Author: Susan

E-Mail: susanandtad@cs.com

Distribution: Found at Roswell Desert Skies. Anyone else can have it they just need to ask first

Rating: PG13

Category: Liz POV, AU

Summary: Liz ran away to LA after EOTW. She is found what will happen next?

Hi my Name is Liz Parker, today is September 19^th and in less than an hour I am getting married.

Five years ago today I died and Max Evans saved me changing my life forever. I along with my friends Maria, Alex and later Kyle are privy to the biggest secret in all of Roswell. Aliens do really exist and they walk among us. Max Evans and his sister Isabel and their friend Michael Guerin are all aliens, survivors of the 1947 crash. Then we found out there was a fourth alien, Tess. And with the entrance of Tess into our lives the world was turned upside down. Destiny became the focus of all our thoughts. Max, the love of my life, in his previous life was King and he was married to Tess. She was his queen. Where did that leave me? Well Max tried to put his Destiny aside and live in the now but circumstances just wouldn’t let it be. Max came to me from 14 years in the Future asking me to make the present Max fall out of love with me because if I didn’t Tess would leave and the three would not be strong enough to fight off an alien invasion. Essentially meaning the End of the World. In his world we had gotten married when we were 19. But also in his world all our friends had died in the invasion.  I tried everything to make Max not love me but everything I tried seemed to make him love me more until I had the idea to have Max see Kyle and I in bed together. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. The pain on Max’s face as he looked in the window and saw us was heartbreaking. It broke my heart as well as Future Max’s. I asked him to give me my wedding dance. We danced and then he faded away. With him my hope for happiness and love also faded away. I couldn’t stay in Roswell and watch Max turn to Tess. It was too much for me to bear.

The next morning I left Roswell. I took the Crashdown’s cash receipts for the day and emptied out my bank account and headed for LA. I don’t know what made me think of going there but I had heard that it was easy to escape in the City of Angels. And I definitely needed to escape. Once I reached LA Liz Parker died and Bethany Alexander was born in her place. I found the cheapest apartment available and got a job as a waitress in a diner not to different from the Crashdown only with a Hollywood theme instead of Aliens.

I didn’t have a plan when I left. I left a note for my parents telling them I was sorry for taking the money and for running away but that I couldn’t stay in Roswell any longer. I left an E-mail for Alex and Maria telling them how much I loved them and how I would never forget them and when I was ready I would contact them to let them know I was ok. I knew they would all freak out but I just didn’t have any other choice. I had to leave. My heart was destroyed and if I stayed in Roswell I would also be destroyed.

I lived in LA for six months before I contacted anyone. I went to a Cybercafe and emailed Maria. I told her I was fine and not to worry. I told her to tell my parents that I was ok and that someday I would come home but for now I was better off where I was. My life was simple in LA. I worked at the diner and had just been promoted to shift manager. I was able to make my very dingy, dank apartment into a pseudo home. However, I was living my life on autopilot. I ate, worked and slept when I was supposed to.  But I was not really living. There was no happiness in my life. In fact, I felt nothing. No joy, no fear not even sadness. I had shut down completely. All I did was survive. There were times I wondered what I would be like if I had stayed in Roswell but for the most part I tried not to think of it. When I did then my mind would wonder to what Max was doing and if he and Tess were finally together? If Maria had forgiven Michael or if Isabel had finally realized that she would never be loved as much as Alex loved her? On those occasions I did feel pain, an overwhelming stab of pain that I could not withstand so I would shut down and put all those thoughts as far away as possible.

Two more months went by and then once again my life was changed forever because on a hot summer day a face from my past walked through the doors of the Diner. When I saw him I dropped the tray that had been in my hand and ran into the back. I didn’t want to see him, to talk to him because he would bring all the pain I had buried to the surface. I wanted to escape but he followed me. He wouldn’t let me get away. He yelled for what felt like hours. He made me hear about all the pain I had put my parents and friends through. He told me I had been selfish and he blamed me for so much that had happened while I was gone. No one was happy, everyone was miserable and it was all my fault. It was too much for me to take and suddenly the dam of emotion broke and I lost it. I cried eight months worth of sorrow and pain that I had bottled up inside. It all came rushing out of me and he held me as I cried.

When I had cried all the tears I had I looked at him and saw my grief mirrored in his eyes. I knew that he was also hurting. I asked him to tell me about Roswell and all that had happened. We went back to my apartment and he told me everything. So much had happened. They had nearly been destroyed by the Skins, had met their dupes from New York who nearly been killed them. They had faced another alien that could have infected the planet with a killer virus and they were all remembering a little bit more about their past. He told me everything that had happened to them but he had left out how everyone was. When he was yelling at me he told me that everyone was miserable so I asked him to tell me why. He explained that things were different in Roswell and how relationship had ended and new ones began but that no one was really happy. People were together because they needed comfort and needed a connection with someone. Love was something in the past for all of them. I cried again for all of us and again he held me. He asked me to come home but I said it was to late for that. The damage had already been done.

 I told him everything that night. I told him about Future Max and what we had done and why. He was quiet for along time after that and then he did something that surprised me. He thanked me. He thanked me for giving up my life, my dreams for them. I told him it didn’t matter. Everything I had done was for nothing. Because of me they were all at odds and there was no way they could survive if they weren’t together as a team. He told me I was wrong that even though things were messed up right now when the time came we would be able to join forces once again. The four of them were together and with their human friends they would prevail.

I told him that I wasn’t ready to go back. I couldn’t handle Roswell yet. He said he would stay with me until I was ready to go back. I told him he didn’t have to but he insisted that he did. He called Roswell and told them that he hadn’t found me yet and that he would keep looking. He thought it best if they didn’t know. I agreed. We lived and worked together. He worked at the Diner with me. It was nice having someone around again. It was strictly platonic for a while but soon that changed. You can only live in such close quarters with a person for so long before sexual tension gets in the way. And boy was there a lot of sexual tension between us. To look back I guess there always was. The nights we shared together were beyond anything that I could ever imagine. Even in my wildest most erotic dreams did I ever think that sex could feel that way. But it wasn’t only about sex it was so much more. Love, friendship and a true connection was formed between us.

Once we were “together” I think I was able to put my fears aside and I told him I was ready to go home. He asked me if anything would change between us once we got there and I honestly told him that I hoped not. I loved him and I wanted him to be in my life forever. Destiny and past loves be damned. The look of pure relief on his face when I said that is something that I will always remember and it made me love him all the more.

So we went home and dealt with everything together. And we did stay together. No matter what our friends and family thought about it. Coming home was hard. There was a lot of resentment and pain felt by all. But in the end peace was found. Relationships were once again shifted, some surprisingly so, others not, and everyone was happier.

Today I marry the man I love with my best friends and family at my side and I truly could not imagine being happier or my life being any different.

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“You ready chica.” Maria shouts in the room.

Liz puts down her journal and puts it in her bag. She walks over to a very pregnant Maria. She smiles at her best friend. 

“I’m ready. How about you?” Liz says patting Maria’s stomach.

“Oh I am more than ready. The little prince here has been kicking like crazy all day.”

“Well then lets get this show on the road before he decides to make his grand entrance.” Liz laughs.

“Oh I think he will wait a little while longer but I’m not so sure about the groom. He is tearing a hole up in the carpet pacing back and forth. Of course Kyle, Alex and my wonderful husband aren’t making things easier with their speeches on the wonders of being married.”

“And have Isabel and Tess heard what they have to say about that?” Liz asks.

“Yes. We all have been eavesdropping. The guys will pay later don’t worry about that.” Maria and Liz both laugh.

“Ok well I am ready. For better or worse.” Liz says.

“Ok girlfriend lets get you married. Just think the next time we talk you will no longer be Liz Parker.”

“That’s right. I will be Liz Guerin.”

The End.

Authors note: This idea came from polarist@luukku.com.