Just
for tonight
By Ruby
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Couple: Max and Tess!
Summary: I was listening to I can't
make you love me by Bonnie Raitt and these story just came to me. It was
meant to be just one part but I started writing the next part and then I
started planning a sequal and so on from there. I have never written a rebel
fic before so feedback would be great!

This is set after
Heart of mine So Alex is still alive and Tess is
still wonderful!!! And big thanks to Ella1022 for making the banner!!!
Just for tonight
The rain beat softly against the window symbolising that the world was still
turning however in the candle lit room the two lovers stood facing each
other oblivious to the world outside as time seemed to stand still.
Just for tonight would they be together, all they had was tonight to create
the memories she would carry with her for the rest of her life, she reached
out to him gently caressing his cheek. She swallowed back the lump that
formed in her throat and blinked away the tears. The voices in the back off
her head whispered to her. Telling her that she was touching stolen goods,
that he didn’t belong to her, he wasn’t hers to touch, to love, to have
and to hold. And if she was being truthful to herself, she would admit that
she knew all along that he was never hers, that she knew he didn’t love
her the way she loved him. And it hurt, deep down inside of her she could
already feel her world falling to pieces but she pushed it away, just for
tonight. Tomorrow when morning came would she think about losing him, she
would deal with the heartbreak tomorrow.
Turn down the lights;
Turn down the bed.
Turn down these voices
Inside my head.
Lay down with me;
Tell me no lies.
Just hold me close;
Don't patronize.
Don't patronize me.
“Tess” He whispered her name, speaking it as if it was a prayer. He
could sense that something was different tonight, there was something
different about her, about the way she looked at him, the way she touched
him, even the way she said his name was different. He wanted to ask her what
was wrong so that he could fix it for her but the silent urgency in her eyes
stopped him. He knew what she wanted and he was only too willing to give it
to her. He traced her soft, pink lips with his thumb before leaning down and
capturing them with a bittersweet fervour. His arms wrapped around her waist
mating their bodies together as her arms automatically went around his neck
pulling him even closer to her. His arms moved to her hips, supporting her
as her legs wrapped around his waist. He moved towards the bed, not breaking
the kiss as he laid her down carefully.
“Tess…” He whispered tenderly. As he lost himself in her blue eyes and
in that moment he knew that he had to tell her how he felt. “Tess, I
lo…”
“Max, please not tonight!” Tess said cutting him off “Just let tonight
be about you and me, no words!”
Max frowned but didn’t say anymore, the pleading look in her eyes enough
to silence him. There would be other nights.
“This is in the way!” He stated tugging her shirt over her head to
reveal a pale blue bra. His hand moved lower down towards her pants “And
these!” he said pulling them off her to discover a pair of matching blue
panties. He felt the air leave his lungs has he looked down at. She was
breath taking. He pushed a rebellious curl behind her ear tenderly.
“You are so beautiful!” he said looking at her with an intensity that
made her blush.
“I think someone is a little over dressed and I don’t think that it is
me!” She whispered, her body burning for his touch.
“Whatca going to do about it?” Max asked playfully raising an eyebrow
“Stand up!” Tess ordered pushing him away from her.
“Tess…” Max began to whine reaching for her.
“Max, stand up!” Tess demand pulling him up
“What are you doing?” Max asked watching her hungrily
“Sorting out your clothes situation!” Tess said running her hands up his
chest; her body ached with the need to be closer to him, for skin on skin
contact. She started to unbutton his shirt, her hands trembling.
“We don’t have to…” Max started, his hands coming up to cover hers
stopping the in their task. “We could just sleep. We have all the time in
the world to do other things.”
Tess was torn between laughing and crying. Just sleep? When had they ever
been able to ‘just sleep’? All the time in the world, she wished it were
true. She wished that she could spend the rest of her life with him but she
couldn’t, no amount of wishing was going to change that. Ever. She looked
up into his eyes with longing “Max, I need you!” her voice sounded husky
and foreign. He moved his hand letting her carry on her mission of
undressing him and soon enough was standing wearing just his boxers.
“You have me!” He said running his hands down her back, her skin satin
smooth under his fingertips. As he looked into her eyes he saw hopefulness
and disbelief, taken back a little, he pulled her closer to him. It had
never occurred to him that she might doubt his feelings for her. “You have
me! Now and always I am yours!” He said forcefully.
'Cuz I can't make you love me.
If you don't.
You can't make your heart feel.
Something it won't.
Here in the dark.
In these final hours,
I will lay down my heart.
And I'll feel the power.
But you won't.
No, you won't.
'Cuz I can't make you love me.
If you don't.
You have me! Now and always I am yours! Her
heart stopped beating. She had waited her entire life to hear him say those
words to her but now it was too late. She couldn’t bring herself to
believe it. Dreams didn’t come true. Especially hers. And how was she
meant to compete with the soul mate love that him and Liz Parker shared? How
could he tell her that he was hers when she saw the way he still looked
longingly at Liz whenever she was near? Tess loved Max, she loved him with
all her heart but she couldn’t make him love her so she had to leave him,
had to end it before he did. She was setting him free but before she did she
needed something to hold on to. So just for tonight she could have him. She
would give him everything she had to offer; everything and then she would
walk away. It would kill her no doubt but she had to be strong, had to do it
not just for Max but for herself as well.
Her hands moved in a feather light touch across his sun kissed skin, her
eyes closed as she let down all her walls and moved towards him. She stood
on her tiptoes kissing a trail along his strong jaw, her hands cupping his
face as her lips pressed more kisses all over his face before Max crashed
his lips with hers passionately, his tongue sliding between her parted lips
seeking out hers. The lovers touched each other with a desperate need, legs
becoming tangled together as they fell onto the bed.
“Mine!” Max whispered as he nuzzled her neck, biting and sucking,
leaving a mark that claimed her as his mate.
“Always!” Tess moaned, her hands tangled in his hair, her body arched
against his with uncontrollable longing. Her hands wondered down the
resilient muscles of his back.
Max freed her breasts from the bra, gently kneaded and stroked her honey
soft flesh. He captured a rose tipped nipple between his lips, taking it
between his teeth, he tugged it gently causing a gasp of pleasure to leave
Tess’s lips. He showered the same attention to her other breast, the scent
of her arousal hung heavy in the air, intoxicating him. He moved lower down,
kissing a trail of fire along her already burning skin.
I'll close my eyes,
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're holding me.
Morning will come,
And I'll do what's right;
Just give me till then
To give up this fight.
“Max, I need you now” Tess whispered pulling Max up towards her face.
She wrapped one of her arms around his neck, her hand playing with the ends
of his soft hair while her other hand moved down the hardness of his chest.
Her legs wrapped around his narrow hips.
“Tess” Max mumbled before kissing her feathery soft, his hands running
through her hair. He entered her fully with a single thrust, burying himself
deep within her.
Tess gasped in pleasure as he filled her completely. She arched up into his
body, meeting his slow thrusts. They moved together in perfect harmony, lost
in each other completely. She clung to him, her nails racking across his
back, her body moving against his as she gave herself to him completely,
dropping all walls, every touch, every look, every word was full of love,
love that was all for him. She closed her eyes as she felt Max slowly
pushing her over the edge into what could only be known as utter bliss.
“Tess…” Max moaned her name while his hands caressed her body gently
as he quickened the pace sensing that Tess was near her climax,
Tess opened her eyes and looked up into Max’s chocolate colored eyes, her
breath caught in her throat as flashes hit her with the impact of bullets.
Max leaving his pod. Max walking to the road holding Isabel’s hand his
other reaching out to Michael. Max getting off the school bus and seeing Liz
for the very first time. Max and Michael driving in the desert. Max sitting
with his parents watching TV. Max watching Liz and Maria talking in the
hallway. Max watching Liz and Kyle with bitter resentment. Max healing Liz
the day of the shooting. Max trying to push Liz away. Max and Liz sharing
their first kiss. Max telling Liz that he loved her and always would.
Tess let out a cry and held back tears that threaten to fall. She pushed Max
away from her forcing the flashes to stop as she broke the connection. She
couldn’t bear to see any more flashes that involved happy Liz moments. She
moved away from him, covering her naked form with a sheet as she sat up.
This was it. It was over. “Max…”
“You can’t!” Max cut her off not wanting her to finish her sentence
because he already knew what she was going to say. His closed his eyes
trying to gain some control as his body shuddered with the satisfaction of
release and his heart fell to pieces. The flashes had made his eyes sting as
they showed him an apart of Tess that she had kept hidden. Her past had
flashed in his mind, her loneliness as a child growing up. Her longing for a
family. Her dreams of destiny. Her hatred for Nasedo as he lectured her on
being above humans. Her love for Nasedo the only family she had as he told
her stories about their planet and her past life. Her heartbreak as he
pushed her away, the tears she cried as he told her he could never love
anyone but Liz. Tess’s first taste of happiness as Jim and Kyle welcomed
her into their family. Her doubt about letting Max back in. Tess as she let
go of destiny and welcomed his friendship. Her nervousness as their
friendship deepened and they share! d a kiss at prom. Her love for him that
runs so deep yet never seemed enough. The nights she spent wondering how
long it was going to be until he left her. Her heartbreak as she decided she
would end it before he could.
She was leaving him.
“I am sorry Max!” Tess whispered, she picked her clothes off the floor
and began to get redress as quickly as possible.
“You can’t just leave, Tess, we need to talk. I saw everything.” Max
stated, his eyes pleading with her to stay from where he sat powerless to
move on the bed.
“Me too!” she said, she had seen too much and it made her that much more
determined to go. “Good bye Max” She walked to the door, ready to leave
but hesitated when he cried her name, she turned her eyes meeting his.
“I love you!” Max said his voice full of emotion. He held his breath,
praying that she would stay.
It took all her strength to turn and leave. She waited until she had closed
the door to let the tears fall as something died in her as she whispered to
the darkness
“I love you too!”
And I will give up this fight
Part 2
Kyle let himself into his room or well Tess’s room, as it was now know as.
It was dark, the curtains still drawn even though it was three in the
afternoon. Some crappy chick tearjerker music played in the background while
soft sobs came from the bed where Tess laid hidden by covers. This had been
going on too long, it was time to put a stop to it and he was just the man
to do it. What was it about the male aliens that made all females that ever
went near them end up crying. If Maria wasn’t crying about something that
Michael had done, then Liz was crying about something Max did and now Tess
was crying over Max as well. What was so great about Max Evans anyway? Kyle
couldn’t understand, Evans wasn’t anything special, ok so he was tall,
dark and mysterious but how could anyone get past those ears?
“Go away Kyle!” Tess sniffed from the bed
“I don’t think so!” Kyle said turning the CD player off and opening
the curtains and a window letting some fresh air in! the room. “Hey,
you’re not a pile of dust. And here I was thinking that you had been
turned into a vampire, what with all this hiding in the dark you’ve been
doing for the last week.” Kyle joked. He pulled the covers back to revel
Tess. Her pjs were crumpled; her hair knotted and unkempt and her eyes were
filled with the pain of heartbreak, sore and puffy from crying.
“Vampire? I think you watch too much Buffy the Vampire Slayer!” Tess
said
“What can I say? Buffy is hot!” Kyle grinned
“Kyle, I am really not in the mood, I just want to be alone!”
“Sorry. Can’t let that happen! Its time for you to leave this room even
if its just to get something to eat and shower because I hate to say this
but you look like hell and you are starting to smell!”
“Thanks Kyle that’s just what I want to hear!” Tess said rolling her
eyes in disgust
“Tess, I am sorry for what you went through but its time you get the hell
out of this room. I am not g! oing to let you drown yourself in self-pity.
No way no how!”
“Well I hate to tell you this Kyle, but if I want to drown in self-pity
then that’s what I am going to do! You can’t tell me what to do! You are
not the boss of me!”
“Right so we are going to do this the hard way!” Kyle said determined to
get Tess back to her normal self even if it killed him
“We’re not doing it anyway so you might as well go and watch football or
something!”
“The hard way it is then!” Kyle said pulling Tess off the bed and
lifting her off her feet
“Kyle!” Tess screamed, “Put me down! This isn’t funny!”
“I know!”
“Kyle, you are such a insensitive jerk! Put me down!” Tess demanded
kicking her feet
“You’re going to thank me!” Kyle stated hoping that he was right,
remembering that he had to be cruel to be kind to snap Tess out of this
phrase she was going through.
“I am going to kill you! Put me down right now otherwise I am going! to
use my powers on you.” Tess threatened
“Promises, promises!” Kyle muttered knowing that it was an idle threat,
one that Tess liked to use every time she didn’t get her own way. Kyle
kicked open the door to the bathroom and walked towards the shower. He
opened the door placing Tess under the showerhead.
“Kyle Valenti, I swear that I am going to…” her eyes were wide as
Kyle’s hand rested on the tap head.
“What? What are you going to do?” Kyle asked, enjoying it more then he
should be.
“Kyle, I will…” Tess let out a scream as cold water sprayed all over
her causing her hair and clothes to mould against her “Kyle!” she
shrieked in outrage
Kyle grinned, “I am going to leave you to get washed up!” he paused by
the bathroom door “Unless of course you want me to wash your back?” he
ducked out of the way of the soap that Tess threw at him “I take that as a
no then!”
Tess rolled her eyes and waited until Kyle had left before strippin! g out
of her wet pjs. She hated to admit it but Kyle was right. She had had a week
of self-pity, torturing herself with ‘what ifs’ and what could have
been. A week without Max, without his touch, without the sound of his voice,
without his laugh, without his smile, without his eyes and everything else
that was Max like. A week without it and she was still alive, she was still
breathing. It was strange to think that even though she loved him she could
live without him. But then again she didn’t love Max that it made her want
to die, what type of love was that anyway? Romeo and Juliet, a great love
story but not the type of love that Tess wanted. No she would leave the
star-crossed lovers thing to Max and Liz. It stung to think that right at
this moment Max could be with Liz, touching her, kissing her, loving her
that he might be doing all the things they did together but this time with
Liz. It more then stung, its burned but it didn’t matter, she had made her
choice when she ! opened that door and walked out of it.
But it didn’t matter; what she felt for Max would never change. She would
always love him, loving him made her want to live, made her feel alive. This
last week she had cried enough to last her a lifetime as she grieved for
what she had given up but she still had her memories and nobody could ever
take those away from her.
She had done the right thing, walking away that night. God it had been so
hard. And when he told her that he loved her, it should of filled her with
happiness instead it made her heavy with longing as she turned her back on
him, each step away from him was harder then the last when all she wanted to
do was run back to him and into his arms. But she hadn’t. Instead she had
run home, locking herself away from the world.
That was until today although without Kyle, Tess doubted that she would of
left the room that had become her sanctuary.
The hot water soothed her as the sweet smell of her! Vanilla shower gel
clung to her, reviving her body and making her feel the best she had since
that night.
When she finally felt clean, she got out of the shower and pulled a big
fluff towel around her and walked to her room.
Ten minutes later Tess ran a comb through her damp hair as she walked into
the living room dressed in Kyle’s football jersey and a pair of jeans.
“Feel better?” Kyle asked as she sat down beside him.
“Yeah.” Tess smiled
“Good cause you smell better and of course you look a hell of a lot better
as well. As my football jersey moved permanently into your wardrobe?” Kyle
asked raising an eyebrow
“I think it looks cute!” Tess said looking down at herself
“No doubt there! Its looks better on you then it did me!” Kyle said with
a boyish grin.
“Thanks Kyle!” Tess said smiling warmly at him while wondering what
would he ever do without him?
“Hey there’s no need to thank me I didn’t do anythi! ng!”
“You did more then you think Kyle so thanks!” Tess said leaning over and
hugging him tightly.
“You wanna talk about it? Talking cleanses the soul!” Kyle stated
“Buddha?” Tess asked raising an eyebrow.
“Tess, you know that you can talk to me about anything right? I am always
going to be here for you, whenever you need me!”
“Promise?” Tess asked
“Promise!”
“I don’t know, I am just so confused but at the same time I am not,
which makes me more confused. I just got all these questions running around
my head over and over again and then these images. Images of them together.
I just…” Tess sighed, pulling her hair up into a ponytail as she
searched for the word “I just don’t know who I am!”
“You’re Tess Harding!” Kyle stated making Tess laugh
“Yeah but who is that? Who am I? Nasedo was always there telling me who I
was. I was Ava, Queen of Antar, bride to Zan. I was Max’s destiny. And
then we got here and! Max was already with Liz and I found myself stumbling
with only Nasedo to hold me up. He still believed in destiny but I wasn’t
too sure. And then I was only it was just me, I started to wonder who I was
but never got very far before Max walked back to my life and made me fall in
love with him. I was all Nasedo told me I was and yet I still didn’t know
who I was. I felt…” she paused her voice turning as soft as a whisper as
she continued sharing apart of herself with Kyle that he had kept hidden,
pretending that it wasn’t there “I felt lost but Max took that anyway,
he made me feel whole and now I am just lost again!”
“Stay right there!” Kyle ordered getting off the couch quickly and
disappearing into the kitchen.
“Kyle?” Tess frowning wondering what the hell he was doing.
“I know that me and dad aren’t the easiest people to live with but we
wanted to do something for you, to you know welcome you into the family.”
He pushed a small gift-wrapped box i! nto her hands “Just so that you know
that you’re a important part of this family!”
“Kyle, you didn’t have to do this!” Tess said as she looked up at him
where he stood nervously watching her.
“Open it!”
“Ok, ok!” Tess said and tried to open it but it was wrapped up tight,
she used her powers to loosen the tape a little.
“I wrapped it myself!” Kyle said proudly
“I can tell!” Tess said ripping the paper off. When she finally opened
the box her mouthed dropped open slightly in shock. “Wow! Kyle! I can’t
take this. Its too much!” Tess ran her fingers over the gold locket.
“Wait until you see inside!” Kyle said his eyes gleaming
Tess opened the locket and laughed, on one side was a photo of Kyle and Jim,
the other side was empty. She smiled up at him. She was part of a family.
“Put it on me!” Tess ordered getting up and turning her back on Kyle so
that he could put the necklace on her “Thank you!” she said turning
around, sh! e kissed his cheek before hugging him.
Kyle hugged her back, holding her tightly “No problem!”
“I better go and put the garbage out!” Tess stated blinking away her
tears of happiness.
“I can do that!”
“Nah, I do it. You stay here and watch football whatever other sport is
on!” Tess said feeling a little overwhelmed and seeing taking the garbage
out as her perfect excuse to get everything together!
Part 3
“So
was it worth it?”
Max
looked up from his menu into the cold eyes belonging to Liz. The crashdown
was nearly empty apart the odd tourist here and there.
“I’m
going to leave you to it!” Michael said making his escape across the café
to where Maria was. Max watched him go before looking down at his hands. He
really didn’t want to be having this conversation with Liz right now; he
couldn’t deal with it, not after having the week from hell to cope with
already. He knew he shouldn’t have listened to Michael when he suggested
coming to the crashdown, knowing that Michael was lying when he said it
would be good for him to get out of the house for a while. Max had only
agreed to come because there was that small chance that he would see Tess.
“Aren’t
you going to say anything?” Liz asked, her voice cracking. Max looked up
from his hands and she saw pity in his eyes.
When had he started to pity her?
“What
do you want me to say?” Max asked
“I
don’t know. I just wish everything was normal again!” Liz sighed
“What’s
so great about normal?” Max asked a small smile played on his lips but
never reached his eyes
A
smile graced her lips “We were happy weren’t we!” the smile faded
“what happened to us Max?”
“Where
do you want me to start?”
“Max,
don’t act like what we had was nothing. Our relationship was never rocky
like Michael and Maria’s or confusing like Isabel and Alex’s. We were
happy! I just wish everything was hot it was before Tess came and ruined our
lives. We were happy!”
“Don’t
bring Tess into this!” his voice was cold and hard like steel “She
didn’t walk away from me, she didn’t leave me when I needed her the
most, she didn’t sleep with Kyle. And what you were saying about Michael
and Maria’s relationship being rocky look at them!” he pointed across
the crashdown to where Maria and Michael were sat, whispering and smiling
“And Isabel and Alex, well you saw them at prom before you run off to
Sean! They’re happy! If we were so happy why aren’t we together?”
“I
love you Max!” Liz cried
“I
know you do. I ‘m always going to love you Liz but I am not in love
with you. You were my dream girl but you know you’ve got to wake up
sometimes and Tess was my wake up call!”
“Do
you love her?”
“Not
like I loved you!” Max answered truthfully. Liz was his first love; he had
been obsessed with her always believing that she would be out of his reach.
What Max felt for Tess was deeper, she was part of him she completed him.
Liz
blinked away the tears and nodded, “I should get back to work!”
“Trouble
in paradise?” Michael asked as he sat back down with Max
“Shut
up Michael!” Max ordered
“Hey
where are you going?” Michael asked as Max started to get up to leave
“For
a walk!” Max said unable to take the evil glares sent in his direction by
Maria or the longing looks from Liz.
“Hold
up I come with you!”
“I
just want to be lone!” Max stated
“Well
you know where I am if you need me!” Michael said hoping it was the right
thing to say.
Max
nodded; he took one last look at Liz knowing that nothing would ever be the
same between them again before he left the crashdown.
He
walked, not knowing where he was heading or what he was going to do when he
got there. He was lost in every sense of the word.
His
heart was breaking in two as he walked, his eyes trained on the ground, his
hands dug deep into his pockets.
He
was blind to what was going on around him. Nothing was black and white
nothing was simple.
He
followed his feet as they pulled him towards the unknown.
Did
it even matter where he ended up?
The
only place on earth he wanted to be was with Tess, he had wasted so much
time with Liz, never seeing Tess just pushing her away not willing to
listening to what she had to say and then when he had opened his eyes it was
only to lose her again.
He
couldn’t understand what had happened! Why had she left him? What had gone
wrong? Was there someone else in her life? Someone who treated her better
then him? Someone who loved her more?
He
needed to talk to her. He had tried phoning her only to be told to get lost
by Kyle who had become her guard dog. Max decided that the only way to talk
to Tess was go straight to see her and if Kyle tried to stop him that he
would kick his arse even without using his powers.
He
started to walk with more purpose now that he knew what he had to do. He had
to see Tess.
He
walked towards the Valenti house, planning what he was going to say to Tess!
He loved her, he couldn’t live without her, he needed her to take him back
and if she said no, well then he wasn’t going to take no as an answer.
Max
felt his heart tighten in with pain as he looked through the front window of
the Valenti’s place to see Tess kiss and embrace Kyle tightly. He was
going to kill Kyle for even looking at Tess. He moved quickly up the pathway
towards the door. Kyle was a dead human!
Max’s
heart stop beating and all thoughts of killing Kyle were forgotten has he
came face to face with Tess, the smile slid of her face.
“Hey!”
he said, his hands buried deep in his pockets as he fought for control.
“Hey!”
Tess said looking down at her hands
“I
was just passing!” Max said and neither of them bought up the fact that
Max lived on the other side of town and was ‘just passing’ way out of
his way.
“Not
as good as you. So you and Kyle? You left me for Kyle!” Max spat out the
words bitterly unable to control himself “I saw the wonderful display of
affection, very touching! Nice shirt as well, Kyle got a thing about making
his things?”
“And
here I was thinking that you were just passing!” Tess said her eyes
flashing dangerously. Who did he think he was trying to accuse her of being
with Kyle when he was all flash happy with Liz?
“You
know, you’re right. I wasn’t just passing by. I wanted to see you. I
wanted to talk to you!”
“What
is there to say?”
“Everything!
You just left” His eyes were soft but then harden and became cold “But I
guess Kyle wanted you home. Does he know that you screwed me before you
left? Isn’t he enough? Just needed one last…” Tess hit Max hard across
the face before he could say anything more. She couldn’t believe he
thought so little of her.
“Tess,
I am sorry!”
“Max,
don’t! Just go home, go cry to Liz your soul mate. Who am I to stand in
the way of true love?”
“Don’t
use Liz as an excuse! Don’t drag her into this!”
“Why
not? You’re dragging Kyle into this and he isn’t even apart of this!”
“Hey
Tess what are you doing out here?” Kyle asked wondering out of the house
“Max! Hey! I just leave you to it!”
“Kyle,
wait! Max was just leaving!” Tess said dumping the garbage in the trashcan
before catching up with Kyle
“Tess,
wait! What about destiny?”
Tess
smiled softly “We make our own destiny!”