
Title: Maria's
Secret
Author: Jagged Love
Rating: PG 13
Summary: The best secret is one kept close to your heart.
{By nature I'm not a very secretive person. So people seem to think. They think that I can't keep a secret just because I'm bubbly and overly-hyper. The truth is that I don't have many secrets. So the ones that I do have I tend to guard with my life.
Four of my friends are not of this earth. Max and Isabel Evans, Michael Guerin, and Tess Harding. Only five of us humans know their secret; Liz Parker, Alex Whitman, Sheriff Valenti and his son Kyle, and me, of course. The second secret I carry (one that I wish I had received secondly instead of thirdly) is shared between Liz, Kyle, and I. That is the secret regarding the visit Liz received from a future version of the love of her life, Max Evans. It's also the reason she slept with Kyle, or pretended to anyways. (Wish I would have known that immediately afterwards.)
My third and final secret is shared by me only. It's the reason for this story I'm about to share with you. The reason for my flight from Roswell and the reason I'm returning a changed girl. Actually, no longer a girl, but a woman who's been forced to grow up over night. No longer that bubbly young girl who was so much in love with Michael Guerin.
My story begins on the night that Max found Liz in bed with Kyle. That same night my heart was broken once again by the one who I thought that I would love forever. Michael Guerin. The STONE WALL.}
Sixteen-year-old Maria Deluca felt as if her life was ending. Once again she opened her heart to her sometimes boyfriend Michael only to have him disappoint her again. This time he went to far. She caught him with another girl. After he's told her time and time again that he could not afford to get attached to anyone. He goes to Courtney, a girl Maria suspects of being in league with the very race of aliens that are after the Pod Squad (as Kyle so adequately dubbed them). Michael finally managed to trample her heart into a million tiny pieces.
She was spread out across her bed with her face buried in her pillow, trying to hold in the flood of tears threatening to come out. She was crying so hard that she didn't realize that Max was outside her window tapping lightly to get her attention.
Max was having some trouble of his on. He went to his girlfriend Liz's house to invite her out on a date. When he got onto her balcony he looked into her room and there he saw that she was in bed with her ex-boyfriend, Kyle Valenti, a guy that he had healed and trusted with his secret. He had never felt so betrayed in his whole life.
Max really needed someone to talk to and Maria was the most obvious choice. They had really gotten to be close friends that past summer and he felt he could tell her anything. He knew that if he went to Michael then he would have received a lecture about how he should have never involved himself with Liz in the first place. If he went to Isabel then she would try to meddle in his affairs and he really didn't want that.
He zapped the lock on Maria's window and stepped into her room. He noticed Maria lying on the bed crying.
"Maria?" He sat down on the bed next to her and began to gently shake her.
"Maria girlfriend, what's wrong?"
"Go away Max. I don't want to talk about it." She tried to push him away but failed miserably. Max refused instead he scooped her up into his arms and rocked her back and forth as if she was a little baby. His actions caused he to cry harder.
"Shh. Shh. It's going to be alright. Just let it all out Ria." They stayed in that position for the next ten minutes until finally Maria managed to calm down.
Maria pulled out of his arms and stood up and went to her bathroom. A few minutes later Max heard the shower running. He stood up and went to her dresser to pull out her some nightclothes, knowing she didn't have any in the bathroom with her. He was familiar with Maria's room having slept over many times during the summer. Whenever either of them had a problem they usually comforted each other bye staying up late watching movies and eating ice cream.
"Max?" Maria called. "Could you get me some night clothes?"
"Already working on it girlfriend. Are you in the mood for Bugs Bunny tonight?" He asked while pulling out her favorite pajama set.
"No. I'm feeling ferocious tonight. I'm in the mood for Taz."
"One Tasmanian devil coming up." He got the specified jimmies and walked over to the bathroom door. He tapped lightly and she reached out a hand and took them from him.
"Is your mom still at that convention in Albuquerque?" He asked through the door.
"Yes she want be back until Tuesday. Max what brought you over tonight?" She opened the bathroom door and walked over to the lazy boy couch in the corner of her room. She curled up in the couch and stared at Max.
He sighed and gathered up his nightclothes that he had left over there before. "I'll tell you everything when I get through with my shower. Then you'll tell me why you were crying. Though I know it has to do with Michael and I'll probably have to kick his ass tomorrow."
Maria laughed and said, "Hurry up then."
{We slept the sleep of innocents that night, Max and I. I wish we could have both just repeated those moments alone together over and over instead of allowing the problems of following months to intrude. But alas that wish was not fated to come true.}
Max was the first to wake. It was just the break of dawn. He turned to the sleeping girl next to him and smiled at the peaceful look on her face. The problems that were so pressing on her nerves last night seemed so far away. He wished that they wouldn't intrude on her today but he knew that that would not happen. He knew that as soon as she awoke the memories of whatever Michael did to her would come rushing back. He should know. He had his own visions of Liz and Kyle swimming through his head.
Max got up out the bed slowly, trying not to wake Maria. He picked up his clothes off of her dresser then headed for the bathroom to dress. When he came out of the room he found Maria sitting up in the bed staring at him sleepily.
"Morning girlfriend." He said. "How are you feeling this morning?"
"Okay, I guess. Not completely over Michael but I'm bearing." She sighed and stood up. She walked over to her dresser and looked at herself in the mirror.
"Ugh, looks like I've been crying all night."
"Well you have." He pulled her into his arms. "Are you ready to tell me what happened with you and Michael last night?"
"Yeah, I guess, but first go make us some breakfast while I get dressed."
"Kay." He walked out of the room and headed towards the kitchen. He knew she was going to ask him to cook. Even though she worked in a restaurant Maria was a dreadful cook. He made 3 ham and cheese omelets, two for him and one for Maria, and put on a pot of coffee.
"Mmm, something smells nice." Maria said when she finally came down stairs.
"I'm glad you came over last night. I really appreciated you being there for me."
"Hey I had my own reasons for coming over, but I'm glad I could help." He set their plates down on the table while Maria fixed their orange juice and coffee.
"What made you come over Max?" She asked while sitting down.
"No I'm not going to explain my problem first. I want to know what Michael did last night to make you cry like that."
"I went over to the waitress Courtney's house because I thought that there was something suspicious about her." She paused to take a sip of coffee.
"When I got there Michael answered the door."
"What?" Max was shocked.
"Yeah. He claims that he was just asking her a few questions about why she had some pictures of him but then she came out of the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel and I noticed that Michael was wearing lipstick. So it was obvious what had been going on and what was about to happen."
"Maria, are you sure? I mean maybe it was all innocent." He asked trying to justify in his mind how Michael could be such an ass.
"Yeah I'm sure. There's no mistaking what Courtney said when she came out of the bathroom. `Michael sweetie why don't you get a little bit more comfortable and take off that shirt.' She didn't know that I was at the door. So basically I called him an asshole and told him that I never wanted to speak to him again." She drained her cup of coffee and continued. "I don't get him Max. How could he say that he couldn't get close to me because he was afraid of leaving me and not being able to protect me? There he was with another girl. He didn't seem too concerned with protecting her or leaving her. How could he be such a lying jerk Max?"
"I don't know why he's like that Maria. All I can say is that you're better off with out him. I'm sorry he hurt you again Ria."
"Oh Max it's going to be so hard for me to get over him. I mean you saw how I was this summer. Calling him every day. This time I don't want to have anything to do with him at all."
"That's going to be kind of hard. You know that right? I'll try to limit your intake of Michael daily though. Okay?"
Maria laughed. "I don't see how you can do it but okay. Now, Max, enough about my problems. Don't think that I didn't notice that something was hurting you last night. I'm hyper but not blind. Tell me what happened to you last night."
He lowered his fork to his plate stalling for time. Then he looked up and Maria and smirked. "Oh you know I did the usual last night. Went to Liz house to moon over her and invite her to go to the Counting Crows concert with me. Went up to her balcony looked in and was surprised to see her and Kyle in bed together. That's about how my night went."
"Oh no Max. Are you sure? I mean Liz is not like that. Liz would never go all the way without discussing it with me first. You had to have been seeing things." Maria did not believe for one minute that Liz could have slept with Kyle.
"I knew you wouldn't believe me. So I'm going to link with you and show you what I saw." He scooted next to Maria and put each of his hands on the side of her head. "You have to totally blank your mind and open up to me."
"Okay." She closed her eyes and did what he said, a few seconds later her mind was flooded with Max's view of things from last night. "Oh my God Max. It's true. Liz slept with Kyle. How could she do that to you? How could Kyle do that to Tess?"
"I don't know Ria. Those are questions I've been asking myself since last night." He stood up and gathered up the breakfast dishes. "I don't know anything anymore. I never thought Liz could ever betray me like that. I should have known though. Ever since she came back from Florida she's been a completely different person."
"Oh Max. Well there has to be a legitimate reason. Maybe..." He put a finger to her lips to stop her flow of words.
"Maria I don't care what the reason is. I could never forgive Liz for what she did last night. That was no simple kissing. She slept with Kyle. Nothing she has to say could make me forgive her or him."
"I guess you're right. I just don't understand it. That's just so unlike Liz. Oh man Tess is going to be so crushed."
"You can't tell Tess or anybody. We're just going to pretend like it never happened. However, it's completely over between me and Liz."
"Okay. It's a good thing Tess doesn't acknowledge her feelings for Kyle. Now she won't be hurt too much when she finds out about them. I like Tess a lot. Despite her bringing all that destiny crap. She's a sweetie once you get to know her."
"She's alright. Ever since she stopped coming after me I've started seeing her as a possible friend." Max dried off the dishes and set them into the dishwasher. "Anyway I don't want to be around to many people today, so we need to find something to do. I do need to call Isabel though and let her know where I'm at."
"Whatever. As if she doesn't know you spent the night at my house. You practically lived here during the summer." Maria laughed. "Anyway how about we ride over to the county fair they're having over in Carter."
"Okay that's a plan. I need to go home first to change clothes and cars. The jeep isn't in good enough condition to drive into Carter. Do you want to come with me? Or should I just come back for you in about an hour?"
"I'll go with you. I'm already dressed and I have nothing else better to do. Just let me put on my shoes and get my purse." She ran upstairs and five minutes later she returned. "Let's go."
* * * * 5 * * * *
The next morning the two newly lovers woke up to a beautiful sunrise. They
smiled in unison as their minds traveled back to the lovely night that they
shared. Maria looked up into Max deep brown eyes shyly and then leaned towards
him for a kiss.
"Good morning Mr. Evans." She said sweetly. "Did you have a good
sleep?"
"Hmm yes very much Ms. Deluca. It was made even better due to the fact that
you were next to me. All my dreams were about you." He pulled her into his
arms and kissed her gently on the top of her head.
They went back to kissing for a few more minutes. Then Maria pulled away and
said, "We really need to get dressed. The others will be here after while
and it's bad enough that we'll be seen in clothes we had on last night."
"I can take care of that." He said. "My alien powers are pretty
useful at times.
The stood up and managed to get dressed. Then Max ran his hands down the front
of Maria's clothes changing them into a completely different outfit. He then did
the same for himself. "Thanks Max. You're so thoughtful."
"No problem my sweet." They both walked hand in hand back to the
center of the maze to start cleaning up while they waited on the others.
Tess and Kyle were the first to arrive. Tess walked over to where Maria was
packing the candles into a box and started to help. "So Maria how does it
feel to be close to legal?"
"Ahh, well it feels great. And you guys really made it special for me
yesterday. Thanks." She smiled at Tess and then they went back to work.
All throughout the day no one noticed the change in Maria and Max's
relationship, except Isabel. She knew that Max didn't come home last night and
after a short hint around conversation with Amy she knew that Maria didn't
either. She also noticed the shy but sweet glances they shared every now and
then and also the times they took to sneak off together.
She decided to follow them just to see what was up. She was shocked when she saw
Max take Maria into his arms and proceeding to kiss her madly.
"Oh Max." Maria was saying, "I can't believe we actually went all
the way last night. It was so wonderful and glorious."
He was smiling goofily. "I know it was awesome for me too. Gosh I'm glad I
never went all the way with Liz. I'm actually glad that we were each others
first."
"Me too." She replied.
Isabel was shocked she didn't know whether to be angry at Max for doing
something that they all promised not to do or to be happy for him that he
actually found true love instead of that puppy love mess he shared with Liz. She
settled on being happy for him. Max had experienced a lot of heartache at the
hands of Liz Parker and he deserved every bit of happiness he could get.
Isabel turned and was about to walk away when realized that she wasn't the only
one following people today.
"Liz!" Isabel spoke a little nervously wondering at what all Liz had
seen and heard.
"Isabel, Alex was looking for you. So I saw you come this way so I came to
get you. What are you doing back here?" She asked.
Isabel figured she didn't see anything so she steered her back to the park.
"I just wanted to see where this path would lead me."
"Oh well ok."
Later that day Liz showed up at Maria's house. Maria invited Liz in a little
hesitantly, wondering why she was coming to see her now after all this time she
avoided her. "Maria I need to talk to you about something really important.
It's about Max and I."
"Oh what is it?" She asked not really wanting to know. She felt that
what Liz had to say was something bad that was going to ruin her new
relationship with Max.
"Maria, I'm pretty sure that Max has told you that he caught me sleeping
with Kyle. Am I right?" She looked into Maria's eyes already knowing the
answer. Maria hesitated then said, "Yeah he told me. How could you do it
Liz?"
Liz sighed in frustration. She wasn't planning on telling anyone about her visit
from future Max, but she saw Maria and Max in the garden and she heard their
conversation. She was still in love with Max and as soon as Tess staying in
Roswell was secure she planned on getting Max back. She was not about to let
Maria stand in her way. She knew that once she told Maria about her visit from
Future Max she'd back away from Max. So she decided to spill.
"I didn't really sleep with Kyle, Maria. I just made Max think I did."
"What? I don't believe you. Why would you do that Liz?"
Liz went into the explanation about her visit from FM and how he said she had to
get his present self to fall out of love with her. Through her whole explanation
Maria was silent and on the verge of tears. When Liz finished Maria couldn't
look at her in the face. She was ashamed. She had slept with Max knowing that he
was once in love with Liz. Now she finds out that Liz was still in love with him
and that she didn't sleep with Kyle. Damn, her life was such a mess now.
"So why are you telling me this now?" She quietly asked. "Why
now?"
"Well I overheard Tess telling Kyle that she really loved him. That she was
no longer in love with Max. She never was." Liz was lying she didn't know
for sure whether or not Tess was in love with Kyle, nor did she care. "I
knew that this was my chance to finally get Max back."
"So why tell me? Why not just tell Max about FM and go after him
yourself?"
"I can't do it on my own. He wouldn't believe me. Besides FM said that I
couldn't tell him anything. I need your help getting Max back." She smiled
secretly at the dejected look on Maria's face. She decided to rub it in some
more. "So will you help me? Help me get back my soul mate?"
Maria was slowly breaking inside. She felt so torn. She knew she had to help Liz
get Max back even though she was in love with him. She knew that Max had once
loved Liz and he never professed his love for her. So as far as she knew he was
still probably in love with Liz and just using her as a rebound. She knew that
she couldn't continue to be with Max knowing Liz was still in love with him and
that he might still be in love with her.
"Yeah I'll help you." She stood up signaling that she was ready for
Liz to leave. "I don't mean to rush you or anything but I really have to
get some chores done for my mom. I'll talk to you later. Bye"
"Kay bye. Call me." Maria shut the door silently behind Liz. She stood
at the door until she was sure that she was gone. Then she turned and ran
upstairs to her room breaking down in tears. `Oh God,' she thought, `why was
this happening to her?' She didn't know what to do next. She was so in love with
Max but then Liz was in love with him also and he was Liz's first. She knew one
thing, she couldn't stay and watch Liz going after Max. She couldn't watch Max
slowly fall back into Liz's clutches. She knew that at that moment she hated Liz
with a passion. She's never hated Liz before. Even when she first heard that Liz
slept with Kyle she didn't hate her. She was angry with her but she didn't
hater. Now, Maria knew that she truly, madly, crazily hated Liz Parker.
* * * * 6 * * * *
Three weeks had passed since the revelation from Liz. Maria still didn't know
what to do. She was sitting on her bed staring at Shay, the birthday bear that
Max had bought for her. She looked up when she heard a light tapping at her
window. She gave an agonized sigh when she saw that it was Max at the window.
She shook her head first, to deny him entrance into her room. Then she changed
her mind and motioned for him to come in.
Max entered and walked slowly over to the bed and sat down next to her.
"Maria, you've been avoiding me for awhile now. Want to tell me why?"
"No not really." She turned away from him. "I really don't want
to talk about it."
"Why? Did something happen?" he asked confusedly. "Did I do
something wrong?" She sighed. "No it's not you. You didn't do
anything. I've just been thinking and..." She trailed off. She wasn't ready
to continue with the lie she thought of to tell him.
"What? Maria what is it? Tell me?" He forced her to turn back and face
him. He tried to pull her into his arms but she resisted.
"Max I'm not in love with you." She cried. "I still love Michael.
I tried to accept you in his place but I realized that I shouldn't use you like
that."
"What? Are you trying to tell me you're still in love with Michael."
He pulled back in anger. He ran his hands through his hair in frustration.
"Maria, that's just not possible. Not after what we shared."
"It's true Max. I don't mean to hurt you but it's true. I'm still in love
with Michael. He will always be my first and only love."
"God. Stop saying that Maria. Please. Not after giving me your innocence.
Where were your thoughts of Michael then? Hunh? You tell me that." He stood
up and began to pace. "I can't believe you're doing this Maria. Why?"
Maria was crying heavily now. "I don't mean to do this to you Max but
that's how I feel. My only explanation is that I got caught up in the moment. I
should have told you from the beginning that I still loved him. I'm sorry.
Please forgive me."
Maria was on the verge of giving in and telling Max the complete truth but then
she heard Liz's voice coming from downstairs and she knew she had to hold out
until Max left. Maria had plans of leaving as soon as she ended things Max. Her
bags were already packed in her closet. She made plans to transfer schools. She
was going to stay with an aunt of hers that lived in Florida. Her mom didn't
want her to go but Maria made up some excuse about wanting to see her cousins
and needing to get away from Michael.
She wasn't going to tell anyone she was leaving or where she was going. She
decided to let Amy break the news to them.
"I really can't believe you would do this to me. You know how I was after
Liz. Now you're doing the same thing. I didn't realize you could be so cruel
Maria. God I wish I had never laid eyes on you. Damn, I don't ever want to see
you again. You got that?" He turned and went out through the window.
Maria wanted to continue to just lay on her bed and cry but she knew she had to
go downstairs to talk to Liz. After that chore was completed she ran back
upstairs and started pulling her suitcases out of the closet. She gathered up
Shay and set everything downstairs. Her mom came out of the back room.
"Do you have everything packed Sweetie?" Asked Amy.
"Yeah I have everything." Together they loaded her things into the
car. Maria took one last look at her house before getting in the car and never
looking back.
Her aunt Maggie was there to greet her as soon as she got off the plane.
"Maria, you look so pretty. You've gotten even more beautiful since I saw
you last."
"Thank you aunt Maggie. I've been working out." She said with a smile.
"Let's get your luggage and we'll be off. You're going to love it here.
Jacksonville is a beautifully city. Don't think you're going to be lonely here.
It won't take you long to make friends in our neighborhood."
Maria really did enjoy staying in Jacksonville. She met a lot of really great
new friends. But no guy in that city could compare to Max. She didn't forget
about her other friends in Roswell. Through emails and brief phone conversations
she managed to stay in touch with Isabel, Alex, and Tess. She ignored any calls
she received from Liz and she never tried to call her herself. Max didn't
contact her at all. For that she was hurt but she understood how he was feeling.
She had been in Florida for two months when she realized that she was pregnant.
She took a pregnancy test and it came up positive. When it did she broke down
and cried. She was pregnant with Max's child and he hated her guts. She didn't
know what to do. She knew her first step had to be to make a trip with a doctor.
Then she quickly struck that idea down. Her baby would be half alien and
something suspicious was sure to happen during her pregnancy. The only person
she could think of going to was Isabel. Spring break was coming up, Maria
decided to invite Isabel and Tess to Florida to spend time with her.
She picked up her phone and called Isabel. "Hello?"
"Isabel, it's me Maria."
"Hey girl. How are you?"
"Okay I guess. Everything is going smoothly down here." She paused.
"I was wondering if you and Tess had any major plans for spring
break."
"No not really. Alex parents are taking him on a cruise so I have no man to
associate with. I don't want to spend spring break watching Liz chase Max. I'm
pretty sure Tess doesn't either. Let me call her and we can have a three way.
Hold on."
A few seconds later she came back on the line. The phone rung twice before Tess
picked it up. "Hello?"
"Hey Tess. It's me Isabel. Maria is on the other end. She wants to know
what our plans are for spring break. I'm free. How about you?"
"Spring break? Well I'm definitely free. Florida is the best place to enjoy
spring break."
"So y'all don't mind coming to spend time with me? Good. I really need you
guys right about now anyway." Maria stated.
"Why? What's wrong?" They both asked at the same time.
"Nothing I want to go into over the phone. I'll tell you two all about it
when you get here."
"Okay well we'll take the first flight out of here on Friday night. We'll
call you once we make our reservations." Said Isabel.
"Okay well I'll talk to you two then. Good bye and thanks." She waited
for their response before hanging up the phone.