How do I go on without you

Author- Katana aka Amber

Email- karmaticchic@hotmail.com

Pairing- Max/Liz, Michael/Maria, Kyle/Isabel

Rating- PG-13

Disclaimer- I don't own them, so don't kill me

Dedication-

Summary- Max and the others left Roswell in Departure, but return after Max

overhears Tess' plans to kill Liz.

~~~~~~~~~~Part 1~~~~~~~~~~~

Max looked over at Isabel, Michael and Tess, and gave them a reassuring

smile. This was it. They were finally going home. Back to Antar, where they

belonged. At least, that's where everyone believed they belonged. Except

Max. Max wasn't so sure he belonged on Antar- with Tess. But he got her

pregnant; It was his son she was carrying. Even if it wasn't were he

belonged, it was his duty to take care of his son. Phillip. He had the name

all picked out. After his father. The man who was his father. Max shook his

head, confused. This wasn't right. But he had to do it. He glanced up at the

countdown on the wall. They had a minute or two before they had to enter the

Granolith. Max crossed the chamber and walked over to Tess. She smiled

lightly at him, and placed her hand on her stomach. That's my son in there,

Max thought. The reason we're going to Antar in the first place.

The baby was suffocating, because it couldn't survive in the earth's

atmosphere. Thank god Alex deciphered the book, Max thought. The fact that

the issue of Alex's death still hadn't been solved yet still bugged him.

They were leaving Roswell , and the humans behind, and they were leaving them

vulnerable to attack from whoever had killed Alex. The thought of Liz being

killed because he'd left her here unprotected almost brought Max to his

knees.  He looked back up at the clock.

"We'd better get in." He said, helping Tess up into the Granolith.

Isabel came next, her eyes a mess of tears. She hadn't wanted to go either.

But with Alex gone, Shed really had nothing to stay in Roswell for besides

him, and he was leaving. Max nodded in encouragement to her and helped her

in. Michael seemed to be hesitating. He was pacing the chamber.

"Michael?" Max said, questionably.

"I can't do it, Maxwell. I'm staying." Michael said.

Max was tempted to say that he'd stay with him. But he knew that was

impossible. He had to save his son. He had to save his planet. But he

couldn't do it without Michael.

"Michael, I need you." Max said, walking over to his old friend.

"I can't leave Maria here. Not after what happened to Alex." Michael said.

Max had thought about the same thing. About Liz. How could he leave her here

when Alex's murderer was still out there somewhere. Once more, Max felt

weak. It was hard enough leaving Liz behind as it was. Why did Michael have

to add more salt to the wound? Was he trying to get him to stay? That is out

of the question, Max told himself. But deep down he knew he wanted to stay

and live in Liz's arms for the rest of his life.

"Please Michael. I.....We'll figure out a way for you to come back. I

promise. I just need you there when we get there. I won't be able to do this

without you." Max said.

Behind them, the countdown began beeping off in seconds. Michael looked

around, down at his hands, then back at Max with tears in his eyes. Max knew

exactly what he was feeling, because he felt the same way too. His eyes

tea-red up as he looked at Michael, waiting for him to walk toward him or

out of the chamber and back to Roswell. Where both their hearts were. Behind

him, Max could barely hear Tess and Isabel shouting at them to get in.

"Alright, let's go." Michael said, finally.

Relief temporarily filled Max as Michael climbed into the Granolith and was

embraced by Isabel and Tess.  He was close behind him. The girls embraced

him, and they were talking. But all Max could hear was Liz. Liz screaming

his name. And a small pounding noise. He thought he heard Maria and Kyle's

voice too. Max quickly shook his head. Your imagining things. Now is not the

time for a guilt trip. You're leaving, Evans, he told himself firmly. As the

countdown got to the last few seconds the entire pod chamber began to shake,

and then it exploded into silver puddles. Everywhere. There was silver

covering everything. It was beautiful. Liz would love it, he thought as the

Granolith melded itself into a ship. A few seconds later it took off. And

the last thing Max heard was Liz yelling ‘Max, It was Tess.'

~~~~

Liz stood outside the podchamber with Maria and Kyle, screaming at the top

of her lungs and pounding on the door.

"Max!" Liz yelled. "Come on, somebody must hear me!" She said under her

breath.

Tess probably does and isn't telling them, Liz thought. That's something

that murderous bitch would do.

"Max!" Maria yelled next to her. "Michael!"

"Isabel! Evans!" Kyle yelled.

Liz threw her hand against the door, frustrated. They had to get in there.

They had to tell Max. Tess had killed Alex. She had mind-warped him into

going to Las Cruces and deciphering the book. And when he confronted her

about it, she'd killed him. And to make matters worse she had brought Kyle

into it by having him lug the body to her car and mind-warping him into

thinking it was luggage. Liz would not let the love of her life leave the

planet with that back-stabbing gerbil. After all she had done for her. She'd

practically undressed Max and threw him on Tess. She'd given up a life of

happiness, a wedding day. She'd handed Max on a silver plate to Tess, to

save the world. To save that ungrateful bitch. Liz threw her hands against

the door, screaming, and the whole ground began to shake.

"Oh my god!" Liz yelled, backing away from the chamber door. "What did I

do?"

"I think it's them, not you." Kyle said, pulling Maria away from the door.

The three of them retreated down the hill and watched as the chamber

exploded into puddles of silver. It would have been gorgeous, if it wasn't

related to the aliens leaving. Liz watched in horror as a ship catapulted

out of the silver puddles and into space.

"Max, It was Tess!" Liz yelled, dropping to her knees.

Maria was speechless next to her. Kyle pulled Liz up lightly and held her

next to him as she sobbed. Her life was . . . over.

"Shh. It's alright, Liz." He said. Liz looked up at him, and he wiped away

her tears.

"He's Max. He'll find out." Kyle added, pulling Maria close to him on the

other side.

~~~~~~~~~~Part 2~~~~~~~~~~~

~*~ 4 months later ~*~

There it was again. That scratchy noise. It sounded like someone trying to

be like James Bond, sneaking around in the shadows. Liz looked down on the

alley from her balcony. Nothing there. She returned to her diary. So then it

came around and grabbed me by the neck, and almost suffocated me. Thank god

for Kyle.... The damned noise came again, interrupting her thoughts. Liz

threw her pen down in frustration and looked over the wall again. She could

have sworn she had heard someone down there. Not even 6 months ago, she

would have been wishfully thinking it was Max. But now Max was gone.

Returned to Antar. And what was down there was more than likely an Antorp.

They had surfaced a few weeks after Max had left and had seemed to be after

her, and her alone. In desperation she tried some of the exercises Max had

told her about using her powers, and had accessed the greatest weapon she

had against those beasts. She barely had any spare time anymore since every

waking hour was spent either fighting the Antorps, or preparing to fight the

Antorps.

When they realized they couldn't hurt Liz, they'd started to go after her

parents. Finally they'd ended up going after Kyle and Maria. Liz then taught

Kyle how to use his powers. But Maria had freaked out. She'd lost it. She

had moved out of her house and was now living in isolation. The noise came

once more. She blew a strand of hair out of her face and looked down again.

Liz had her hands full, fighting these things. She sighed and closed her

eyes.

And in that split second, the Antorp jumped onto the balcony and tried to

strangle her.  Oh my god, Liz's instinct's screamed. But she knew better. It

was time to fight. She opened her eyes quickly and twisted the things arm so

she could get loose. It came right back at her, and was trying to get a hand

on her so it could kill her. The Antorps killed by getting inside the body

with their powers and bursting every blood vessel in the body. Liz has seen

it in action when someone had tried to save her in a dark alley when she was

being attacked.

And Liz did not want to look like that guy did. She threw her hands onto the

Antorp's chest and pushed. It barely moved, but it was startled enough to

give Liz enough time to send her powers into the thing's chest.  It exploded

into nothing right before her eyes.  After a few close situations with the

Antorps, Liz had discovered that, like the skins, they had a button to hit.

Except this button was buried deep inside their chest, and had to be

activated with her powers.

Liz shivered and went inside. She hated having to fight those things. She

changed into her pajama's and went to bed. She had a long day tomorrow.

The next day, Liz woke up early and got into her jeep. Since the aliens blew

up Bob, everyone, even their parents, believed they'd all died in an

accident. Only she, Maria, Kyle, and Valenti knew otherwise. So her parents

thought her grief was mourning. In an effort to cheer her up, they'd agreed

to get her what she'd been begging them for years for- a car. When the time

came to chose it, they went to every car dealership in Roswell. And in the

back lot of a dinky dealership, she'd found it. It was Bob. Black, topless,

no doors. She'd gotten it immediately. Her parents didn't even bother to

protest. They knew better. Liz put the key in the ignitor and turned on the

car. She reached over and flicked on the cd player. Gomez blasted in her

ear, and she turned it down a little before backing out and heading towards

Michael's apartment and Maria.

Maria rubbed her arms, shivering. It was freezing in the apartment again.  A

sudden change in temperature means a ghost, Maria thought to herself. Her

eyes filled with tears. Michael was dead then. For months she had prayed to

every god of every religion that he would come back to her. That was until

those . . . those things had attacked her. She'd just given up on life in

general then. She lived a hermit like life. She never left the apartment.

Liz brought her her food and supplies. Maria looked at the clock. Where was

Liz anyway? Maybe she was dead too. No, Kyle would come and tell her. Unless

of course they both were dead.  But then the Sheriff would have come. Maybe

everyone was dead. Or the Antorps had made everyone disappear like the skins

had.

Maria whimpered and lay down on the bed. The bed where she'd lost her

virginity to Michael only months before. It seemed like minutes ago as she

lay there. She was all alone, all alone, all alone, all- There was a knock

at the door, and Maria screamed from the startle. She sat up and began to

rock back and forth. Go away, go away, she thought to herself. The aliens

had killed everyone, and now they were after her. The door burst open to

reveal Liz.

"Maria?!" She yelled, running into the room. "Are you ok?"

Maria nodded, still rocking. "Is everyone gone?"

Liz shook her head. "No, everyone is here."

Maria instantly stood up. "Michael! He's back?!"

Liz shook head again, this time apologetically. "They're gone, Maria."

Maria sank back down onto the bed and Liz walked back to the door and got

the groceries. She kicked the door shut behind her and walked to the fridge

to put the stuff away. Maria just looked at her fingernails, slowly rocking.

"Kyle will be here soon." Liz said, walking into the bedroom and sitting in

a chair.

"Oh, good. He's not gone then." Maria said, rocking back and forth.

"No." Liz said. "Only the aliens are gone." She added, under her breath.

"When is Alex coming?" Maria asked.

"Maria, Alex is gone." Liz said, her eyes welling up with tears.

Maria blinked as her eyes filled with tears. Alex was gone? No. that was

impossible. Alex would never leave her alone. Alex cared. Maria looked at

Liz, tears streaming down her face.

"Did he go away with Isabel?" Maria asked. Liz shook her head. "Then where

did he go?"

Liz looked down at her uncomfortably. She was saved by a knock at the door,

signifying Kyle was there, finally. She stood up and walked over to the

door, wiped away her tears, and opened the door. Kyle smiled from the other

side, a dozen roses in his hand. He pulled one out and handed it to Liz.

"Maria won't notice one's missing anyway." Kyle said.

Liz kissed his cheek softly, tears still rolling softly down her own cheeks.

He wiped them away and lifted up her chin.

"What did I tell you when they left Liz? It'll be OK." He said.

"I know. It's just to hard to believe that with all that's going on." Liz

replied.

"ALEX?! Is that you?" Maria yelled from the other room.

"Has she gone off the deep end again?" Kyle asked.

Liz nodded. "She thinks he's alive."

Kyle nodded, mostly to himself, and walked past Liz into the bedroom. Maria

had tangled herself in her sheets, and was trying to pull herself loose. Liz

walked over and untangled them. Maria just stared at the flowers in Kyle's

hand.

"If Michael thinks that I'll take him back if he sends me flowers, he's got

another thing coming." She said. "And he didn't even deliver them himself?!"

Liz cleared her throat. "The flowers are from Kyle. That's why he has them."

Kyle handed them to her, but Maria just gasped. "Kyle, you know my heart

belongs to Michael. And what about Tess?" She said.

Kyle looked down and shook his head. "She doesn't remember does she?"

Liz sat down next to him and shook her head. "I don't know what to do.

Sometimes she's great. Other times she's.....like this." She whispered.

"I don't know either." Kyle replied.

"When's dinner" Alex said he'd come make me dinner." Maria said, looking Liz

right in the eyes.

It killed both Liz and Kyle to look in her eyes, and not see her looking

back. The thing before them wasn't Maria. It was a fragment of Maria. She'd

taken the aliens leaving worse than anyone else.

"Alex said he'd be a little late. Kyle and I will make dinner." Liz said.

She walked into the kitchen and Kyle followed her. She got out the eggs and

bacon and started working on Maria's breakfast. Kyle took out the pancake

mix. Together they made breakfast, in silence. It wasn't until Kyle was

pouring syrup over the pancakes that they spoke.

"How are you doing?" Liz asked Kyle.

He'd had his own little emotional breakdown after Isabel and everyone had

left. He had helped in the killing of Alex. He'd helped Tess. And Tess was

the only person her really trusted. He'd fallen, hard for Isabel before

she'd left. The combination of Tess using him, Alex dying, and Isabel

leaving really took it's toll on Kyle.

"Better than I have been." He replied. "What about you?"

"I got attacked last night." She said.

Kyle winced and put the pancake pan in the sink. "Are you ok?"

Liz nodded and dropped her own dishes in the sink. She looked from the sink

to the food to Kyle. "Paper, Rock, Scissors?"

"Alright." Kyle said.

They both hit their hands into the other hand three times, then made the

symbols. Liz had Rock, Kyle had Scissors. They did the game to decide who

would do what- Feed Maria or Wash the dishes. The winner chose. Usually Liz

would have chosen the dishes, but she was in a generous mood. Kyle needed a

break.

"I'll feed today." Liz said, grabbing a fork and a knife. She put them on

the plate, picked up the plate and went into Maria's room.

"I can't eat without Alex. It's rude." Maria said.

"You have to eat, Maria." Liz replied.

"Put it down. If he's not here in an hour, I'll eat." Maria said, looking at

the food.

Liz nodded and sat down, grateful she wouldn't need to feed Maria. It was

weird, having to feed her best friend since kindergarten. Maria was still

rocking, staring at Liz.

"GET OUT!" She suddenly screamed, pointing out of the room.

Liz stood and walked to her to try to calm her down.

"I WANT TO BE ALONE!" Maria yelled as soon as Liz got next to her.

Liz kept trying, and Maria just slapped her. "I said, GET OUT!" She said.

Liz rushed out of the room and shut the door, her face bright red. Her eyes

filled with tears. Her best friend was gone. Maria was dead. The realization

made her truly cry. Huge tears rolled down her cheeks and she leaned against

a wall and slid down it to the floor. Kyle came around the corner and looked

at her.

"Liz, are you ok? Did she hurt you?" Kyle said.

Liz turned her head to show him the red hand mark on her face. Kyle put his

hand on the wound and healed it for her.

"Thanks, Kyle." She whispered through her tears. Kyle sat down next to her

and she rested her head on his shoulder

"Shh..it'll be ok." Kyle said, running his hands through her hair softly,

trying to get her to stop her crying.

It was almost like trying to find a needle in a haystack. None of them would

ever be ok, never again. Not after everything they'd been through. Kyle knew

how screwed up he was. He could only imagine what it was like for Liz and

Maria, who were actually with the guys they loved. He'd barely been able to

spend anytime with Isabel. Kyle sighed and wiped away another tear from

Liz's cheek. Liz just sobbed.

~~~~~~~~~~Part 3~~~~~~~~~~

Max sighed and walked into his throne room. The crowd instantly fell to

their knees, and bowed down to him. Their great king. Returned to them from

the clutches of the evil earthlings. Max controlled the urge to roll his

eyes.  I want to go home. Go home, back to Earth. Back to Liz. Where I

belong. Where I should be right now.  He sat down on his throne and

controlled the urge to just go, grab a ship and return back to earth. But it

was impossible. There were no ships. Not that he had found anyway. And the

one person he'd asked never answered him. They would simply shake their

heads, bow and walk off. So he'd just let it go. Besides, he couldn't leave

even if he found a ship. Tess chose that moment to walk into the throne

room, and everyone bowed again. She had Edwin in her arms, and she smiled at

him as she joined him on her own throne.

When they'd arrived on Antar, Tess was immediately taken from him to have

the baby. And  he couldn't be there, and because of it, Tess named their

son. Edwin. And she refused to change it.  Michael and Isabel had already

left for their respective planets by that time, So he was all alone with

nothing to do but think. And every time he'd sit down to think, his thoughts

always drifted to Liz. The way she smelt, the way she felt in his arms. Her

kiss. He'd nearly driven himself insane from the want of her. And the moment

Edwin was placed in his arms, he wished that he was Liz's son and not Tess.

Max had tried numerous times to contact his sister and his best friend, but

each time he got a letter from them stating that they were too busy to

visit, but be sure to send Tess their love.

"Hey Max." Tess said, interrupting his thoughts.

Max looked at Tess. "Hi."

He turned and looked back out in the crowd. He'd sent Isabel and Michael

another message. It was more than likely useless, but he still diligently

tried to talk to them. He missed them. Max closed his eyes and tried to

picture them. He hadn't seen them in so long, they were becoming fuzzy in

his mind. But I can still see Liz clearly, he thought as a messenger came up

to him. Max took the letters the boy had.

"Thank you." He said.

The boy nodded, bowed and walked away, just as everyone else did when Max

talked to them or acknowledged them. He threw the letters on the table that

was between the two thrones. Tess reached over and picked them up. She

shuffled through them, pulled out the one that was for her, then pushed the

other two toward Max.