Author: Cristina
Category: M/L, M/T.
Rating: R due to explicit language.
Disclaimer: not mine. The song is “Doll Parts” by Hole
Spoilers: sort of for Departure and is actually inspired by some spoilers I'd read.
Summary: Tess gives Liz some advice.
Author’s Note: I wasn't even going to post this but I was reading Icalynn's Progeny and her fic inspired me to just post this. Thanks Icalynn.

I am doll eyes
Doll mouth
Doll legs
I am doll arms
Big veins
Dog bait

Yeah, I’m that bitch, the cunt that stole poor Alex’s young life away and sullied perfect fucking Max Evans’ purity. I’m the little hussy who made that doe-eyed bitch Liz Parker scream and cry because I fucked her little boyfriend. I’m a liar, a manipulator, evil fucking incarnate, you want me dead and buried on some distant planet for the harm I’ve done you, but did you ever stop to think about why it was so very easy to do?

Yea they really want you
They really want you
They really do
Yea they really want you
They really want you
But I do too

Did anyone ever stop to think that maybe the reason Max fell into my waiting arms so effortlessly was because he wanted to? Did that pathetic little bitch Liz Parker ever once consider that maybe it wasn’t my careful machinations that finally got Max in my bed, inside me, but his own lusts, his desire to utterly possess me and to destroy you.

He hides it well, but that boy has a deep well of darkness within, and if you look carefully from time to time you can see it peek out deep from the abyss. Don’t you see it in his eyes sometimes, when he gets that hard line to his jaw and his dark puppy dog eyes turn glacial, or are you truly that blind? I know him better than he’d like and I see him more clearly than you could ever see your perfect fucking Prince Charming.

I want to be the girl with the most cake
I love him so much he just turns to hate
I fake it so real I am beyond fake
And someday you will ache like I ache
Some day you will ache like I ache

I know you think what I did was wrong, but are you ever going to see Max’s part in this? I didn’t get pregnant with junior by myself! He was there, in the flesh, believe me. He had me pressed down on the Observatory floor, on top him, underneath him in many delicious positions…when are you going to face that? When are you going to stop living the lie and realize that your fucking fairytale with shining knights and eternal soul mates died the moment he was willing to give you up to be with me?

I am doll parts
Bad skin
Doll heart
It stands for knife
For the rest of my life

He may have stayed in the end, but not because he loved you, you fool, but because he was angry with me. He can be so vindictive sometimes, but he lies so prettily to you and himself so who could blame you for trusting those sweet nothings for having faith in the fairytale. He still wants me, though. He still wakes up in the middle of the night, flushed with hot desire, body drenched in sweat, half screaming half whispering my name. Or didn’t you notice the heavy bags under his eyes? He desperate to find his son, but the truth is that the way to his son is the way to me.

Yea they really want you
They really want you
They really do
Yea they really want you
They really want you
But I do too

You may think that my attitude is callous, that I don’t care about the pain and misery I’ve cause, but I never pretended to give a shit about you. I’m not being coldhearted here, just honest. Callous would be pretending to love you and care for you all the while doing everything in my power to destroy you, to obliterate everything that was you. I’d have to be some kind of monster to do that and I’m not that, I’m just a girl who wanted to be Queen and I never hid that fact.

I want to be the girl with the most cake
He only loves those things because he loves to see them break
I fake it so real I am beyond fake
And some day you will ache like I ache

But you’ll learn. Someday, he’ll leave you. Someday, he’ll run right out of your arms and out of your life maybe he won’t run to me, but trust me he’ll run, someday he’ll flee. Someday, you’ll know what it’s like to be left in the dust, abandoned and alone, because someday you’ll ask him to give back a little of what he’s taken. Someday, you’ll expect a little sacrifice from him and he won’t make it because Max doesn’t give he only takes. Max only loves you as long as you are willing to be weak and bow to him, but as soon as you fail to be a little less than perfect then beware because then you’ll see, then you’ll learn a little of what it’s like to be me.

Some day you will ache like I ache
Some day you will ache like I ache
Some day you will ache like I ache
Some day you will ache like I ache
Some day you will ache like I ache
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