banner by Icalynn
Author:
Susan susanandtad@cs.com
Rating:
PG-13
Paring: UC
Disclaimer: I don’t own a thing. If only….
Muse #2 – frivolous – sorcerer- enchantment – punishment
Things
happen, people change. Sometimes people grow together other times though they
grow apart. This is the way of the world. I just never thought it would happen
to us. My heart, my body even my soul belonged to him. I gave up everything to
be with him. I put my life, my dreams on hold so that we could stay together.
Then one day I walk into our home and find him in bed with someone else. My
world was shattered. I stood in our bedroom doorway frozen. I couldn’t move
nor speak. All I could do was watch the love of my life making love to someone I
trusted with my life. She was my friend and he was my husband and they were
betraying me. What was worse is it was obvious that they had been betraying me
for awhile.
I
wish I could put the blame on her and say she put some sort of enchantment on
him like some Sorcerer but I can’t. What I saw in front of me was not a spell
or even a dream it was stone cold reality.
A
lyric from an old rock song flew into my head as I stood frozen in the doorway.
The song was about a man walking in on his love in bed with someone else. “And
I didn’t need to see his face. I saw yours I saw red then I closed the door.”
It was like that for me. I didn’t need to see her face I saw his and knew that
what I was witnessing was not some frivolous affair it was something very real.
He was in love with her. The raw, soulful emotion that he had not shown me in a
long time was now being shown to her. It was at that moment my heart broke in
two.
After
moments of just standing there watching their betrayal I was finally able to get
my feet to move. I closed the door without saying a word. There really wasn’t
anything left to be said. I grabbed some clothes from the laundry basket in the
hall and a picture from the mantle and left. I knew that there was no turning
back. After years of struggling to be together, fighting against all odds it was
now finally over.
Walking
out of the door was the easy part deciding where to go next was not as easy. I
walked around aimlessly for hours not sure what I was going to do next. After
much agonizing I decided to put my life back together. I made a few calls and
than I finally was ready to go back to the home I shared with him. I needed him
to know where I was going and more importantly I needed him to know why. A part
of me wanted to inflict some sort of punishment on them but the rational part of
me knew there really wasn’t any use. What was done was done and nothing I
could say or do could change it.
When
I walked in the door he smiled at me from his spot on the couch.
“Isabel
is on her way. The baby is smiling and she wants to show him off.”
“Ok.
It will give me a chance to say good bye.”
“What?”
He jumped off the couch. “What are you talking about?”
“I
came home earlier. I saw you. I saw the two of you. It’s over.” I didn’t
even look at him to see if he looked guilty or not.
“NO.
You can’t leave. I Love You.”
“I
know you do but not like you love her. I saw your face. I know what you look
like when you are madly in love with someone.”
“You
can’t just leave.”
“Yes
I can. It is time for me to live my life now. I’ve already called Valenti.
I’m meeting him tomorrow. He is going to help me go home. I’m going to try
to move on. I am going to move on. I can’t stay here.”
“But…”
“There
is no but. It is all settled. I just couldn’t leave without telling you
first.”
As
I walked out the door I turned to face him. “Tell her I said goodbye.” He
stared at me stunned.
Walking
through the door I run into a smiling Isabel. She has the baby with her. I
can’t help smiling at him. “He really is a beautiful baby Isabel. I hope you
and Michael have a very wonderful life together.” She
gave me a puzzled look and then glanced over my shoulder with a question in her
eyes.
I
turned around and faced the man I thought I would be with forever. “Goodbye
Max. Maybe someday I will be able to wish you and Maria happiness but I’m
sorry today that is impossible.”
I
walked away and have never looked back. I don’t know where they are and I
don’t know what their lives are like. I can only assume that Max and Maria and
Michael, Isabel and the baby are safe and happy. As for me, Liz Parker, I am
back where I started. I am sitting on my balcony writing in my journal
contemplating my future. I graduated a month ago and I start my new job in the
research department at the Molecular Biology lab in
It
was a rough 5 years but I can honestly say that wherever Max and the others are
now I hope that they are at least half as happy as I am.
The
End.
