hmm.”

“Not bad.” Maria tried another taste. “Wait until I tell Michael. We spent forever perfecting this sauce.”

“Michael?” Billy frowned at the other man’s name being mentioned yet again.

“Uh-huh. He’s turning into a pretty good cook … well, except for cookies. He eats the dough before he can cook it.”

“Michael.” Billy resolved himself to a night of ‘Michael did this’ and ‘Michael did that.’

Billy and Maria finished eating, and Billy produced something Maria prayed no longer existed. Pictures. They were like a stroll down a long nightmare.

“No! Oh, my god! No!”

“There she is.” Billy said cruelly, amused by her reaction. “Right there.”

Maria stole the picture, hating the image of herself. “Look at my hair and my eyes. Ugh!”

“Come on. It was your late 90s retro Annie Lennox phase. You know, you were experimenting.” Billy bumped into her playfully. “I think it was cute.”

“Right,” Maria shoved the pictures at him. “Burn those now.”

“Oh, no--oh, no.” He snatched them back, away from her questing hands. “These are goin' to the Big Apple where they'll be prominently displayed in my guitar case where people will be throwing money.”

“Look at that!” Maria stared at another picture, the horror was endless. “Look at-- this hair spray alone could choke a horse.”

“Ok. Well, look past the somewhat flammable hair and see what I see.”

“Which is what? Bad eyeliner?” Maria asked, squinting at the picture, horrified that her eyeliner actually looked like Liz’s recent trip into Goth. At least she had the excuse of being thirteen, but Liz …

“Nah. Dreams.” Billy took back his picture. “Look. This girl … she has beautiful dreams. And she makes beautiful music.” Billy was suddenly serious. “So, what happened to her?”

“Nothing.” Maria shrugged. “She just grew up.” Maria hated that young girl in the picture. She had more than dreams … she didn’t have nightmares and fears that weighed down her life. She had a future.

“Right. Right.”

 

~~~

 

Max and Michael were digging a hole in the desert. Michael was irritated at Max, and the canceling of his evening. “Is this deep enough?”

“Almost.”

Michael wiped a tired arm across his forehead. “Max, we've been up all night collecting every conceivable alien artifact that ever crashed in this god-forsaken planet, including all of Tess's stuff. I'm tired.”

“All right. That's deep enough. We still need your healing stone.”

“I think it's at Maria's.”

Max couldn’t believe it. “You think it's at Maria's?”

“Yeah.” Michael didn’t see the big deal. It wasn’t like they needed them anymore. “I don't know. Most likely.”

“I bet if it was one of your Metallica CDs you'd know where it was.” Max said sarcastically, knowing how possessive Michael got over things he considered his. Living in his apartment for the past few months was an eye opener.

“Hey! You wanna bring that up again? The reason I got pissed is you put And Justice For All before Master of Puppets.”

“Yeah. Alphabetical order.”

Michael’s body stiffened in outrage. “They go in order of the release date.”

“And you don't know where your healing stone is?” Once upon a time, the healing stones and alien artifacts meant everything to Michael. Since he decided to stay on Earth, Michael found other things much more important.

“You still wanna sleep on my couch?”

Max’s cell phone rang, saving him from another confrontation with Michael. “Hello?”

Isabel’s voice was worried and frantic. “Jesse is asking all kinds of questions about you, Max. You're right. Dad is out of control. We have to do something.”

Max looked at Michael who was listening. “Isabel, calm down. Just tell me what happened.”

“What's going on?” Michael asked. He didn’t want to be exposed. He had a life … sort of, but it was the first real time he had one.

Max held the phone away from him. “My dad's recruited Jesse into this crusade of his.”

“Ok, Max, you need to talk to your father. Keep your friends close …” Michael said pointing at Max, “and your enemies closer.”

Isabel heard Michael. “Our father is not the enemy, Max.”

“Talk to him. Make nice. Get close. Find out what he knows.” Michael handed Max his shovel. Looking at his watch, he winced. It was late, real late. “I’ve got places to be. Let’s go.”

Max finished talking to Isabel as they packed up the shovels into the Cheville.

They missed a man behind a rock taking picture of them burying the alien artifacts.

 

~~~

 

Michael entered Maria’s room through the window. He could’ve gone through the door, but he didn’t want to use his powers in case Billy saw him. The house was dark, and more than likely everyone was asleep. Max had kept him out real late.

Taking off his shoes and stripping down to his usual sleep attire of boxers and a t-shirt, he gently moved Maria over and got into bed, sighing in relief as he sank into the bed.

“Michael,” Maria said softly. She moved into his body, making a noise from the feel of his cool skin. “You’re late.”

“Max is freaking, and now Isabel has joined the alien hit parade. Mr. Evans is out of control, and he has Jesse asking questions.”

“And you? How are you holding up?”

“I told Max to go talk to his father … to get information.”

Maria sat up a little in the bed looking down at her tired friend. “Okay, you sent Max? Damn, it’s official, Michael. The infection has reached your brain. We’ll have to put you down.”

Michael reached up and pulled her down on top of him. “Go back to sleep. I’m too tired for your list of possible antibiotic regimens to cure me of early dementia.”

Maria giggled softly against him, burrowing into his skin that was finally warming.

“Can I confess something to you?” Michael asked softly.

“If I say no, will that stop you?”

“Not likely.” Michael kissed the top of her head. He slept with her practically every night … since Alex died and when he wasn’t working. “I was afraid to come over in case I found you sleeping with Billy.”

“Seriously?”

Michael nodded.

“You are suffering some type of alien sickness. You should know by now that you’re my only sleeping friend. I think I slept with Alex when I was younger, and of course, I shared a bed with Liz at times. Not recently, not since …” Maria paused. Not since Alex died. Michael knew that. He tightened his hold on her as they both slowly succumbing to sleep.

 

Maria was already gone when Michael woke. He had been so tired. Scratching his stomach, Michael went to the bathroom to tap his bladder and splash water on his face. Heading into the kitchen, he hoped Maria left coffee.

Nope. Worse.

She left Billy.

Billy seemed genuinely shocked at seeing Michael, especially in his attire. “You haven't left yet?”

“Oh, no, man. Late night.” Billy looked at the larger man. “Sorry. I'm leaving later today.”

Michael shrugged filling a cup mug with the black brew. Maria had to have left a while ago, it looked really black. “How was dinner?”

“It was good, man. It was good.” Billy watched as Michael got out the creamer adding it to his coffee, and started making himself breakfast, obviously knowing where everything was. “How's Steve's wife?”

“Who?” Michael asked.

“Steve's wife, with the flu. You covered for him.” Billy frowned at Michael. “Remember?”

Michael made a face at forgetting his lame excuse. “Yeah. She's great. She's fine. Is Maria around?” Anything to distract Billy Bob.

“No, man. You just missed her. Just missed her. Can I leave her a note or a message or something?”

“No. I’ll run into her soon enough.” Michael looked at the wall clock. “I’ve gotta get dressed for my shift at the Crashdown.” Remembering the healing stone, he smiled at Billy without warmth. “I'm needing to find something I left here. I wonder where Maria put it.” He had no problem with letting Billy think his relationship was something else with Maria.

“Can I help you look?”

“No. That's ok.” Michael took his coffee back to Maria’s room.

Billy followed. “What are you looking for?”

“Something I need.” Michael wasn’t above being petty. “Hey, can you pull me out a fresh shirt from that top drawer? There should be a Metallica tour tee in there.”

Billy opened the drawer finding Michael’s shirt that Maria had confiscated to sleep in. Michael quickly pocketed the healing stone. Billy tossed the shirt at Michael.

“You have a lot of clothes here?”

Michael shrugged. “Not as many as Maria has at my place. I have my own apartment, have had for almost two years.”

“Two years?”

“Yeah I was emancipated at sixteen. Normally Maria stays with me when her mom’s out of town, and we would’ve invited you to sack at my place … except our friend Max has been sacking on the sofa. So there was no room.”

“Where does Maria sleep?”

Michael gave Billy a penetrating look. “In my bed.” The ‘of course’ was understood. Michael walked out of the room smirking slightly as Billy followed him.

“Hey, when did Maria stop writing music?” Billy asked.

Michael shrugged. She hadn’t done much since Alex died. “She messes around with it once in a while.”

“Well, how often does she mess around with it?”

Michael stopped, looking back at Billy. “Is this goin' somewhere?”

“No.” Billy scratched his brow. “I mean, maybe. I mean, I don't know. I'm just … I'm just wondering if she's given up on writing and singing altogether.”

“I really wouldn't know.” Michael stared at the other man, unhappy with the questioning, the implication that he was neglecting Maria in some way.

“Well, listen, man, she's really good. I mean, she's really good.” Michael appeared to be looking around the living room not wanting Billy Bob to know he already found what he was looking for.

“Yeah, I'll keep that in mind.” Giving up his search, Michael was more than ready to get out of there. “I guess what I'm looking for isn't here.”

“Well, I'd tell her you stopped by, but I got a bus to catch.”

“Yeah, well good luck in New York and all that.”

 

~~~

 

Maria put an order up in the window and stretched over, watching Michael mix a sauce.

“Hmm, you know what? That sauce looks a little thin. You should put half and half in there.”

Michael glanced at her, stating an obvious. “It's not coffee.”

“It works. Billy showed me. It gives it heft.”

Billy? Michael made a face. “I don't put dairy products in my meat sauce. It's not kosher.”

Maria shrugged looking at her order that was up. “Ok. I said no cheese in the nebulae salad.” She started picking it out.

“Forgot. Listen, I was thinking about skipping out on bowling tonight, and maybe we could make up for last night.”

“That is so sweet,” Maria smiled at him, “but I kind of have plans. I just assumed you would be destroying poor little defenseless pins. Just …”

Michael paused in his cooking. “Plans with who?”

“It's nothing … Big.” Maria said. “Just me and Billy were gonna go and …”

“Billy?” Michael eyes narrowed. “Isn't he on the bus?”

“He missed it. He's staying another night.”

“Another night?!” The salad bowl that Maria was extracting cheese from exploded in front of her, barely missed hitting her.

“What did you do that for?” Maria asked Michael, stepping back her hand going to her face. “You could've hurt me.”

Swearing, Michael left the kitchen, going to Maria. Checking her for injuries, he held her head in his hand. “Sorry. I'm not sure what happened.”

Maria looked at Michael, worrying entering her eyes as she searched his face. He looked pale. “What is going on?” she asked softly.

“I don’t know. I really don’t know.” Maria’s hands tightened on Michael at his tone.

Taking his hand, she led him into the back room. “You’re not sick are you?”

“I don’t know... my powers … they’re shorting out or something. Or surging. I don’t know what’s going on.”

Her hands moved over him in comfort, a flurry of activity heightened by worry. “We’ll figure it out.”

 

~~~

 

Worried about Michael, Maria was suddenly wishing that Billy had already left. She needed to go spend more time with Michael, but they couldn’t afford to have Billy see Michael lose control of his powers.

“Billy, I hope you're ok with hamburgers 'cause that's what you're getting.” Maria called out as she entered the house with groceries.

Billy didn’t look up from his task. “Hamburgers are fine.”

Stopping in the door, in shock, Maria’s eyes couldn’t stop looking at Alex’s guitar, the guitar that his parents had given her after he died. “Why is that out?”

“Michael was searching for something earlier today. This ended up on the bed, so I am tuning it for you.”

“Why?” Maria asked huskily, tears thick in her throat.

“It's out of tune, darlin'.”

Maria rushed into the room tossing the bag of groceries on the sofa. “Put it back.”

“In just a second.” Billy missed how upset Maria was, he was still tuning the guitar.

“You know what? Forget it.” Yanking the guitar from his hands, she hurried towards her room. “I'll put it back.”

“Hey, what's wrong?”

“I invite you into my house and you go through my stuff?” Maria was on the verge of tears.

“Where's all this coming from?” Billy asked confused. “It's a guitar, baby.”

“No, it's not.” Maria slammed her bedroom door in his face, sitting on her bed with the guitar, crying. Wiping her face, she picked up her cell phone.

 

~~~

 

Michael and Liz were closing the Crashdown alone since Maria was off with Billy. Michael was too distracted to go bowling so he worked an extra shift. He and Liz rarely talked unless others were there, but Michael made an effort.

“Pretty busy night, huh?”

“Mm-hmm.” Liz said distractedly.

“How much money do you think we'd pull in on a night like tonight?”

Liz finally looked up. “You know that you really suck at small talk? Why don't you just tell Dr. Parker what's on your mind?”

Michael shrugged. Nothing. He was fine … just fine. “Hey, tell me … do I need to be worried about this Billy guy?”

“No, you don't. He's completely harmless.” Liz looked at Michael, interest sparking in her eyes. Both Michael and Maria swore they were just friends, but by all outer appearances, there was a hell of a lot going on that neither seemed willing to admit to.

“But you think he's good looking right?”

Liz shrugged, not wanting to go into the attraction of the renegade musician. “Uh, well, yeah, if you like that sort of thing, I guess.” Damn, poor Michael, he was competing with a musical poet.

“The good-looking sort of thing.” Michael asked needing confirmation. Dammit, Brody last year was bad enough, then Larek … but now this? A millionaire. An Alien King. A bard. Hell, couldn’t she pull in something boring like say a lawyer or tax auditor?

“Michael …” Liz cleared her throat.

“Do you really think he missed his bus?” The suspicion in Michael’s eyes was hard to miss. Liz quickly intervened before it went out of control.

“Yes, I do. Haven't you ever missed a bus before?”

“No,” Michael said with a lot of emotion, “'cause I don't take the bus, and I don't write songs. And I don't cook with freaking half and half.” The sugar dispensers that Liz had been refilling exploded next to him. Liz literally jumped in fright.

“Hey! Hey, Michael!”

“Sorry.” Michael stared at the mess he made with a certain amount of confusion and chagrin. “My powers are out of control.”

“Would you look at this mess!” Liz was beyond knowing how to clean it up. “My dad is gonna freak.”

“Relax. I'll fix it.” Michael reached out a hand and tried to repair the damage, restoring the sugar jars back to their pristine condition. It didn’t work. His powers wouldn’t respond to even the slightest push.

“Please. Michael, you need to calm down, ok? Everything's gonna be fine between you and Maria, trust me.”

“She cooked him Italian food last night.”

“Oh.” Liz face held a bit of shock and wonder.

“I knew it. That's a problem.” Michael sat back dejected. He knew it. She was … she didn’t need him anymore.

“No, no, it's not a problem. It's just, um … It's food.”

“No, Liz.” Michael said tragically. “It's Italian food. They changed our recipe.”

Michael couldn’t take much more. He couldn’t even get a handle on his emotions, all he knew was he felt … unsettled inside. “Michael, please don't do anything stupid or alien or both, please?!”

Liz cell phone rang. She quickly answered frowning at Maria’s voice.

“It’s Maria. She wants to talk to …” Michael snatched the phone away from Liz. “… to you.” Liz finished to herself.

Michael talked in a low tone, and Liz’s brow lifted when suddenly Michael’s voice went soft and even, as he talked to Maria slowly, with great care. Disconnecting he gave Liz back her phone.

“I’ve got to go. Maria needs me.”

Liz didn’t even get a chance to respond before Michael was out the door. Shaking her head, she never imagined she would ever see a jealous alien before, or specifically that it would be Michael. Holding that thought, she sat back wondering why when she was hanging with Maria’s cousin Sean, Max never exploded anything. He seemed to care, and despite him being with Tess, shouldn’t he have shown some display of out of control jealousy? Liz sighed, unwilling to think about it any longer. She had a mess to clean up.

 

~~~

 

Billy was playing his guitar when Michael entered the house. Going through the living room he paused to look at the intruder.

“Where’s Maria?”

Billy seemed shocked to see Michael. “She’s in her room, but …”

“What did you do? She called me upset and crying.” Michael’s height and size were suddenly threatening. Billy held up his hands.

“Hey! Nothing, okay? I was tuning her guitar, and she totally wigged out of me.”

“Guitar? What guitar?”

“The one you left on her bed.”

The confusion cleared from Michael’s face. Swearing, he went down the hall entering Maria’s room without knocking. Shutting the door firmly behind him. Billy stared at the closed door.

Michael stood with his back to the door. She sat on the bed, still crying over the guitar. Making a soft sound in his throat, Michael went over and took the guitar from her. Putting it away, where he had taken it earlier in the day before placing it on her bed, he sat down on the bed next to her.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly. “I was looking for the healing stone, and I put it on the bed.”

Maria nodded.

“Tough day?” He asked.

“Tough life.” Her voice was thick with tears. “I think I’m getting over it, and then …”

Michael held open his arms and Maria moved into them. Her arms went around his neck, holding him tight. Michael scooted her along the bed, so he could sit against the headboard with her in his arms. Closing his eyes, he let himself feel things he shouldn’t feel, and for a moment, want things he couldn’t have. Things he didn’t know how to get.

“Am I becoming too dependent on you? Too clingy since Alex?”

Michael whispered ‘no’ against her temple. He liked her clinginess. A lot. “My turn. When we first met, it was always you doing for me, supporting me. I think this makes me feel better, like we’re equals.”

“We are.” Maria searched his face, and suddenly they both looked away. Maria cleared her throat. “I totally lost it on Billy. I don’t know. I was … hearing someone else play Alex’s guitar … I wasn’t ready for that I guess.”

“It’s okay. Put it away again, until you’re ready. It’ll be there, Maria. I’ll be there.”

“I know.” Maria wiped a hand across her face. She really needed to face some home truths about herself, but only one thing at a time. It was all she could handle right now. “Are your powers still on the fritz?”

Michael laughed. “Yeah. I just blew up sugar dispensers at the Crashdown.”

Maria sat back away from him worry etched on her face. “What’s going on?”

“Power surges. I think I lost hold of the powers and then ‘poof’. I’ll figure it out. Maybe I’m going through alien puberty?”

“What, so this is your version of acne?” Maria could hear the music from the other room. Taking a deep breath, she smiled slightly. “Guess I should go take care of that, huh?” Maria asked gesturing to Billy and the music in the other room.

“Yeah, I guess. He was wondering what he did wrong.”

Maria started to get up from the bed, Michael helping her, setting her firmly on her feet. She hugged him for a moment longer. Pushing away, she left her hand on his chest.

“You should go home for a while. Check up on Max or something.”

“Anywhere but here, huh?”

“Yeah. I don’t know how we would explain things if you lost control in front of Billy. I’m better. Thanks for coming when I called. I just needed someone who would understand.”

Michael put a hand on her face. Him. She called him, not Liz. It was a hard thing, but Maria and Liz were still divided on Alex. It would take time, a while before they found a way to talk about him without it getting clouded with Max and Tess, especially Max.

“Okay. You want me to come over later?”

“Sure. You can come in the front door. That’s if you and Max don’t find something interesting to do.”

“Like that is going to happen.” Michael made a face. “I guess I should go check my mail, the groceries, and make sure Max hasn’t alphabetized my life.”

“Are you going to do laundry?”

Michael’s eyes narrowed. “Why?”

“My red sweater is over there, dirty. If you wash, could you …”

“Right. Sure.” Michael led Maria out of her room. “I thought it was your turn.”

“Michael.” She gave him her patented sad look.

“Yeah, yeah. You look pathetic enough. I’ll do it, if … and I do mean if I get to it tonight.”

Michael ignored Billy, taking her face in his hands, he kissed her on the mouth holding the kiss longer than usual. “Call me if you need me,” he whispered meeting her eyes. She nodded.

Maria waited until Michael left before turning to Billy. He was still holding his guitar.

“Try going to an F major 7th, please. I can’t listen to you anymore. Just trying going to an F major 7th.”

Billy recognized a peace offering when he saw it, and he tried her suggestion. “Not bad.” He said in surprise.

“Oh, please. I totally fixed it for you.”

“Ok. Now let's see if you remember this one …” He started playing another song glancing at her. “So what about earlier?”

“Yeah, I'm sorry that I went off on you.”

Shrugging, Billy continued to play. “Gonna tell me about it?”

Taking a deep breath, Maria tried to smile, but couldn’t. “That guitar belonged to a friend of mine. His name was Alex. He died last year. Actually … .last spring.”

Stopping his playing, Billy suddenly understood a lot especially Michael’s over protectiveness of her. “I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I had no idea.”

“His parents wanted me to have this guitar, but I just couldn't bring myself to play it.”

“Bad memories?” Billy asked.

Maria nodded, refusing to cry. “He was only seventeen. He had his whole life.” Choking back the tears, she closed her eyes for a moment. “His whole life.”

“Did you and Alex write songs together?”

“Not really.” Maria smiled at that. Her and Alex were artistically opposite on music at times. “We tried once, but I just don't partner well.” Maria smiled at him, needing to make amends. “I don't know, you're, like, the only person that I've ever trusted in that way.”

“So if you guys were writing songs, then that means you was singing up until …”

“Until his funeral.” Maria never saw Michael standing in the kitchen. He had come back. He forgot to take out the garbage, and he promised Amy to do it before trash day. Listening to them, he leaned against the wall. He missed that. She sang at the funeral, and not since … not even at the bachelor party though she used it as an excuse to go. “Yeah, that was the last time.”

Billy patted the sofa next to him. “Well, then I guess tonight's a special night.”

Maria smiled as he strummed a song she wrote long ago. It was flattering that he should remember it.

“How did you remember that?”

Billy smiled. “Believe it or not, Maria, there is little about you that I don’t remember.”

Michael straightened at that. Maria was singing. Listening, the words actually meant something to him … something he didn’t want to admit to or think about.

I wish I could read your mind

words don't mean a thing

I've given you all my time

all you do is leave

and if you were standing here in front of me

I know you would say

there's nothing oh, so precious

as something that's gone away,

and if there is a reason

I just don't want to know

why you feel the need to love me so

only when you go

only when you go

 

It could’ve been a song written for her father, Alex or even him. All of them in some way had left her, and remembering her fear that something would take away her mother, Michael watched from the kitchen for a moment, before quietly letting himself out. Upset, Michael walked down the dark streets of Roswell as his out of control powers set off car alarms and blew out car windows along the way. Slamming the door of his apartment, for a moment, he stood in the middle of his living room, unable to settle himself, to control what was barely leashed inside.

“What happened?” Max asked sitting up when an angry Michael entered the apartment.

“Something too terrible to talk about,” Michael answered.

“What, my dad found something?” Max voice rose in concern. “What?”

“No, it's not that.” Michael made a face. Of course it would have to be about Max. “I saw Maria and what's his name, Billy, together.”

“Oh, together as in …” Max’s face suddenly lightened as a thought hit him, what Michael could be saying came clear. “Together?”

“Worse.” Michael threw himself tragically into a chair.

Max didn’t get that. Michael walking in on Maria and Billy in bed … that was … “What could be worse?”

“They were singing together.” Michael said morosely.

“So you're jealous.”

“I'm not jealous!” A lamp over Max’s head exploded. “My powers are slightly out of whack.” Michael explained.

"Out of whack?” Max repeated in disbelief. This was not ‘out of whack’, it was a full scale disaster.

“I've been blowing things up all day.”

“Get them under control.”

“I can’t.”

“Michael, get yourself together.” Max looked around the room as items began to shake. “What if this happens in front of my father?”

“I don't care about your father or his stupid investigation.” Another lamp exploded and a plate off a counter flew across the room to hit the wall.

“All right, look, I'm sorry.” Max quickly tried to get Michael calmed down. “We're part human. We're supposed to have feelings. You keep them bottled up like this, they're gonna get out somehow.”

“I’m not bottled up.”

Max made a sound of disbelief over that. “The hell you aren’t! Fuck, Michael. Did you even tell her why you stayed? Walking around, in love with her, unable to tell her, but you go even further, you sleep with her in your arms practically every night. Close, but so damn far away.”

“I told you, Maxwell … I do not want to talk about it!”

“Just tell her, Michael! What if she feels the same? What if she’s holding it all back, because she is afraid to wreck her friendship with you?”

“I can’t. After tonight, I don’t know. I want to, and at times, I think she knows, but …”

“What happened? Was it really this Billy? Is she falling in love with him?”

“He’s giving her her music back. We … this whole damn alien crap, you, Tess, and Alex, it took it from her, and now …”

“She’s singing again, because of this Billy person.” Max guessed. “You need to tell her, Michael. You owe her at least that much, to tell her why you stayed, and give her the chance to decide.”

Michael shook his head. He held it all inside for months and months. There were risks he took in his life, big risks, but this was too great. “What if I tell her, and even if we decided to try … I’m more afraid I’d fuck it up. There is a big difference between being a good friend, there and supportive, and being more. If we were more, she’d expect things from me, want things, things I might not be able to give her, or not realize she needs. What if we break up, and this friendship … it ruins it?”

“It means that much to you?” Max asked quietly. Once Michael was his best friend, his and Isabel’s, but numerous times, Michael had walked away from them with hardly a glance back. The last time had almost been forever. It was hard to realize that Michael could walk away from them, but not Maria.

“It means everything. I never knew how alone I was until I wasn’t. I never knew how much I needed someone to look at me, believe in me, trust me, and think I’ll do what’s right, even when I’m wrong.” Michael sat back dejected. “I don’t know when it happened, but one day I woke up, and what and who I wanted to be was the person Maria saw, the person she believes in. It’s hard to take chances with that image, because it’s all I want too. I can’t risk losing that. I can’t.”

“You can’t live your life in love with her, upset and afraid she’ll fall in love with someone else.” Max shook his head. “Repression is killing your control, and as fast as it kills it, it will expose us … get us all dead.”

Michael glanced over at Max. “What should I do?”

“Talk to her.”

“That's it?” Michael snorted in disbelief. He talked to her all the time. “Just talk to her?”

“Yeah.”

“Ok, sure.” Michael sat back on the sofa, suddenly spent. Talk to her. Tired of his own life and problems, he finally asked Max about his father. “You talk to your Dad?”

“Tomorrow. We’re going fishing.”

“Hope that goes well,” Michael said. He couldn’t even think. He should go back to Maria’s, but he couldn’t trust himself with Billy there. “My life is sucking again. How did that happen?”

 

~~~

 

Michael found Maria working at the Crashdown. Coming up behind her, he leaned in to talk into her ear.

“Hey.” He said softly.

"Hey back.” Maria smiled at him. “I missed you last night.”

“Couldn’t take a risk on my powers working while I was asleep.” Michael glanced at the dead Crashdown. There were only a few customers. “Can I say something?”

“Back room.” Maria took his hand leading him to the back break room. “Do we have a problem?”

“No, we don't. I do.”

He was serious. Maria’s eyes roamed over his face, concerned. “How can I help?”

“Be patient with me.”

Her hand went up his arms rubbing in comfort. “Always.”