Different
By Donna(Stormybear)

E-mail: StormyBear29@home.com
Disclaimer: I don't own Roswell...blah blah blah.
Rating: R For language with a bit of NC-17.
Category: Zan/Liz
Summary: This takes place during "Meet the Dupes" and "Max in the City" Zan is not dead....read on and see how he survives. He finds that something....or someone is drawing him to Roswell. Max,Tess and the Dupes are already back in New York once he arrives in Roswell. He meets Liz and finds that he want to be....Different.

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THE STREETS OF NEW YORK.....

I could feel it in the air. I knew that something was going to fuckin happen that night....something that I was going to be powerless to stop.....something that was going to change my life in more ways then one. But I guess I should introduce myself before I go into my story. I am Zan....no last name just Zan. I had been living in the cesspool pool called New York for seventeen years. Seventeen long fuckin years of nothing but bullshit and grief. I hated everything about the life that we had been dealt...I guess your wondering who we is. There was four of us growing up together...Lonnie...Rath...Ava...and me. One thing you got to know about us...we ain't your average New Yorkers....we different....we not of this earth...we aliens. We was tight the four of us....that was until that night that Rath and Lonnie tried to fuckin kill me. Why your wondering if we was so tight did they try to kill me...well keep your pants on and I will tell you.

Like I said before I knew that some @#%$ was going to happen that night...can't explain how....just did. Growing up with Rath and Lonnie I had come to know the signs. But that night I chose to ignore them...and that was my fuckin down fall. The downfall of the fuckin king of Antar....make that the fuckin reject king of Antar. The real king lived in some desert town in Roswell New Mexico. It figured that we would be dumped in the sewers of New York and they were sheltered in a fuckin small town. Anyway...I am getting away from my story.

We didn't have no one growing up....we learnt to take care of ourselves. We knew we was different right from the start...I don't know how but we just knew. when I turned ten I started having these flashy things....I'd see me...but I was older and I was the man. I was the number one...in charge of a whole fuckin planet. I didn't pay them no mind...I figured they was just dreams...until we ran in the little @#%$ named Nickolas...but I will tell you about him later.

We knew that we was supposed to be paired off. Rath and Lonnie and me and Ava. Rath and Lonnie went along with it. They didn't love each other....they were just in it for the @#%$. Me...no fuckin way. Don't get me wrong I never had a real prob with Ava.....I just didn't want the bitch in my bed. She may have been my bitch in another fuckin life...but she weren't here. I always knew that they was someone better out there for me. I ain't no punk that fucks every hoe I meet on the street anyway. I knowed that Ava wanted to @#%$ me...she tried all the damn time....but she weren't the one. Don't think that I am some fuckin sissy man either...cause I ain't...I am the man....I just wanted to wait until I found the right bitch...ok.

That night started like any other. We didn't have no money and really didn't need it but for fun we knocked over the fruit stand on the corner...messed with peoples minds on the street and then Rath started his @#%$. Rath was always fuckin with my authority. He was the number two and that fuckin pissed him off. This time he was pissed because he wanted to go to the summit....and I told him hell no. I could say that this was all that little fucks fault...because we didn't know anything about this damn summit until he showed up. The thing is I can't fuckin blame him...Rath and Lonnie are pure @#%$ evil and it would only be a matter of time before I pissed them off again....and well you get the point.

I don't really know how the @#%$ Nickolas found us. He just showed up one day and laid all this @#%$ on us. What kind of @#%$...well turns out that my flashy things weren't just dreams...they was real. We lived another life...and as I said before I was the man. Well...not really....turns out that after the real king of Antar was killed..his peeps decided to make him reborn. No...I don't know what that @#%$ means...I was too busy trying to keep Ava off my @#%$ again. Anyway..the main things you gots to know is that they made two sets of each of us. We was the rejects..sent to the sewers of New York. Hey...I guess I should be glad they ain't killed us. The real royal four was sent to Roswell...I don't know anything else about that. But...the little @#%$ didn't know where they was...at first. He found them later after his sister was killed in Roswell and they went to her funeral...or some @#%$ like that. Anyway so he came and filled Rath and Lonnie's fuckin head with this @#%$ about a summit and leaving this @#%$ up planet. Then the little @#%$ just disappeared and the @#%$ with Rath and Lonnie started.

Me and Rath fighting was normal for us....it happened all the fuckin time and once he got started you couldn't shut him the @#%$ up. That night was the same @#%$...he kept hounding my ass about this fuckin summit and I had to remind him several times that I was the man and that we wasn't going. I didn't trust the little @#%$ as far as I could throw him....I thought that it was a set up. I weren't willing to get any of us popped or worse...just so we could leave this place. Why would I want to stay when I hate this fuckin life...only one reason....I had to find my bitch. but here I go again off on something else. Rath didn't push me any more after I told him I was the man...and I should have knowed that I was in trouble then...but I forgot about it as soon as we was cool. That was the biggest fuckin mistake of my life...stupid..how fuckin stupid could I have been. Lonnie still had the rock that Rath had stole from them punks on the street...and I found myself running after it like some sucka when it went rolling into the street.

Rath and Lonnie they was just pure evil and when they was together....watch out because they was a double threat. Hey..I ain't claiming to be no saint. I have done some pretty @#%$ up things in my life. I just ain't never wanted to kill anyone...human or alien. I guess if you was to look at me...you would think that I was evil. I look the part....dirty clothes...greasy hair...tattoos and piercing...but that ain't the real me. Ava knew the real me...she was the only one that I trusted....but she probably dead so it don't matter now. I don't trust anyone and so I have to keep the real Zan hidden...yes the real Zan. I gots feelings...I want to find love and I want to be different. What do I mean by different....can't explain...but I am tired of always being a fuckin punk.

So there I was chasing that fuckin ball in the street. Then I felt two hands pushing my ass from behind. I didn't have to look to know they was Rath's hands. I heard the fuckin truck before I saw it and when I did look up it was coming right for me. I knew that I didn't have enough time to stop it...but I hoped that I could slow the fuckin thing down. Alien powers come in handy sometimes and I was able to slow it down....but it still hurt like @#%$ when it hit me and dragged my sorry ass for a block and a half.

See another thing about Rath and Lonnie is that they may be evil....but they is fuckin stupid on top of that. Not one of those fucks bothered to see if I was dead or not. I know what your thinking...how in the hell did he survive getting hit by a truck. Ain't you listening to me....I told you I gots alien powers and they ain't for nothing.

Actually...I can't tell you how I got out the street and into the alley. I guess that I hit the black void after the whole truck thing. I don't know how long I was out...but when I woke up I found a rat making himself at home in my goatee. Hey..I didn't fuckin care I figured that I was gonna die anyway and he might as well get in on the ground floor. The pain was like some @#%$ that I ain't never felt before. I felt like I was going to hit the void again...but I grit my teeth and tried to heal myself. I never believed in god before then..but I sure found myself praying to him that day. It took me several tries but I finally picked my hand up and waived it over my body...I knew that it was going to be bad...just not that fuckin bad.

That fuckin truck broke just about every bone in my body...I was bleeding inside..I don't think that they was one organ that hadn't been bruised or fuckin ripped open. I knew that I had to heal the @#%$ inside first and then I could fix the @#%$ on the outside. I had to keep fighting the black void that wanted to take me...I knew that if I gave in I wouldn't wake up...and I had to make sure that Lonnie and Rath paid for the @#%$ they did to me. Slowly...very slowly I was able to heal my insides....but I still felt like my body was on fire and so I let the void take me again. I didn't know how long I was out..but when I woke up I found that the rat was gone and now this old hag was sitting besides me wiping my head with a smelly rag..and then the void took me again.

While in the void I had these @#%$ up dreams...dreams of a girl. This was no regular girl..this was the one..the bitch that I had been looking for. I never saw her face..but I knew that she was fuckin beautiful. She had a body that just screamed for me to touch it...lick it...make love to it. But each time that I would get close to her...she would run from me. No matter how much I tried I couldn't catch her. I knew she was the one and I knew that I had to find her...if only I could get the @#%$ out of the void.

I did finally wake up for good...but I was still pretty @#%$ up. The hag was still by my side..still wiping my head with that shitty rag. She told me that I had been in and out of it for two days...two @#%$ days...that meant that Lonnie and Rath had a two day head start on me. I know...head start to where...but if you think real hard I bet you can figure it out. Yes...Roswell New Mexico. They went to find the real number one and I hope that he gives them the answer that they want...or his royal ass gonna be under a truck just like mine. I stayed with the hag for another day....I was still to fuckin weak to heal the rest of my body. She stayed by me side and even fed me food that she dug out of the dumpster in the alley. At first I told her to go to hell and shove it where the sun don't shine...but when you hungry enough you eat what you gots. Right after I ate I felt a little bit stronger and so when the hag weren't looking I healed the rest of my broken body. I almost laughed my ass off when she almost had a fuckin heart attack after I got up and started walking around. She started screaming bloody murder and I was outta there.

I figured that I owed her something at least for keeping me from becoming a rat condo...so I hit up the fruit stand again. Poor suckers didn't know what fuckin hit them...you think they learned from the last time...but no. With a wave of my hand the fruit went flying all over the floor and I stole they loot out the register. It weren't much..but it could buy her some good food and maybe a new rag...cause like I said before the one she had it smelled like some nasty @#%$. When the hag saw me she started screaming like a @#%$ maniac...I didn't have time for her @#%$ so I threw the money on the ground and walked away. I don't know if she picked it up or not...and I really don't give a @#%$. I did my good deed for the day...she stood by me while I was out...but hell this is New York...maybe she weren't helping me after all....maybe she was just waiting for me to die so she could eat me.

What ever was calling me to Roswell was getting stronger...I could feel it. I knew that I had to get there quick. How you might ask ...we the same way that Lonnie and Rath did I'm sure. I borrowed a car from a sucka....thing is he just don't know it yet. As I headed to Roswell I thought of Ava...you thought I forgot about her didn't you...no Ava and me was tight...I didn't want to @#%$ her...but we was tight. I think that she knew me better then I knew my own fuckin self. I was straight up with her....I told her that there was something better out there for me. She said that she understood...but I knew I hurt her fuckin feelings. I never told her that I was sorry....funny the things you think of after you almost die. I guess it don't matter now....she probably dead. She never fit in with Rath and Lonnie...they only dealt with her because she was my bitch...well my so called bitch anyway. I hope she ain't dead...but like a said Rath and Lonnie is evil and so she probably rat food by now.

I made it to Roswell in record time...amazing what alien powers can do. I ain't got much to say about Roswell...except that it ain't fuckin New York.




PART TWO

ROSWELL NEW MEXICO

When I first gots to Roswell I had a plan. What kind of a plan your wondering...well..I was gonna take care of business with who ever was fuckin calling me out here. I wasn't gonna stay in Roswell...my plan was that after business was taken care of I was outta this fuckin crazy alien town. But...because of her I had to fuckin stay...she put some kind of spell on me and there was no way in hell that I was gonna leave her side. It didn't matter that she didn't feel the same @#%$ about me....but I am getting off track again...


Like I said before...Roswell ain't nothing like New York City. It's this fuckin small ass town...with alien @#%$ all over the damn place. I ain't kidding you...the @#%$ is everywhere. The streets are so fuckin clean...that you could eat off of em and I ain't seen a fuckin rat anywhere. Peoples was talking to each other and they was smiling. You don't see much of that @#%$ in New York. I'd never been here before...but for some strange reason I knew where the @#%$ I was going. Who ever was calling me was close...I could feel it getting stronger as I cruised down the block.

When I passed this stupid fuckin restaurant...that's when what ever those damn vibes was took over my whole fuckin body. Who ever or what ever had been calling my ass all this time was inside. I parked my ride and headed inside. NO...I wasn't fuckin scared...remember that I am Zan and I'm the fuckin man. Anyway I knew that what ever was inside weren't something bad...what ever it was...was gonna change my life for good..and I was more then fuckin ready to change.

When I walked into the place...the first thing I remember thinking was what is the fuckin deal with these people and aliens...there was alien @#%$ all over this place too. Then...I remembered that this is where our ride...our space ship had fuckin crashed. I wondered if these @#%$ with all their alien @#%$ knew that they has survivors of that crash here today...anyway...There weren't no body around so I went and dropped my ass in a booth. Some blonde bitch...That I have now nicknamed Lungs...you will see why in a sec....anyway she came up to me and took one look and started fuckin screaming her head off about god knew what..then she ran off somewhere. I didn't know where she went cause I had my back to her....and I really didn't fuckin care either...she weren't the one I was lookin for. Like I said I didn't see where she went but I could still hear "lungs" screaming her fuckin head off and then...I felt her. What ever them vibes was..they was buzzing all through my fuckin body. It was her...she was behind me...but I could feel her all around me...I didn't have to see her to know she was the girl from my fuckin dream. She was what was calling me to this fuckin retarded alien themed town.

I know...I toldt you that I am the man and that I weren't scared...but my heart was beating so fuckin fast...I thought I was going to have a fuckin heart attack. I got out the booth and turned to face the bitch that was going to change my life..the dream girl that was going to change me from a fuckin punk into something different....I turned around to find my princess....and came face to face with..... fuckin Ava.

I know what your thinking...who would have fuckin believed that Ava was the one calling my ass to Roswell. I was more then fuckin happy to see Lonnie and Rath hadn't kilt her...but this @#%$ didn't make any fuckin sense. Them vibes was swarming through every fuckin part of my body....Ava was causing this @#%$ to happen.... there was just no fuckin way that Ava was causing this @#%$ in me. When we was livin in New York...I didn't feel @#%$ like this for Ava...she was more like my fuckin sister. But...Before I had a chance to do or say anything Ava was screaming my fuckin name and throwing herself at me. She wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck and thrust her fuckin tongue down my throat. One fuckin kiss...that's all it took was one fuckin kiss for me to know that she weren't the one. It felt so fuckin wrong...like I was kissing Lonnie..which by the way proved my sister point...and then I felt like I was going to fuckin throw up. If Ava weren't the one.. then who your wondering. I didn't know yet...but could still feel her and she was nearby...and NO it weren't Ava. You need to fuckin keep up with the story. Anyway....whoever she was I knowed that she was watching this @#%$ going on...and so I tried to push Ava off my @#%$...but as fuckin usual she weren't @#%$ listening to me. After all these fuckin years of trying to @#%$ my ass... and me always pushing her ass away...you'd think that she would fuckin learn....@#%$ no..she was doing the same @#%$ again and...so I dropped her ass on the fuckin ground. Cruel I know but she weren't listening and it was so fuckin worth it when I saw the fuckin vision in front of me...

I know...on the way up here I was @#%$ moaning about me always hurting Ava's feelings....but if you could fuckin see the vision in front of me...you'd forget about Ava and her stupid feelings too. She was the most beautiful fuckin woman that I had ever seen...and being the man I had messed with a lot of fuckin women living in New York. But...not one of them fuckin hoes compared to her. She was almost fuckin perfect....I'll get to the almost part in a minute. Anyway...Her hair was dark and from what I could see..I betted it was long...but she had it pulled back with a damn clippy thing. I wanted to pull yank that clip from her hair...run my fingers through it and smell it...cause I knew it was going to smell good..it was going to smell like her. Her face...man...her face was too fuckin gorgeous. She had the sweetest fuckin looking lips I had ever seen and I was fuckin aching to cover them with my mouth and devour them. She a had a body that just didn't fuckin quit...it was fuckin calling me to lick and suck it from top to bottom... and trust me I was planning on tasting every inch of her body. Now...I had said that we was almost perfect...well...She didn't the biggest rack I ever seen...but I still couldn't wait to pop one into my mouth and suck em dry.

What I am trying to say is that one fuckin look was all it took....one fuckin look and I was hers...I didn't fuckin care that I was the man anymore....I would be what ever the @#%$ I had to be to make her mine....Or who as it turned out....but as usual I am changing the fuckin subject...

I didn't notice the blonde with the lungs helping Ava off the floor...I was still under the spell of her...my princess. She was staring at me like she was seeing a fuckin ghost...and in a way I guess she was...Turns out that she had it bad for my fuckin dupe. Figures...I find my fuckin dream girl and she already taken by the real king.... that didn't mean @#%$ to me now. She had fuckin teased me in my dreams and now she somehow fuckin made me come here....to her. Nothing was going to get in the way of me and her hooking up..we was going to be together forever and it was going to be my fuckin name that she screamed out as I made love to every fuckin inch of her body...she was going to make me different and they weren't nobody that better get in my fuckin way...or they is going to have some fuckin hell to pay.




PART THREE

Ok...so where the @#%$ was I..Oh right. So me and my princess meets and alls I can fuckin do is stand there like some fuckin retard. Zan the man...and all I can do is fuckin stare at her...not that I couldn't stare at her for the rest of my fuckin life...cause like I said..she is fuckin beautiful. I wanted her to think I was fuckin cool...wanted her to know that I am the fuckin @#%$...but when I do fuckin speak I sound like a fuckin moron. Why...your wondering well just listen and I will fuckin tell you. Likes I said I was frozen..or some @#%$ like that...so she was the first to speak.

"You must be Zan. Welcome to Roswell...I'm Liz Parker" she said....her first words to me...man...her fuckin voice...her voice was like a voice of a fuckin angel and then she put her hand out to me..her beautiful fuckin hand...alls I could do was stand there and stare at it...can you fuckin believe that @#%$...I couldn't move a single fuckin muscle. Didn't matter anyway....cause Ava started her @#%$ again. When will that girl fuckin learn...never...I know....anyways...fore I knowed it she had her arms fuckin wrapped around my waist.

"Liz...Oh my god this is my Zan. I don't know how he freakin survived..but who fuckin cares...Oh my god Zan..I love you so much" Then she was pulling my head towards hers for another fuckin kiss. I had to fuckin stop this...and that is when I opened my fuckin mouth.

"BITCH...WHEN YOU GONNA FUCKIN LEARN WE AIN'T TOGETHER. I DON'T FUCKIN LOVE YOUS...I AIN'T" NEVER GONNA FUCKIN LOVE YOUS...SO GET OVER IT ALREADY" I fuckin screamed at her...pushing her away from me. Ava just sat there with this fuckin stupid look on her face and then she started fuckin howling and run off. I guess that I went to fuckin far...cause Lungs and Liz was fuckin given me the dirtiest fuckin looks from hell. "What" I said to them "she gots to know the truth...we ain't fuckin together" Lungs threw her hands in the air and yelled at me..something bout all men being fuckin pigs...or some @#%$ like that. Then she walked off...looking for Ava...I guess...but I didn't fuckin care...Liz and me was alone...I was the man and I was back in fuckin control...right......WRONG.

She looks so fuckin hot when she pissed...and let me fuckin tell yous at that fuckin moment she was the hottest lookin bitch in the world. "How could you do that to Ava...do you have any idea what she has been going through. She thought you were dead...she kept blaming herself for your death" I was going to try and fuckin explain...but she weren't gonna let me get a damn word in. "What is it with you alien men...why do you treat the women you love like they are nothing but trash" I gots the feelin that she weren't just talkin bout Me an Ava...I didn't know the fuckin story yet...but I was gonna fuckin find out the deal with her and my fuckin dupe.

Anyway...My princess now hated my fuckin ass...and all because of fuckin Ava. I wanted to break Ava's fuckin neck for pulling this @#%$ in front of Liz...but would deal with Ava later. Now I had to make Liz fuckin understand that I did this for her....cause she IS my fuckin princess...cause she the one that made me come here...cause I love her. Yes...I fuckin love her...it is possible for punks like me to fall in love...why the @#%$ do yous think I came to this fuckin place...I think I fuckin loved her before I even met her. No...I can't explain why...I can't fuckin explain how this fuckin woman as me whipped like some fuckin sucka...but she do...she have me completely whipped...and I fuckin like it.




PART 4


I knowed I had to fix this...but had no fuckin idea how. And why the @#%$ was Ava pulling this @#%$ anyway...it ain't like I never fuckin told her we wasn't gonna be together. She knowed this...she knowed that she weren't the one...then it fuckin hit me. She knowed...she knowed that Liz was the one and now she was gonna try and make sure that we weren't never gonna get together. I don't fuckin think so...

Liz gave me another fuckin dirty look and then turned and left my ass standing there. I knew that I should be fixing this @#%$ with Ava..cause she was my ticket to hooking up with Liz...but at that fuckin moment...Liz's ass had my whole fuckin attention. When she walked her hips moved from side to side and it was just a matter of time before my dick was fuckin ready to follow her. But...I had to fuckin focus. After a lot of fuckin deep breath...I finally got my dick under control and followed Liz.

I found Ava sitting on a couch with Liz and Lungs next to her. She was fuckin crying her ass off...but I ain't seen no damn tears. I was fuckin pissed now...we was gonna get this @#%$ over with and fuckin quick. "I needs to fuckin talk to you Ava...I don't know what the @#%$ your prob is...but you better get over this @#%$ quick" I screamed...and as I fuckin knew she would she started crying even louder.

"Leave her alone" Liz screamed at me...jumping off the fuckin couch and throwing her hands against my fuckin chest. That was all it took...my dick was now double the fuckin size and my fuckin pants they was cutting of my circulation. What is it about this bitch...one fuckin touch and I am hard as a fuckin rock. I wanted to @#%$ rip her clothes off and @#%$ her until she screamed out my name. But...this weren't the fuckin time for that. It took all my energy..but I forced myself to listen to her as she fuckin yelled at me. "Just leave her alone...she doesn't deserve to be treated the way that your treating her. She thought you were dead...and for some strange reason was happy when you showed up alive. And just what is the deal with all of this cursing...do you think that it makes you sound manly...because you just sound completely ignorant. Just go...leave her alone...go back to New York... leave all of us alone" So there I fuckin stood with my princess...who thinks that I'm fuckin ignorant...and my dick is still bulging inside my @#%$ pants. I didn't think that this day could get any worse...oh but I was fuckin wrong...it did...so much worse...but that is for later. "Look Ava I sorry you was crying cause of me...I just needs to talk to you alone for a few" and then I used a fuckin word I ain't never used in my life. "Please"

"I said leave her alone" Liz screamed again...but Ava stopped her this time. "It's aiight Liz...we needs to talk" Liz didn't move...I could fuckin tell that Liz weren't gonna leave until she were sure I weren't gonna hurt Ava...but Ava nodded at her...and her and Lungs left. I sat down next to her on the couch and fore I had a chance to say a fuckin word...Ava started..."she the one ain't she...she the one you been waiting for" I was fuckin floored. See I toldt you she fuckin knew. I was ready for a hugh fuckin fight...but the look on her face I knowed it weren't gonna be one I took her hand and moved her face to me. I wanted to fuckin make sure that she understood what I was gonna say. "Ya she the one. I know it sounds totally fuckin cornball...but she the one Ava. I love her...I fuckin loved her fore I ever met her....and nothing gonna fuckin get in my way. You and me we is tight...but we like family...I never love you like I love Liz. Can you understand that Ava...we is family always...you need me I'm there...ok. We cool Ava" I asked her. "We cool Zan" she said squeezing my hand. "Don't worry...I won't @#%$ up your chances with Liz. She cool Zan...she been so fuckin nice to me since Rath and Lonnie left" Rath and Lonnie...yeah I almost forgot about them fucks...almost. They was gonna get there's...but Ava was more important now....she fuckin had to help me get Liz. "Now...what the hell happened after that fuckin truck hit you" she said and I knowed we was cool...I knowed I didn't have to worry about Ava anymore...NO...all I had to fuckin worry about right now was me...me and my fuckin dirty mouth. It was time for me to change and with Ava's fuckin help....there was gonna be no fuckin doubt that Liz Parker was gonna be mine.




PART 5

So as I was saying me and Ava...we was cool. We was gonna work together and get me and Liz together. First thing we is gonna do is clean this fuckin dirty mouth I have. I know your thinking how easy...ever try it...we was raised on the @#%$...see this is gonna be so damned hard. Anyway..we was raised on the streets and this how we talk. This @#%$ gonna be harder to stop then I fu...thought.

Liz keeps coming back to make sure that Ava ain't dead...I figured that the reason anyway. Man...that bitch...um woman had me on fire. Time is gettin short...I can't explain it again...I just feel it. If we ain't together soon...it ain't gonna happen...I can't fuckin deal with that. So when she come in this time...I grabs her arm and stops her. "Look...Liz I knowed we got off on the wrong fuc...sorry...foot. But I ain't come here to hurt Ava...or you. Can we's start over. Hey...I'm Zan and you is" I watched as her face softened...and my heart fuckin melted.

"Ok...Hey I'm Liz Parker...Welcome to Roswell Zan" she said with a giggle...it was the cutest fuckin thing I ever heard. My heart was soaring...Man..am I turning into a sap or what. "So Zan...what brought you to Roswell" and then it fuckin fell. I wanted to scream you...you what made me come here...you and these damn vibes you been sending me. But...she acted like she didn't feel em. Was I fuckin wrong about this @#%$...NO WAY...I ain't wrong about nothin. She gonna be mine...and that's it. "I just knowed I had to be here" I said giving her my biggest grin.

"Oh...well I guess that you can stay here also" She said and she was blushing. I made her fuckin blush....man...I love this woman. "My parents are out of town for the next couple of weeks. Ava has been sleeping on the couch down here. I can move her upstairs into my parents room and you can sleep down here...if you want"

Sleep downstairs on the couch...Ava upstairs with you...don't think so. Ava knowed what I was thinkin cause she told Liz about my accident and gave her some story how I weren't able to heal myself completely cause I was still kinda weak...and that the couch was fine for her...that I weren't gonna be able to rest much on the couch. I looked at Ava and winked at her...I owed her big. "Oh my god Zan are you ok" she asked grabbing my hand and pulling me towards the couch. "I'm so sorry...I didn't know....here sit down...do you need anything" She was talkin so fast...but I loved it. Her hand felt so good in mine...and it pissed me off when she let it go. "Hey Liz...it's all good" I said "I'm ok...maybe just a little tired" It had been a long damn day...and I was ready to hit the sheets...in more ways then one....if you knows what I mean and I knows you do.

She took me to her parents room and showed me where I was gonna sleep. "This is where you'll sleep...and if you want to take a shower..um need to take a shower...you'll have to use mine...I mean the one in my....the shower in my room. My parent's shower is broken" She was blushing...man I loved this woman. "You can wear anything out of my fathers closet. The towels are in the hall closet...so" she said turning to me "lets get you out of those clothes...Um I mean...let me knows when your out of those clothes...ah..I mean....just put your dirty clothes in the hall and I will wash them for you. Um yeah...get some sleep...and when you wake up you can down downstairs and eat me...WITH me...eat with me...and Ava...of course. Ok...I'm going to go...um bye" She was fallin....my fuckin princess was fallin for me and I was gonna be there to catch her when she fell.

I had to take a shower first...I was pretty fuckin ripe and this fuckin hard on was killing me. Alls I could think about was my princess...what it would be like to kiss her...to suck those titties and what her @#%$ tasted like. I betted it was sweet...like her and I knowed that once I tasted it...I weren't never gonna get enough. Twenty minutes later I was clean and hard on free. But...like a dumb ass I forgot to get a fuckin towel fore I jumped in the shower...didn't matter...aliens powers...gotta love em. I was gonna sleep in her parents bed...but as I walked by her bed was calling me. Yes...it was fuckin callin me and no I ain't losing my fuckin mind...I had to smell her scent in them sheets....and so I laid down...buck naked and all. I must of been more tired then I thought...cause when I woke up it was dark out...but it ain't what I noticed first...what I noticed first was my princess standing on the side of the bed...staring at me. "Um...I'm sorry I was just coming to look at you....I mean check on you" Two seconds later I had another fuckin hard on...I tried to fuckin hide it..but it was to late...she already seen it. "OH MY GOD...I'm so sorry. I...I've got to go"

"LIZ WAIT" I screamed jumpin off the fuckin bed chasing after her. "LIZ...PLEASE" Liz stopped and fore I knowed it...she was kissing me...Liz Parker....my princess was kissing me like I ain't never fuckin been kissed before...and....



PART 6

I was tired....but it wasn't the kind of tired you are thinking of....Yes I hadn't really slept in months...but this tired was more then that...so much more. I was tired of feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders...tired of doing what everyone expected of me and most importantly I was tired of feeling lonely. Don't get me wrong...I had plenty of friends and family to keep me from being completely lonely...but I was still lonely....lonely for love. I guess before I tell you the rest of my story I should introduce myself. My Name is Liz Parker....I live in a small town in Roswell New Mexico. I know what your thinking....Roswell...isn't that the place where that alien spaceship was supposed to have crashed. Yes...it is the one and the same and I have lived here my whole life. Before I go any future...I have to warn you that what I have to say can't be repeated to another living sole. You have a trusting face and I really have to get this off my chest....so if you promise to keep this to yourself....then I will continue....Great...now here is my story.

Living in Roswell my whole life...I had heard all the stories about the crash of 1947. I never really believed any of it...there was no way that aliens existed...much less crashed here in Roswell. In my perfect scientific world there was no place for aliens...so unless I could see one...they didn't exist. Well I'm here to tell you that they do exist...and they have been living among us for years now. Shocked....I know...I was too at first...but now nothing surprises me anymore. I'm not going to bore you with all the details of my life since I realized that aliens do exist...but I will give you the highlights.

Basically...I died and was brought back to life by an alien...but not just any alien....Max...who I thought was my soul mate....but I will get to that later. He saved my life and it has never been the same since. Like I said it turned out he was an alien...as well as his sister Isabel and his friend Michael. Tess came into the picture later...and no I don't want to talk about her right now. Anyway....to make along story short... Max and I fell in love...we found out that he had this whole other destiny....I walked away from him and the relationship so he could follow his destiny and then I get a visit from the future version of Max...who tells me that I have to make my Max fall out of love with me...or the world comes to an end. So....I do what is expected of me...as usual...and I make it look like I slept with Kyle...he's an ex-boyfriend of mine. Anyways...it must have worked because the future Max disappeared and my life has been a living hell ever since. I know your thinking this is the strangest story I have ever heard....don't...cause it gets stranger. Turns out that Max, Isabel, Michael and Tess...have duplicates who have been living in New York all these years. I really don't know the whole story about them...they came to Roswell talking about an alien summit in New York. oh...I forgot to tell you that Max in a former life was the king of his planet...and this summit had something to do with that. Confused....join the club...but you don't need to worry about any of that....what you need to know is that Max went to New York with these dupes...because their leader...Zan was killed in an accident...little did I know that he was alive and again my life was never going to be the same again....

Did I forget to mention that Ava...Tess's dupe was staying with me. She had decided not to go back to New York with Max, Tess and Michael and Isabel's dupes. I found her trying to sleep behind a dumpster in the alley behind the diner my parents own. I asked her to stay with me and we have been fast friends ever since. I like Ava and for some reason I trust her...she isn't anything like her dupe Tess. I know your wondering who this Tess is....well...she is Max's Destiny. She is the reason that Max and I can never be together. Future Max told me that in his life time she left Roswell as Max and I...or future me grew closer and because of that....the end of the world came. Here I am seventeen years old...and I have the fate of the world resting on my shoulders. I hated my life...I didn't think that I would ever be happy again....but I was wrong...so wrong....but that comes later.


That day started like any other...but something was different....I didn't know what it was...but I knew that something was going to happen. I kept getting these strange sensations running through my body....the kind that I felt when ever Max was nearby. But...Max wasn't nearby...he was in New York...with the Gerbil...I mean with Tess. I couldn't explain why I was having these sensations...but what ever it was...I was going to find out soon enough. As I was saying...Maria and I were working our shifts at the CrashDown...the diner that my parents own. Business was really slow...I had Maria...in case your wondering who Maria is....she is my best friend. Anyway...I had Maria working the front...while Ava and I counted inventory in the stockroom. Boring right....wrong. Ava was telling me all about Zan. Zan is Max's dupe...and like I said before he was killed in an accident in New York. I felt bad for Ava....it was apparent that she loved Zan very much. I could kind of relate to her loss...except she lost Zan in an accident and I lost Max to a girl that look like a Gerbil. Sorry...I need to forget Tess and move on with the story. So anyway...all of a sudden Maria runs into the stockroom all frantic. Now...you have to understand that this is normal behavior for Maria....but with all that had been happening in our lives lately...I couldn't even begin to imagine what or who it was that was causing her to totally freak out. "OH MY GOD LIZ...AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS HIM..BUT THEN I THOUGHT IT CAN'T BE HIM BECAUSE YOU SAID THAT HE LEFT LAST NIGHT....BUT HE'S EVEN SITTING IN THE SAME BOOTH HE ALWAYS SITS IN...HE LOOKS LIKE HIM...WELL NOT TOTALLY LIKE...I MEAN...HE WOULDN'T WEAR HIS HAIR ALL SPIKY LIKE THAT...AND HE HAS PIERCING...HE WOULD NEVER WEAR PIERCING...TO SQUARE....BUT THEY LOOK GOOD ON HIM...OH MY GOD...BUT HE STILL LOOKS JUST LIKE HIM...LIZ ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME....HE LOOKS JUST LIKE HIM...WELL NOT..." She was running around and screaming at me and what she was saying made no sense. Who was this guy...and just who exactly did HE look so much like...I didn't know but...I was sure about to find out.

"Maria calm down" I said grabbing her by the shoulders and making her face me. "Now what are you talking about...who is out there...and who does he look so much like" What she said next caused my knees to go weak.

"Max....he looks just like Max" My heart started beating like crazy...this was it. Who ever it was causing these sensations was here...and it scared and thrilled me to my very core. But...before I had a chance to take a step...Ava was brushing past me into the diner. "ZAN" I heard her shout....I couldn't have heard that right...she said that he was dead...that she watched him get hit by a truck...how was it that he was here and alive. I ran into the diner to find Ava's body wrapped around someone....I couldn't make out his face...because she looked to be sticking her tongue down his throat. What ever those sensations were they were going crazy now...who ever this guy was...he was doing this to me...but how and why...and did it really matter...cause he seemed to be totally into Ava..and what about Max....




PART 7

I couldn't explain these sensations that I was feeling for this....this total stranger. What about Max...he was the love of my life...my soul-mate...and even though we could never be together...there never was going to be another Max...or was there...and what about Ava...she loved this man....who was I to stand in the way of that. I was so into my thoughts that I didn't even realize that Ava was now on the floor. All I could do was stare at the man standing in front of me. He was so much like Max...and yet so different. Their physical features may have been similar...but besides that he was the complete opposite of Max...and I found myself drawn to him like I had never been drawn to another man...yes even Max.

After what seemed like forever...I got up enough nerve to speak to him. "You must be Zan. Welcome to Roswell...I'm Liz Parker" I placed my hand out in front of me to shake his hand...Yeah right....shake his hand...I just wanted to touch him. But...as he went to put his hand into mine...Ava threw her arms around his waist and started screaming...I didn't hear most of what she said...all I heard was "Oh my god Zan...I love you so much" Jealousy like I have never felt before shot through my entire body. At that very moment I wanted to beat Ava into a bloody pulp. I wanted to ripe her hair out and tell her to get away from Zan...that he was supposed to be mine. But then my jealousy was replaced by guilt...Ava loved Zan and if she made him happy...then that was all that mattered...who was I to stand in the way of their happiness. Right and if you believe that...then I have some actual alien photos that I'd like to sell to you. The guilt didn't last long though...as I watched Zan push Ava away and start screaming at her. I had never in my life heard such language. Every other word was the F word...it was dirty and uncalled for...but secretly it was really turning me on. But that too didn't last long as he continued to scream at Ava. I know I was ready to beat her head in before...but this kind of treatment was unnecessary...and then I momentarily lost my mind.

I started yelling at him...telling him how upset Ava was when she thought he was dead and that for some reason she was glad he was still alive...that I didn't understand why alien men treat their women like trash...yes your right that statement should have been directed at Max...but he was Max...sort of. Then I told him to leave and go back to New York...I wanted to take the words back as quickly as they flew out of my mouth. Why...because in fact I didn't want him to go back to New York...I wanted him to stay. I wanted him to stay in Roswell...I wanted him to stay in Roswell forever...with me.

After that we just stood there for a moment...and then I turned to go check on Ava who had run off after his outburst...she was my friend after all. I hoped that what I did next was going to work...I had never done this before. But when I walked away...I swayed my hips just a bit more then usual. I wanted him to follow me...and if I had to use my body to do it...then I was all for it...and guess what...It worked...he was following me. I didn't know if I was seeing things or not...but there seemed to be a bulge in his pants that I didn't remember seeing there before..and I have to admit that knowing that I did that to him had be completely turned on.

I entered that backroom and sat down next to Ava...she seemed pretty upset...but what I found strange was the fact that their didn't seem to be any tears in her eyes. It was like she was faking....it seemed like a Tess situation all over again...and I had to keep telling myself that this was Ava and not Tess. Anyway...he entered the room and started yelling at Ava again...I don't know what took over me in that instance...because before I knew it I was bounding off the couch and slamming my hands into his chest. Maybe I was doing it for Ava...or maybe I was doing it cause I wanted to touch him so badly that I could barely breath...you decide. Anyway...I was ranting off something...I can't really remember...but I can clearly remember the way that his chest felt as my hands moved upwards over his muscular chest to push him backwards. Thinking about it now still gets to me...so we must move on.

He tried to talk to her again...and all I could think of was here was another chance for me to touch him again...but Ava stopped me...told me that they needed to talk things out. I didn't want to leave...No I wasn't worried about Ava...I should have been...but I was worried that they would talk and that Zan would realize what a great girl Ava was and then they would leave...no that wasn't true I was afraid that he would leave me. "Come on Liz...let's go" Maria said to me....I had totally forgotten that she was even in the room. Hesitantly I began to walk towards the door...I wanted to run into his arms and tell him to forget Ava...She wasn't the one for him I was...I wanted to tell him that I loved him...but I didn't...I walked out the door and left them...left them so they could be alone to discuss what ever it was they had to discuss.

I sent Maria home after we left them...it was a fight...but she finally agreed to go after I promised to give her every juicy detail later. I agreed...heck she's Maria...besides being my best friend...I knew that if I didn't she would hound me until my death for the details. Details that I hoped would be involving Zan and I..but with my luck it would involve Zan and Ava. After I locked the door behind Maria...I began replaying today over in my mind. What they hell was the matter with me anyway...I loved Max...I have been in love with Max for what seems like forever. How is it that I met Zan and I fell in love with him in a matter of minutes. Yes...minutes...maybe not even that long...I may have even been in love with him before I even met him. I loved Max...and...I loved Zan. Just what I needed more complications in my life. I had to know what was going on in the back..so I pretended that I was checking on Ava. I was..but not for the reasons that your thinking. To my relief they seemed to be just talking. As they sat together on the couch...I remembers thinking that they looked more like good friends then lovers...but I figured that it was just my eyes and mind playing tricks on me. On about my third time checking on Ava...Zan grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him. What ever those sensations were that he was causing...they were flowing through my whole body...and it was driving me crazy.

He told me that he wasn't here to hurt Ava or myself...and all I kept thinking was hurt me Zan...please hurt me. It took several deep breathes but I finally got my hormones under control and was able to concentrate on what he was saying. He wanted to start over....so he introduced himself and I started giggling like a little child...but I didn't care. He was smiling and it was the most beautiful smile I had ever seen. He was looking at me in a way that was making me knees weak. Ava then began telling me all that had happened to him after his accident and I went into mother mode...I had to make sure that he was ok. I had told him that he could stay with me...and Ava since my parents were away. I told him that he could sleep on the couch...and Ava could sleep in my parents room. But Ava told me that she would prefer for Zan to sleep in their bed...since we has still very weak from his accident. I had a hard time believing her story...and I could have sworn that I saw Zan wink at her...but I didn't care...Zan was going to be close to me....he was going to actually be closer to me then I ever imagined....

Hey...I just realized that I never finished describing Zan to you...I got off track with my story...but when it comes to Zan that seems to happen to me quite often. Anyways...I know that your dying for me to describe him to you aren't you...well all I can say is that he was a vision. I could look at this man for the rest of my life and never get bored. His hair was longer then Max's and he had it spiked. His eyes...his eyes they were beautiful...they say that the eyes are windows to the soul and as I stared into his beautiful green eyes I believed that to be true. Just by looking into them I felt I knew him. He was lonely...he was looking for love...he wasn't the person we saw on the outside...and he was longing to be...different. I know your thinking she saw that just by looking into his eyes...but I did...I saw it all and it drew me to him even more. Anyway...he had a goatee that was calling out to me...I know it was just facial hair...but I longed to touch it...to feel it between my fingers...and I wanted to feel it against my skin as I rubbed my cheek against it. But...I think what really sent me over the edge about Zan was his piercing. I have always hated them...I never understood why people did things like that to their bodies...but on Zan....I found myself wanting to lick and suck every one of them with my mouth...my mind went into over-drive as I thought of the different places on his body that he might have pierced...and I was so hoping that I got the chance to explore his body to find out. Shocked...I was...I had never felt feelings like this with Max...these feelings were scaring me...but they were thrilling me at the same time...I started to feel alive for the first time in months...I no longer wanted to be perfect Lizzy Parker...I longed to be...well I longed to be different and I knew that Zan was just the man to help me.




PART 8

I could feel his breath on my neck as I lead him into my parents bedroom. My heart was racing so fast that I could barely keep my breath. I longed to feel his arms wrapped around my waist and to feel his body pressed against mine. I kept screaming inside my head....touch me Zan....touch me....nothing. I remember thinking that maybe this was all a mistake....that maybe I was the only one feeling these sensations. No...he had to be feeling them too...they were so strong. But then I realized that it didn't matter if he was feeling them or not....because Zan WAS going to be mine.

I figured that he might be tired and would want to clean up. My parent's shower was broken...so that meant that he had to use the one in my room...and the thought of Zan in my shower....well lets just say that my mind went into over drive. But....you don't really want to hear about that now.............or do you?????

Ok..ok..please stop begging. If you really want to know I will tell you. Now before I tell you about it....remembers that this is only my fantasy....this is not real. ok...anyways...It started with showing Zan where everything was...and then after I showed him my shower....I would turn to him with a seductive smile and say "Now lets get you out of those clothes" I would unzip his torn sweat shirt and throw it on the floor behind me...then I would slowly lift his T-shirt over his head while I licked and nipped my way up his broad muscular chest. Reaching his nipple...I would realize that he had them both pierced....and I would swirl my tongue around them...tracing my tongue back and fourth between the two until he moaned my name allowed...then I would take one fully into my mouth...relishing the taste of both the metal and his skin together. He would try to pull me to him....but I wouldn't let him...oh no...this was my fantasy and I for once wanted to be the one in charge. "Let me know...when you get out of those clothes" I would whisper...stepping back to admire this beautiful man in front of me. With clumsy hands he would undo the buttons of his jeans and push them to the floor. He would wear no under garments...of course....and I would become completely wet at the sight before me. "Come to me Zan" I would whisper...watching as he moved towards me allowing him to wrap his arms around me. Our lips would meet hungrily as our tongues sought of the depths of each others mouths. "Now it's your turn" he would whisper into my ear then kissing his way down my neck. With one wave of his hand....I would be completely naked. "Oh Zan" I would moan as he continued to kiss his way down my neck till he reached my breast. He would suck one of my nipples into his mouth...and my moaning would continue to get louder and louder as his assault on my nipples increased. Roughly he would pick me up and head for the bed room. But he would stop in his tracks as I whispered "I want to see you wet Zan" With another wave of his hand the shower would turn on and I would cling to him as he stepped into the shower...wetting us both with the spray from the shower head. "I wants to eat you Liz" he would grunt as he placed me on the shower floor....kissing his way down my body until he was kneeling in front of my womanhood. I know that your thinking that what he said to me was gross...but the man has an accent...and the fact is his dirty talk really does something to me. "Eat me Zan" I would moan as I ran my fingers through his hair and guided him to......

"Princess...yous ok" Zan's voice brought me from my fantasy. Yes...I was completely embarrassed...and your right he didn't know what was going on in my head...but I am sure that he got an idea after I tried to speak and ended up stumbling all over myself. I couldn't get the fantasy out of my head and I was sure that my words reflected it. Actually I didn't give him the chance to respond....I was out the door in a flash. Poor Zan...I just knew that he thought I had lost my mind.

I went back down stairs and tried to concentrate on the inventory....but my mind keep wandering back to Zan and my fantasy. I still couldn't understand how it was that this man got to me the way that he did. I mean...I had fantasies about Max all the time...but my Max fantasies always involved sweetness and romance. Which don't get me wrong is not a bad thing....these are the two main reasons that I feel in love with Max Evans in the first place. But with Zan...it was different....and for some reason he was making me feel different. I had these urges that I couldn't explain....urges to touch him...to kiss him.

It was at that very moment that my urge to near him increased...hell...it tripled. I HAD to touch him....HAD to kiss him...HAD to... "I figure you and Zan be doing the deed bout now" Ava said pulling me from my thoughts of these urges. Guilt washed over me as I looked into her eyes. I had completely forgotten about Ava. Just earlier that day she had been telling me how much she loved Zan and how much his death had affected her...and knowing this....I still chased after him like some dog in heat. "He don't love me Liz...I knowed it. It's ok...I ain't gonna die if you and Zan hook up. You the one Liz...he been talkin bout forever" I watched her as she left the room....and ran...no I flew up the stairs towards his room.

My heart stopped as I reached his room and realized that he wasn't there. He didn't leave....I could still feel him..and then snoring coming from my room caught my attention. Quietly I opened the door to my room and the sight before me made my breath catch in my throat. There was Zan sleeping on my bed....in all his nakedness. Watching him sleep was the most beautiful thing I had seen in such a long time. He looked so peaceful and for a minute I was jealous....jealous because I longed to be the one that put that look on his face. I didn't even realize that he was now awake at first....but as I looked at his body once again and met his beautiful eyes...reality hit and I was scared to death. "I came to look at you...I mean check on you" I stammered...looking away from his eyes and noticing for the first time the size of his manhood. He tried to hide it with the bed spread...but it was to late. "OH MY GOD" I screamed....as panic filled my body. I wasn't ready for this....I thought I was...but I'm not. I had to get out of there....I couldn't breath. Turning away from him...I ran for the door. "LIZ WAIT" he cried "LIZ PLEASE..."

I stopped....not because of the urges I was having for Zan...or the sensations that had been coursing through my whole body since his arrival to Roswell....no I stopped because Zan needed me...he wanted me. I could hear it in his voice...and I needed him and I wanted him at that very moment more then I have ever wanted anything in my entire life. I didn't know what was going to happen once Max got back from New York...and I didn't care...right now all that mattered was Zan....all that mattered was Zan and me.

Zan was already behind me as I turned away from the door. He tried to say something...but I didn't give him the chance. Placing my hands along the sides of his face....I crushed his lips to mine. I had never in my life kissed a man the way that I kissed Zan that night....he brought out a side of me that I never knew existed....and I liked it. I wasn't afraid anymore....I was ready...I was more then ready....




PART NINE

"Princess" he moaned against my lips as I continued to assault his lips with my own...getting louder and louder each time that my tongue came into contact with his. I found that with each moan my body would get hotter and hotter. As my body burned I found that I needed to feel more of Zan....taste more of Zan. I wanted to explore every single nook and cranny of his body. I wanted to start from the top of his head to the bottom of his toes...and everywhere in between. I don't know what came over me in that instance...it shouldn't have shocked me...it wasn't like I had been myself all day anyway...but in my desperate attempt to feel more of him....I jumped him.


Ok...maybe not jumped like your thinking...but I wrapped my arms around his neck...and with out breaking our liplock... jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist...but wouldn't you consider that jumping...anyway I still laugh about what happened afterwards...cause the look on his face was pure gold. I guess that it caught him by surprise...because before I knew what was happening my head was slamming into the floor below.
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I thought I was gonna fall on the @#%$ floor as she kept kissing me. Her tongue kept darting in and out my mouth...and I couldn't stop myself from moaning every time I felt it touch mine. She wrapped her arms around my neck and...well....guess what...surprise...we fell on the floor. I didn't spect her to wrap her legs round my waist...and when she did it totally throwed me off guard. No it weren't only cause she wrapped her sexy ass legs around my waist causing my already hard dick to become harder. It were because of the heat that were coming off her body that throwed me off. It throwed me off so much that I ended up takin a step back and I tripped over my own damn feet. I tried to make sure she ain't get hurt...but...I knowed it was too late as I heard her head smack into the floor.

She ain't said a word...she just lay there. I was freakin scared...I just knowed that I had finally found my princess and now she were dead cause of me and my stupidity. Using my powers I checked her head to make sure she weren't hurt bad...she ain't have nothing major cept a bump...but she still weren't moving or saying nothin. I know now that it were only seconds..but then it felt like hours fore she moved or said anything. "I knew you were falling for me Zan...I just didn't think that you were going to take the falling part so seriously" she said to me as she started to giggle. I can't tell you how relieved I were that she were ok. I would rather die then have Liz feel any pain.

You wanna know what my fave thing bout Liz...besides the fact that she the most beautiful woman in the world...it would have to be her laugh. She got the best laugh in the world....like I toldt you before...she sound like an angel when she laughs...and right then I were in heaven.
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"Your so cornball" he said to me smiling as he rolled over onto his back...pulling me on top of him...and then we were both laughing...and you know what it felt good...it felt like it was my first real laugh in months and it was wonderful. I felt like I didn't have a care in the world and most important....I felt like I didn't have the weight of the world resting on my shoulders. I was free from all the lies and deceptions...that I had been hiding from everyone. I guess what I am trying to say is that I was happy. Happiness was something that was foreign to me at that time. Remember this was during the whole Future Max saga. So...Here I was laying in his arms and I was the happiest that I had been in such a long time.

"Cornball huh" I giggled a few minutes later...lifting my head off his chest. I playfully tugged at his bottom lip with my teeth...and I knew that playtime was over as Zan grabbed my neck...crushing his lips to mine...and then our tongues were dueling with an intensity that I had never experienced before...and it didn't matter who was winning...all that mattered was the sensations that were running through out my body...sensations that I had been feeling all day...but now they were heightened. It is really hard to explain....but I knew that he was feeling the same sensations as I was...it was like what ever these sensations were they had connected us...made us one.

What ever it was....it wasn't like the connection that I had with Max....this was different...but similar. Sorry I forgot that you don't know about the connection and the flashes I had with Max. Basically when Max healed me...we were able to connect to each other through flashes...images that let us see what the other was feeling. Yet another thing in my life with no explanation. But anyway...back to Zan....

In truth it wouldn't have mattered if Zan and I had made this connection or not...I knew that he felt the same way...I knew that he wanted me as much as I wanted him. How...I felt it pressing against the inside of me thigh...and it excited me more then I can ever express to know that I...Liz Parker....had this kind of affect on this man. I wanted to touch it...look at it and yes I wanted to taste. "Can I touch it" I asked hesitantly...pulling away from his lips and looking into his beautiful eyes.

I was afraid of what he might think of me...this wasn't something that Perfect Lizzy Parker would do....but all I found in his eyes was the love and the trust that he felt for me. "Princess..." he whispered "you can do what ever you wants to do to me"



PART 10

I didn't thinks that I could loves her more then I did...but when she asked me if she could touch me...my love for her fuckin doubled in size. She didn't have to asks me if she could touch me...I needed her to touch me...man I needed her to touch me. My princess could do what ever she wanted to do to me...and I weren't care...cause all that mattered were she were touching me.

She laid her head on my chest after she asked me...and she ain't say nothin. I could feel the tension in her body and I knowed she were scared...she didn't have to say nothin...I could feel it. Those vibes that I toldt you bout before...well I could feel hers now...Yes...she was feelin them too. I could feel everything about her...everything she were feeling for me. I felt how much she wanted me...I felt how scared she were...since this were her first time and all. But...I felt somthin else too...somethin that I didn't want to feel...somethin that I chose to ignore. K...you wanna know...I still ain't gonna tell you's but know this...at that fuckin minute...I hated my fuckin dupe more then I thought I could fuckin hate anybody.

But...I ain't have time to be thinkin bout my dupe...I had Liz...she were mine now...he had his chance with her and he @#%$ it up...and if I had anything to do with it...he weren't gonna get another fuckin chance. Yeah...that is what I toldt myself anyway.

"We ain't gots to do nothin Princess" I whispered to her as rubbed my hands up and down her back. "we can just lays here if you wants...but I can't lie to you Liz...I wants you...I wants you so bad that I can't stand it...I knows that you can feel how much I do...but I ain't gonna force you to do nothin you ain't wanna do. I knows this is your first time...it's mines too. I been waiting for you princess...you the one I wants to be my first. We can go slow ands if you wants to stop...then we will stop. I loves you Liz...I ain't never gonna hurt you" I felt her smile against my chest as she begun to kiss down body...and then I felt her tears. "Liz...please don't cry...we"
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I knew that he wasn't going to force me to do anything that I didn't want to do...I knew that he loved me and would never do anything to hurt me. But...I was still scared...not because I didn't want to touch him...pleasure him...make love to him. No...that wasn't the reason at all...I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to pleasure him the way that he should be pleasured. I had never made love to anyone before...what if I didn't live up to his expectations. But his words dispelled my fears...this was his first time also. "I love you Zan" I whispered against his chest as tears slide down my face. No...these weren't tears of sadness and frustration...I had cried enough of those to last a life time. These were tears of happiness.

Slowly I kissed my way down his chest...reaching his wash-board stomach...I traced my tongue across his gorgeous stomach muscles... stopping before I reached his pelvic area. I found that I couldn't stop staring at it...his penis...it was absolutely the most beautiful penis that I had ever seen...not that I had a lot to compare it too. I had never seen one up close and personal...I had only seen pictures in the woman's magazine that Maria's mom kept in her night stand. It doesn't matter what we were doing looking at these pictures...what matters is that the men in those pictures had nothing on Zan...the man was absolutely gigantic...

I had to touch him...I wanted to know what it would feel like to hold it in my hand...and so I gently placed my hand around it...causing Zan to suck in his breath. I held his penis in my left hand as I traced my index finger up to the tip and back down...I wanted to examine every single inch of his manhood...what can I say it is the scientist in me. Poor Zan...I didn't realize then just how hard...pardon the pun...but I didn't realize just how hard it was for him not to lose control. ************************************************************

I didn't know how much longer I were going to be able to control my dick...I was lovin ever minute that my princess was touching me...but I was ready. I didn't want to scare her...but I was losing control quick. She continued to run her finger up and my @#%$ and I couldn't wait anymore.

"Please Liz" I moaned arching up into her hand "hurry...I can't holds on anymore" I pulled myself into a sitting position and cupped my hand around her hand...setting the rhythm that I needed so damn badly. I didn't think that it could get any better then that...Liz's hand was like fire...and it only gots hotter with every stroke. Yeah...I didn't think that it could get much better then that...but as usual I was so fuckin wrong. If I thought that a hand job was good...it was nothin compared to the feeling of her lips closing around my dick.
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I watched as he released his hand from mine and with a groan he laid back on the floor. Poor Zan...I had been completely into my examination of his manhood...that I hadn't even realized the torture I was causing him. So he had set the pace he needed for his release by placing his hand around mine. As he pulled his hand away...I increased my grip and continued to stroke his manhood even faster...and I couldn't help but grin as a slew of profanities escaped from his lips. Hey I had to give the man credit...he was trying to cut his swearing down...even though it secretly turned me on.

I watched as two beads of moisture formed at the top of his penis...and it excited me beyond belief...but I needed more...I needed to taste him. I gently rubbed the tip of my tongue over the tip of his manhood...causing another slew of profanities to follow the previous ones. I must have been doing something right to cause this kind of reaction in him...and in turn it was causing a reaction in me. With more force I took his whole member into my mouth and moved my way up and down...grazing my teeth across the tip with each stroke. His cries were like music to my ears...and as they increased...so did the ache between my legs. I was now hotter and wetter then I ever thought possible and my whole body felt as if I was on fire. With my mouth...and again with my hand I continued my assault on his penis. "FUUUUUCCCCCK" he screamed as he finally gave into his orgasm...filling my mouth with his juices.

My body was in a frenzy and I was the one that now needed the release. "Your turn" he grunted as if reading my mind. Roughly he pulled me up his body until I was straddling his waist...and then I felt his hands sliding up my legs...under the skirt of my uniform until both hands were fully covering my rear-end...and then I was slowly sliding up his chest until I could feel his warm breath a mere inches from the ache between my legs...




PART 11

Now...it was her turn. I wanted to makes her feels like she mades me. Slowly I moved my hands up her sexy leg...her skin was so soft and I was dying to feel her all over. I heard her moans as I grabbed her ass and beguns to pulls her to my hungry mouth. I could feel the heat coming off of her...and her smell...it gots stronger as I pulled her closer...and it were drivin me fuckin crazy...I needed to fuckin taste her more then ever now. Her moaning were getting louder and louder as I licked the insides of her thighs...untils I reached her draws...

I ain't never understand why peoples wear draws. I ain't never worn them...but when I saws Liz's my dick got totally hard. Why....well lets me tell you it weren't the draws...it were the wet spot that I seen on her draws that gots to me. Her draws were soaked...and it were me...not my fuckin dupe that did this to her...and then I hads the need to fuckin lick it...but that would have to waits...cause I wanted to haves some fun with her first....I wanted to make more hotter and wetter then she ever beens before and I wanted her to scream my names as she came all over my face.
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My panties were completely wet as he pulled me towards his mouth...and the closer I got the wetter they got. I could feel his hot breath as I got closer and I thought that I was going to come undone as he traced his tongue along the inside of my thighs....stopping just short of my panties. "Tell me what you wants me to do princess" he says to me as he begins to lick his way around the edge of my panties...causing my fire to rise even higher. "Zan...please...I need you"

"I wants to hear you Liz...tell me whats you wants" he grunts...now trailing his tongue up and down the center of my panties...I am close...he hasn't really touched me yet...but I am so close. "tells me princess....tells me what you want"

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Enough said...I grabbed her panties with my teeth and ripped them open ...thrusting my tongue into her hot @#%$. "OH MY GOD" she screamed pushing my face more into her core. I licked her @#%$ like it were my last meal. She were so fuckin wet and she tasted so fuckin sweet...I toldts you that once I got a taste of her that I weren't never gonna get enough...and I was fuckin right.
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I thought that I was going to explode as he ripped open the crouch of my panties with his teeth...but that was nothing compared to the wondrous...and yet torturous sensations that ran over me as he thrust his tongue into my center. I couldn't help the cries of passion that erupted from my lips...causing Zan to attack my clit with such a vengeance that it sent me over the edge...not once...not twice...but several times.

"Oh my god...Zan...is it always this good" I whispered raggedly...sliding off his chest and into his strong arms...trying very unsuccessfully to recover from my first...and hopefully not last orgasm from him and his glorious mouth. ************************************************************

"Fraid not princess..." I said putting ons a straight face. It was hards trying nots to laugh at the look of horror on her face. "it's can only get better...but we needs to practice...lots of practice" I can't stop laughing as she smacks her hand against my chest. "Oh baby...I don't think we ready for the kinky @#%$ yet" I's still laughing as I rolls us over...pinning her underneath me.

"I loves you Liz" I whispers as I place a small kiss on her lips. But...something is wrong...I can feel it...she weren't saying nothing. "Liz...you ok" I asks "Liz"
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I can't move...something is wrong...I can feel it...he's in danger. "MAX" I yell...pushing Zan off of me. I jump up off the floor and run for the door...forgetting completely about Zan. As I am running down the stairs...I hear a crash...and then voices. "AVA" I yell running into the diner...coming face to face with two very Pissed off people...Michael and Isabel.




PART 12

My whole fuckin body were numb as she called out my dupes name and pushed me away from her. I tells her I love her and she calls out his name. she loved him...I knowed it. I knowed that she still loved him...but I fuckin ignored it and wents for her anyways. How dids I knows...I toldt you I felt her vibes. Why didn't I wants to tell you's abouts it...cause in my @#%$ up thinking if I's didn't says it out louds...then it weren't be true.

I wanted to be fuckin dead...I wished I were had died when that fuckin truck hit me...it were less painful then the @#%$ I were feeling now. What the @#%$ were I thinkin when I fell for Liz Parker...what mades me think that she would love me more then my fuckin dupe....I were nothin but sewer trash from New York...she don't belongs with me. She needs a man that can takes care of her...a mans that can gives her a lifes of luxury. What the hell were I gonna give to her...and then it hits me...anything she fuckin wanted. I weren't gonna lose her...not now...I hads waited my whole life for her...and I weren't givin her up now that I founds her. I gots up off the floor and walks into her bathroom...putting my dirty clothes backs on. I needed to find her...we needed to figure this @#%$ out.
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"What the hell is going on here" I yell as I enter the diner and see Michael and Isabel confronting Ava. She is trying to act like she isn't afraid...but she is...I can see it. "I want to know why Lonnie pretended she was me" Isabel screams at Ava. "I don't knows why" she answers back...looking at me with fear in her eyes. "I don't believe you" Isabel screams as Michael uses his powers to knock all the dishes off the shelf behind Ava...causing Ava to almost jump out of her skin.

Something was going to happen to him if we didn't do something...and quick. I pushed my way past Michael and Isabel...moving Ava to the other side of the counter. I tried to hold them back...my tears...but as I spoke to Ava...they streamed down my face just the same. I was truly scared for Max...he needed to be ok...I needed him to be ok. ************************************************************

She loved me...she tolds me she did...and I loved her...that were all that mattered. I just hads to make her forget about my dupe...I was damned determined to make sure that she forget about my dupe...but what I heards next...mades me change my mind...no mades me lose my fuckin mind.

"Look Ava...if Max is in danger...you have to tell us. I love him...I love his as much as you love Zan. Please Ava...I need him"

I couldn't fuckin breath...as much as I tried...I couldn't breath. Then the fuckin anger tooks me over...I had to get out of there...or I were going to do something that I didn't wants to do.
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So...Ava told me that I was different...that when Max had saved me...he changed me. I didn't know what that meant...different...but I found that I was scared of that word now...when just yesterday I was longering to be...different. Anyway...Isabel had tried to dream walk Max...but she couldn't make the connection and that was when Ava told me about the change. I couldn't understand how they thought that I could contact Max...if Isabel couldn't...but I had to try...I had to make sure that he was safe.

The connection with Isabel's help was instantaneous...at first I couldn't see anything...but as the fog cleared...I saw him. Relief flooded my body as I realized that he was still alive...but relief quickly turned to fear as I watched Rath grab Tess from behind...covering her mouth...rendering her unable to warn Max of what was to happen next. I knew that I had to do something...anything...right then. I started screaming...screaming so loud that it caused my head to start hurting...but it wasn't working...he couldn't hear one word that I was screaming at him.

I could feel the connection with Isabel getting weaker...I could feel that we didn't have much time left. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes focusing on the love that Max and I had shared since he healed me... "PLEASE MAX...I LOVE YOU...LOOK AT ME...I NEED YOU TO LOOK AT ME" I screamed waving my arms in my direction.

It worked...he looked at me. He had a look of complete confusion of his face...but he took the step that I needed him to take...and then I was back in the Crashdown.




PART 13

I knowed that I hads to leave...if I didn't then I were going to do some @#%$ that I ain't wanna do. I were amazed at the @#%$ that went through my head after I heard her words...@#%$ that I didn't think I would ever fuckin think bout when it cames to my princess...but they was there and they was scary...so I hads to leave.

I feeled like I ain't had no control over my body...she had fuckin torn my heart in half...and I wanted to make her suffer like I were suffering...I wanted to scream at her until she knowed that it were me she loved...I wanted to shake her until all her thoughts about my fuckin dupe fell outs her head. I knowed that I weren't never gonna hurt her...I loved her...even though she ain't love me like I loved her...but I hads to leave...just in case I lost control. I didn't know where I was going...I just knowed I hads to get far away as possible.

I felt like my fuckin heart were being ripped out my chest and I couldn't breath...but I keeped walkin. I ain't never cried in my fuckin life...but that night I couldn't stops them tears. "YOU THE FUCKIN MAN...KNOCK THIS @#%$ OFF" I keeped yelling at myself...but they still came. Yeah...I were the man...but I didn't feeled like the man...I felt like I had lost my whole fuckin reason for living...I didn't care what happened to me anymore...all that mattered were that someone...or something...had to suffer as bad as I were suffering.
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When I returned to the Crashdown...Michael and Isabel bombarded me with a thousands questions...questions that I didn't have any answers to. Yes...Max had survived almost being crushed by the scaffling...but I didn't know what had happened after that. Why...because once I got back to the Crashdown...my connection with Max...it was completely gone. It didn't make any sense...I felt the connection so strongly before...and now I felt absolutely nothing. "Can you still feel him" Isabel asked...and since I didn't want to worry her or Michael anymore then they already were...I lied...I lied and told them that he was safe and that they didn't have to worry about him...that everything was going to be alright. The truth was I had no earthly idea if he was safe...or if everything was going to be alright. It was yet another set of lies...to add to the already growing pile.

As I walked Michael and Isabel to the jeep...Max's jeep...I promised that I would get in touch with them if anything else happened. Then Isabel did something that was so unlike her that it brought the guilt of lying to her crashing over me...she hugged me...with tears in her eyes...she hugged me. "Thank you Liz...thank you for saving Max's life. I don't know what has happened between the two of you in the past months...but when he comes home...I will do everything in my power to make sure that the two of you get back together...you two have a love like none I have ever seen...and the proof is this connection that you have with each other...I'm sorry that I ever doubted you before"

I could only stand there dumbfounded...I tried to speak...I had to tell them the truth...they had to know that it was all a lie...but before I could get any words out...Michael was at my side. "That goes double for me Liz...thanks" he said and with a quick peck on the cheek...they were gone and I was left standing alone with my thoughts of Max and...and then I remembered...Zan




PART 14

I couldn't sees nothin through my tears...and thens I walked into somethin...and that was it...I lost my fuckin mind. Turns out it were a car...but it weren't much of one by the times I gots through with it. I started kicking the @#%$ out of one of the doors and withs each kick picture of Liz would comes into my head...Liz..the first time I ever seen her...the look on her face when she were pissed at me...her laughing after I dropped her ons her head...her look when she were scared...when she wanted to touch me and just how fuckin beautiful her looked after I gaves her...her first orgasm...but then my rage fuckin explodes as I see the look ons her face as she call out Maxie boys name...leaving me fuckin laying on the floor. Jumping ups on the hood of the car...I starts jumping around ands screaming like a fuckin madman. "I'M THE MAN....I'M THE MAN...I'M THE FUCKIN MAN...HERES THAT PRINCESS...I IS THE @#%$ MAN"

"Your the fuckin man alright" I didn't knows I were being watched...and when I turned to see who it were...I lost my balance and fell off the fuckin car. "I see your drunk too...huh Evan's...but that doesn't explain what the hell are you doing...and just what is the deal with the get up of yours" he saids laughin at me...whiles he pulled me up offs the ground. "Halloween is over big guy...case you didn't know" I guess he didn't wants an answer...cause I watched as he staggered across the grass...falling into a bench after he walked into it. "Come on Evan's...keep me company" he said...smacking the empty spot next to him. "looks like we both are having the same problem...woman"

I didn't knows who this punk were...but he thoughts I were someone else...didn't takes me long to figure out who he thought I were...but I sats down anyway.
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"ZAN" I screamed running back into the Crashdown...past Ava and up the stairs...and into my bedroom. He wasn't there...and then I remembered the look of confusion on his face as I called out Max's name...as I pushed him off of me. "ZAN" I cried again...running into my parents room...but I knew that he wasn't going to be there...I couldn't feel him anymore...either.

"You gots some explaining to do" Ava screamed...pushing me backwards into the wall...if Ava was frightened before with Michael and Isabel...she sure wasn't now. "Whats the hell your prob Liz...you tell him you loves him and then your fuckin cryin to me bout how much you loves Max" I didn't have an answer for her...but she was right. Just an hour before...Zan and I had been intimate...we were going to make love and it was going to be the first time for both us. I told him I loved him...I did love him...but I loved Max too. "I don't know" I cried...as I slide down the wall to the floor below.

"What's you mean...you don'ts know" she continues to scream...pacing back and forth in front of me. "I will fuckin kill you Liz...if you hurt him...do you hears me. I loves Zan...I knows that I toldts you that I weren't gonna die if you's two hooked up...but I fuckin lied. He don't loves me...but I loves him Liz...I gaves him to you...cause he fuckin loves you...and I thoughts you loved him...guess I were wrong bout you..."

Ava continued to yell...but I couldn't hear her. My head was clouded with nothing but Zan...how he caused sensations to run through out my body...even before we had met. I recalled the way my body responded to him...the first time I saw his beautiful face...how I wanted to kiss him...touch him...taste him...so much so that it made me forget about everything...the first time I kissed him...and how my want for him took me over completely. But what I kept coming back to was that....he may have caused all these reactions in me...but the truth was...he made me happy.

Yes...I loved Max. What I had with Max was wonderful and special...but truth be told...I was never really happy. There was always something tearing us apart...it started with Max and his self doubts...Michael and Isabel and their fears...Tess and her destiny...and ended with Future Max and his revelations of the end of the world. I loved Max...but when it came to our relationship...I usually ended up tearful and broken hearted.

With Zan it was different...he loved me and he wasn't afraid to tell me...to show me. I knew that he wouldn't let anything get in the way of his love for me...not duties...destinies or even the end of the world...and I wanted that....I wanted him....I loved him.

"I love him Ava" I whispered...causing her to stop her pacing and turn to me. "I just didn't realize how much until now. I'm so sorry Ava...I didn't mean to hurt you. I know that you love him...but I love him too. He makes me happy...It just took me till now to realize it...we need to find him...I can't lose him now" I whispered through my tears as I looked up at her face. I was unable to read the look that now covered her face...but as she pulled me off the floor...I knew that she wasn't done with me yet.
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"Kind of reminds you of the last time we got drunk...huh Evan's" he laughed...punching me in the arm "Except were not breaking into her room...and rooting through her underwear drawer" I didn't know who the hell this guy were...I ain't never met my dupe...but I had a hard time picturing him rooting through some bitches draws. He took another look at me and started laughing again. "So what IS the deal with the outfit anyway" What the hell...I thought...I'll play alongs. "I wanted to be's different"

"Be's different huh...well you certainly succeeded...got the accent and all. So why is it that your trying to be's different...oh wait...it wouldn't have anything to do with a certain...Miss Parker now would it Evan's. I wanted to scream ats the top of my lungs...OF COURSE ITS HAS TO DO WITH HER....IT ALWAYS HAS TO DO WITH HER...ITS WILL ALWAYS HAVES TO DO WITH HER.

Different huh...maybe I should make myself different...Nah...I look to damned good to change this face...I have to admit it though...your kinda creeping me out. I guess you chose the right look...cause you are the complete opposite of the Max Evans' I know and love" this guy was buggin...but I hads a feeling that he knowed somethin about my dupe and my princess...and I hads to find out. I asked him if he wanted me to change into my dupe form...but he tolds me no...

"Actually Evan's I take that back...it makes it a whole lot easier to talk to you this way...since the whole...well you know...sleeping with Liz thing"

I didn't know what the @#%$ he were talking about...and at the time it didn't fuckin matter...cause he were gonna be dead fuckin for lying about my princess. She were a virgin...I knew she were...I could feel it. "WHAT'S THE @#%$ YOU TALKIN BOUT" I screamed...picking his ass off the bench and throwing him ons the ground. "I'MS GONNA KILL YOU PUNK...FOR LYING ABOUT HER...NO ONE FUCKIN TALKS @#%$ ABOUT HER...NO ONE" Once he hit the ground I went to zap his ass with my fuckin powers...but somethin he said mades me stop.

"NO...please don't...your right. Nothing happened...it was all a set up...don't ask me why...cause I don't know. She came over that night and asked me for a favor...I didn't know what it was until we got to her room...and even when she told me I didn't understand what the hell she was talking about...all I knew was that she wanted to make it look like her and I slept together. Look...Evan's I know that you hate me...and that I keep bitching about how I never wanted to be in your I know an alien club...but I like you...and I'm not saying that cause you can fry my ass with a wave of your hand. But...Liz is my friend and she needed my help...but this lie hasn't help me either you know...I love Tess...yes Tess...I have been in love with her from the first time I saw her...but she loves you...and now she thinks that I slept with Liz and that just gives her all the more reason to go after you....are you happy now....you know what....just do it...just fry my ass now...and end my suffering...I don't need this @#%$. I am Kyle Valenti..."

None of this @#%$ made sense...she lied to my dupe about sleeping with this guy. I watched as he lay on the ground...just running is fuckin mouth. I still didn't know this punks name...but he were cool with me...cause he were there for my princess when she needed him. Then it hit me...

I hads to help her...as much as I fuckin hated my dupe...she loved him...and he mades her happy...and that's all that mattered to me that's she were happy. I were gonna be without my princess...but she were gonna be happy. Yes I were pissed it weren't me that were gonna make her happy...but it ain't matter anymore. I hads to figure out why she lied to him...whats she were protecting him from...and once I dids...Ava and I were heading back to New York...I hads business to take care of anyways...Lonnie and Rath.
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"You aint's gonna find him...when Zan gets like this he just disappears. Back in New York...he woulds get into it with Rath and disappears for days...fore we sawed him again. Don't worry Liz...he's gonna come back...he ain't gonna stay away from yous. Best things to do is just wait for him...go gets some sleep...night Liz"

I watch as she left my parents room...and me alone with my thoughts. I wondered where he was...and if he was alright. I knew that he heard me confess my love for Max...why else would he have just disappeared like that. It broke my heart to know that I was the one that caused this to happen...but I could fix this...I had to fix this.

I decided to take Ava's advice and try and get some sleep...I now felt as if I had the weight of the world back on my shoulders...and just the thought of that feeling makes me tired as I tell you about it...so I will move on.
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I found Ava sleeping ons the couch...she knowed that I be back...likes I said she knowed me better then I knowed myself. I hads to make sure that my fuckin dupe made it home alive...as much as I wished he were dead...a dead Maxie Boy weren't gonna make Liz happy. I didn't knows what to do since I were her and he were there...and then its fuckin hit me...Shell.

Shell were the only human that we's ever hung with...she were a lot like us...no...she weren't alien...she were just a punk. She gots my ass outs of trouble so many fuckin times...I lost count. I knew that it anyone's was gonna help me it were gonna be her. I ain't never tolds her our secret...but I thinks that she knew we was different. She ain't never said nothin...and I ain't never said nothin...so we was cool.

"Yo...you's better have a good fuckin reason for calling mes in the middle of the fuckin night" she screamed into the phone...making me laugh for the first times since I left. I tolds her who it were and whats I needed her to do...she ain't have a problem with it...I knowed she wouldn't. "So's you's want me to looks for a guy that looks exactly like you...but not likes you. K...Zan...you's got it...I do's anythin for you baby" I always thought that Shell had a thing for me...maybe I'd give her a chance once I gots done with this @#%$.

I hung up the phone and walked over to the couch where Ava were sleeping and I laid done side her. This @#%$ weren't nothin new for us...I would always lays with her after I came back from blowing off steam. We ain't never did the deed...but I knowed that Ava were there for me's each time I needed her and this time were no exception. I knowed that Liz were upstairs...but I ain't want to see her just then. I were still pissed...and I knowed that one look froms her and that woulds be gone is a flash. I pulled Ava into my arms as I drifted off to sleep. I weren't thinkin bout Ava though...I were pretending that it were my princess...and it brought a smile to my face.



PART 15

I couldn't sleep...as much as I tried...sleep was just something that I wasn't going to be doing that night. I had to much on my mind...I felt like I had the weight of the world back on my shoulders. As I laid in my bed...tossing and turning...thoughts of Zan and Max swirled through my mind.

I loved Max...I loved Zan...I loved two men that were the same...and yet so different. Max...the focal point of my life for such a long time. Zan...I had only known Zan for a few days...but it felt as if I had known him for a life-time. Max...always trying to protect me from everything...and in doing so only hurt me by keeping us apart. Zan...though I only knew him a few days...I already knew that he would never push me away...and yet I also knew that I would always be safe. Max...always putting everything else first in his life...he never really seemed to notice how unhappy I had become...knowing that I would always be last on his list of priorities. Zan...he would put me first always...and I knew that he would do what ever he had to make sure that I was happy. I loved both these men...and yet...I found that my thoughts kept going back to only one of them...the one that would make ME the happiest....ZAN.

I needed to find him...to make him see that I loved him and that it was only him that I wanted to be with. I knew that I would have to deal with Max and the rest eventually...but right then all that mattered to me was Zan. I dressed quickly and ran downstairs to speak to Ava. She knew him better then anyone...and I hoped that maybe she could give me some clue as to where he may have run off too.

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"I love you Zan...you and you alone" she breathed into my ear...waking mes from my sleep. With out openings my eyes...I pull her body tighter to me and lay my head in the curves of her neck.

"Do you love me Zan" she whispers...

"I loves you"

"Say it louder....I want to hear how much you love me Zan"

"I loves you" I answers louder.

"LOUDER...ZAN...LOUDER"

"I LOVE YOU" I scream outs to her...pulling her body closer to mines.
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I could feel the air leave my lungs...but I couldn't seem to take any air in as I stared at the sight before me. Zan and Ava were laying on the couch...in each others arms. Zan had his back to me...but I watched as he pulled her tighter against his body...placing his face in the curve of her neck. A smile crossed Ava's lips as he began to mumble his love for her against the skin of her neck...each profession louder then the last...pulling her body tighter against his own.

Try as I might I still couldn't get any air into my lungs...I couldn't move for what felt like hours...all I could do was stand there trying to breath...trying to make sense of what I was seeing before me...trying to figure out why the man that I loved...and claimed to love me...was now professing his love to another.

Now...normally I would have ran from this situation...racing to my room...I would have thrown myself onto my bed and cried myself silly...but not this time. I was angry...it was anger like I had never felt before...and I felt it spread through my entire body like a wildfire...and then I did something that makes me laugh today...but back then I thought Zan was going to kill me.

Running into the kitchen I grabbed the bucket we used to fill the ice machines and filled it full of ice. At the time it seemed like the right thing to do. In my demented mind...I thought that Zan and Ava needed to cool off a bit...and so I carried this ice bucket back to the breakroom and...

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I were dreaming of her...my princess...the love ofs my life. We hads just gotten married and it were now the night ofs our honeymoon...I were sleeping...afters having made loves to my princess three times...I were tired. but each times I tried to goes to sleep...she would kiss me and giggles...asking me to tells her how much I loved her...I may haves been tired...but I were more then glad to tells her. Each times I tolds her...she asked me to says it louder...I ain't care...I woulds shout it from the rooftops...I LOVE LIZ PARKER. "Make love to me again Zan...I need you inside me" this woman were going to kill me...but it were only a dream...so what the hell.

"WHAT THE @#%$" I screamed jumping of the couch...after I feeled somethin wet and cold soaking my fuckin body. I were trying to gets the sleep out my eyes...so I ain't seen her...all I heards was somthin metal hitting the ground and thens a door slamming. I ain't have to have fuckin vibes to know who it were that did this.

Ava said somethin...but I ain't have time for her...I were fuckin pissed...I ain't knowed what her fuckin problem were...but me and her was going to have a fuckin chat...and I were going to find out. ************************************************************

again I just stood there...watching as Zan held Ava in his arms...profession his love to her...all the while holding the full ice bucket in my hands. I knew that I needed to cool off...and just maybe they needed to cool off to.

I aimed the bucket right at Zan...he seemed to be the one that needed to cool off the most. I watched in slow motion as the ice flew from the bucket...landing all over his muscular body. I didn't see him jump off the couch...but I sure heard him as he did and the slew of profanities that flew out of his mouth and this time...it did not turn me on.

Running into my apartment...I slammed the door and ran to my room....locking the door behind me. Stupid I know...like he couldn't get in just by using his powers...and that is exactly what he did.
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I trieds to open her bedrooms door...but its were locked. I hads to fuckin chuckle at thats...likes I couldn't use my fuckin powers to gets in. Waving my hand in fronts of the lock...it popped open and I threws the door open. She were trying to climbs out her window...but I stopped her...grabbing hers waist...and pulling hers against my body...causing an instant fuckin hard on. She were pissed I coulds feel it...and it were turning me ons ore thens you coulds believe. "GET YOUR DAMNED HANDS OFF ME..." she screamed pushing my hands offs her waist and facing me's. "DON'T YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN"

Her lips were so close to mines that I could feels her breath on my face...I ain't have a choice...my lips hads a fuckin minds of its own...and




PART 16

If I thought I was angry at Zan for his display of affection towards Ava minutes before...it was nothing compared to the anger that surged through my body as he grabbed my waist and pulled me tightly again his body. You would think that I would be happy that the man I love was pulling me into his arms...and the fact that he was completely aroused...should have made it even better...but I knew that I wasn't the one that caused that reaction in him and well lets just say that I was more then just a little unhappy about that....and he was about to find out just how unhappy I was. Hell...I was about to find out just how unhappy I was about it.
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I coulds feel her breaths on my face...she were so close...and I aint have a choice...I hads to fuckin kiss her. I pulled her body against mines...causing my hard on to grows again. I needed to taste her lips... and she weren't close enoughs...I needed to feel her closer...I wanted hers to feels what she were doing to me. I's pulled her closer and then I's crushed my lips to hers lips. She tried to's say somethin...but I droves my tongue into her mouth...stopping her for like a second. She ain't kiss me back though...she just stoods there. I knowed she were fuckin pissed about Ava and me...but I didn't know just how pissed. But...I sure were going to finds out.

She pushed her self aways from me's...and thens I watched in slow motions as she pulled her fist back...I couldn't stops the grin that covered my face...I knowed that there were no fuckin way that she were going to hit me...there were no way that my princess were gonna hits me...Yeah...I thoughts that were until I felts her fist makes contact withs my face. "I SAID DON'T YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN" she screamed...as she rans past me...towards the door.

I coulds only stands there...there were no fuckin way that my princess just fuckin hits me. It ain't hurt...but that were't the problem...the problem were...my princess...hads just fuckin hit me.
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I couldn't believe the nerve of him...there he was completely aroused...by Ava none the less...and now he was kissing me. I tried to speak...tried to pull away...but it seemed to only urge him on...because before I knew it...he was pulling me tighter against he arousal and shoving his tongue down my throat...and I lost it...I couldn't control my anger any more...I had to make him hurt as much as I was hurting.

I felt like I had lost my mind...felt like I was going mad. I had no control of my body...I didn't even know what I had done until I felt my fist meet his face...but I was too consumed by my anger to even care...and so I ran for the door. I don't know where I thought I was going...I knew he wasn't going to just let me leave after that...but I tried anyway. "WHAT YOUR FUCKIN PROBLEM...PRINCESS" he screamed as he spun me around to face him.

"I'M NOT YOUR PRINCESS...AND YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY PROBLEM IS ZAN...HUH DO YOU....YOUR MY FUCKIN PROBLEM. YOU AND YOUR LITTLE TRAMP DOWN..."
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"DON'T YOU FUCKIN TALKS ABOUT HER LIKES THAT" I yelled...cutting her off. I were so fuckin pissed...I weren't gonna listen to anyone...even Liz Parker...talk @#%$ bout Ava. Ava were there for every fuckin time I needed hers...which were more then I could say her Liz at that times. I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her face to mines...cause I wanted her to understands whats I hads to say. "SHE AIN'T NO FUCKIN TRAMP...YOU'S GOT THAT...LEAST I KNOWS THAT I CAN TRUSTS AVA...SHE AIN'T GONNA FUCKIN LIE TO ME LIKES YOU DID"

I were expecting to gets a reaction from her's...but I ain't get the one that I thoughts I were gonna get.
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As the madness took over...I found that I couldn't control the laughter that erupted from my throat...nor the words the crossed over my lips. "Your right...Zan" I laughed...placing my hand on his swollen cheek. I watched as he winced at my touch...and the look of sadness that briefly crossed his eyes. I didn't know if it was my touch that caused him to wince...or my words...but I still didn't care...and my madness continued. "I lied to you. I lied when I told you that I loved you. Because...you were just a substitute...a substitute for a real man...a substitute for Max...the real King. I can't believe that you thought I would fall for the reject king...oh you did...how sad. "Go back to New York...Zan...I don't need you here anymore. Max will be back soon...and oh by the way....don't forget to take your little tramp with you"
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I watched as she flipped her fuckin hair back...and just stoods there with a fuckin smirk on her face. I didn't thinks that I could gets madder then whens I heard her...tells Ava that she loved and needed my dupe...but as whats she saids sunk in...I lost my fuckin minds for the second times that night.

"YOU'S FUCKIN CRAZY...BITCH" I spats at her...grabbing the sides of her head betweens my hands. "I COULD FUCKIN KILLS YOU RIGHT NOW" I growled as I begans to squeeze. "I DON'T KNOW WHO THE @#%$ YOU THINK YOU IS...BUT YOU BETTER FUCKIN HEAR THIS...YOU THINKS I CARE THAT YOU AIN'T LOVE ME...CAUSE I DON'T. YOU WANTS MY FUCKIN DUPE...THENS HAVE HIM...CAUSE I DON'T FUCKIN WANTS YOU. YOU THINKS HE THE MAN...JUST CAUSE HE THE FUCKIN KING...PRINCESS...THAT DON'T MAKES HIM A MAN. BUTS YOU KNOW THIS...PRINCESS...I'M THE FUCKIN MAN. MAXIE BOY AIN'T NEVER GONNA PLEASE YOU THE WAY I WOULD HAVES. I WANTS YOU TO REMEMBER...THAT IT GONNA BE ME THAT YOU THINKIN OF WHEN MAXIE FUCKIN YOU...NOT HIMS.....ME"

The thought of my dupe fuckin touching her droves me fuckin crazy...and so's...with outs thinkin I started squeezing her head even harders...I ain't see her tears or hears her cry outs...but Ava dids.

"ZAN...WHAT THE @#%$ YOU DOING" she screamed...pulling Liz out ofs the hold I hads on her. I couldn't moves...I just stoods there as the reality of whats I did sinked in.
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The pain that I felt from his hands was nothing compared to the pain that his words caused me. I felt as if my whole world had ended right then and there...I found that I longed for the pain that his hands were causing...that I wanted the pain in my head to increase...increase until I no longer felt the pain that was now surrounding my heart.

This was all my fault...I had caused this...I deserved this. I was angry...I thought I was angry at Zan...but as I listened to his words...I realized that I wasn't angry at Zan...I was angry with Max. I was so angry with Max...he was the reason that my life was so miserable...miserable until Zan came into it. It was him and him alone that brought happiness back into my life. I thought that I would never be happy again...after Max gave me back the engraved pocket knife I had given him for Christmas the year before. It made the fact that he was moving on final...and I knew that without Max I could never be happy...and so I just accepted it as fact.

But...I was wrong. Zan had breezed into my life and proved to me that I could have happiness in my life once again...he was the reason for that...but I knew that it too late. I didn't realize just how much I resented Max...and instead of embracing Zan into my life...I directed all this resentment onto him.

Falling to the floor...I was unable to move...I couldn't speak...all I could do sit there as the tears fell from my eyes. But...these weren't tears that were caused by Zan...no...these were tears that were caused by me...because I knew that there was no way that Zan could ever forgive me for all that I had done and said to him. I knew that Zan loved me...I could feel it each time that he touched me...kissed me...I even felt it before we met. He loved me with all he was...and I used that love against him. I wanted Max to suffer like I was suffering...and since Max wasn't here...Zan unfairly took his place.
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I watched as she felled to the floor...I sawed the pain that crossed her face...I watched as tears felled down her face...all this were because of me. This were all my fuckin fault.

When I gots here...alls that mattered were that she were going to be mines. I didn't care abouts anythin else...she were going to mines. I felt how much she loved my dupe...but I ain't care and I ignored it. She were hurt by my dupe...but she still loved hims. Here I were looking just likes the love of her life...and I fuckin confused her. I gaves her what my dupe hadn't been giving her...attention...I knowed this...and I stills pushed ons.

I hads no rights to get pissed whens she tolds Ava she loved him...I already knowed it. But I knows now that I wanted her to finds me and Ava sleeping togethers. I wanted to make her hurts like I were. But...I wents to far...I fuckin hurts her. I puts my hands on my princess and hurt her. I wanted to fuckin die...I hads to get outs of there...I weren't no good for her. She belonged with my dupe...they may haves had some problems...but he mades her happy...alls I could do was hurts her.

"I'm...I'm..sorry" I stuttered...as my owns tears started to fall. I tooks one more look at my princess and rans...I rans like I ain't never runs before. I hads to leave...hads to get out of her life...forever.
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"Please Zan...don't leave me" I whispered...




PART 17

"Please Zan...don't leave me" I whispered...as my tears continued to roll down my face. I wanted to run after him...throw myself into his strong arms...and beg for his forgiveness. As I kissed his lips...I wanted to make him see that it was he...not Max...who was the love of my life. But...I was unable to move...unable to run after the man that I loved...unable to prove to him that I loved him...that I wanted him...that I needed him.

"Ava...please" I whispered as I looked up into her eyes. "bring him back to me" I had a hard time reading the look that crossed her face...it was either a look of pity...or sadness...maybe both...it was hard to see through the tears that flowed from my eyes. But...the truth was that...I didn't care and it didn't matter what she was feeling for me...all that mattered was that I needed her to bring Zan back to me. "I thinks that you needs to let him go...you two's ain't meant to be together...you both too different"

Grabbing the side of the bed...I slowly pulled myself off the floor..as a wave of dizziness rushed over me. I felt as if my whole body was weighted down...and my movements were slow and painful. My head was throbbing so much...that I found it almost impossible to focus on anything. "No" I whispered...afraid that if I spoke much louder then a whisper it would cause the throbbing to increase. "I love him...I have to find him...I need him...Ava...WE DO BELONG TOGETHER" I yelled as another wave of dizziness washed over me...causing me to lose my balance and fall forward.

"LIZ" Ava screamed...rushing forward to catch me. "you ok"

"Just dizzy" I replied...as she helped me move over to the bed to sit down. Taking her hand into mine...I looked into her face...I wanted her to look into my eyes and see that what I said to her next was the truth. "Ava...please...you have to believe me when I tell you that I love him. I was confused...I was upset with Max...and I took it out on Zan. I was wrong...I love him...Ava. Please...bring him back to me"

"I can't makes any promises...but I will tries" she said...as I watched her walk out the room. "Please let her find him and bring him back to me" I whispered into the empty room...hoping that someone would hear my prayer and bring Zan back to the one place that he belong...with me.
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I ain't know where to goes or whats to do. I were still in shock that I had laid my hands on my princess...that I hads caused her pain by my owns hands. I just wents crazy as I sawed the picture of her and my dupe in my head. I ain't mean to hurts her...and I ain't mean any of those things I sayed to her. Truth were...I loved her...I loved her so much it fuckin scareds me.

I saws the ride I hads stolen in New York and jumped ins it. But...I weren't able to starts it up...I coulds only sit there and cries...I couldn't stops the tears...I feeled like my whole fuckin reason for livin hads just died...and I ain't care anymore. I just knowed that I hads to get back to New York...hads to get out of this Roswell...hads to get away from her. I ain't wants to leave her...I had cames her to find her...she were the ones that I were waitin for my whole lifes...but I hads @#%$ that up...and so I started the car.

Wiping my eyes with the arm ofs my shirt...I started backing outs into the street...untils I heards someone screaming my name. I closed my eyes and hope thats it would be my princess...but it weren't...it were Ava instead.
"Where's you goin...Zan" she asked me...but I ain't answer her...ain't looked at her...I just wanted to leaves as fast as I coulds.

"Looks...either you commin withs me...or you stayin here...makes up your mind...cause I is outta here either ways" I growled...still not looking at her. She just stoods there...I knowed that she ain't wanna go backs to New York...but I ain't care...I hads to leave and I hads to leaves right then. It hurt to much to stays in Roswell...knowing that I hads hurt my princess...I thoughts that if I left that the pains would goes away...for both of us. "I ain't fuckin kiddin...you commin or yous stayin...makes up your minds now...Ava"

"Don't do this...Zan...she needs you" Ava said...as she gots into the front seats of the car. I ain't answer her...I just hit the gas and gots out of fuckin Roswell as fast as I coulds.




PART 18

There was no denying that she was beautiful...she was...but I shouldn't be thinking about her...I needed to be thinking about Liz. Liz was my dream girl...my soul-mate...I loved her with all my heart and soul...but I found that I couldn't keep my eyes off her beautiful face...as she slept in the seat besides me...using my shoulder as a pillow.

I had to concentrate...we would be landing in Roswell in just a few short hours and I had to be prepared. prepared for what...your wondering. I didn't know...but something was going to happen...I knew it...I could feel it.

I didn't know all the details...all I knew that my dupe Zan had survived...he was now staying in Roswell...I didn't know why he was there...but I was damned sure going to find out. I found out about Zan from Shell...we met in the subway tunnel that Rath and Lonnie called a home. She was the one that informed me that Zan was now in Roswell...in Roswell with my Liz. When she told me...I knew that I had to leave...had to get back to Roswell...back to Liz...or it was going to be to late.

Or was it already too late...I didn't know anymore. My relationship with Liz had always been so simple...well I guess that it was never really simple. The fact that I am an alien hybrid...really made it hard to have a simple anything with Liz...but I loved her. I loved her with all my heart and soul...all it took was one look and I was hers...hers forever...or so I thought. I had risked everything for Liz...my life...and the lives of Michael and Isabel the day that I saved her life. Truth is I didn't care...she was all that mattered to me...and with out her...there was no way that I could live my life. So I saved her. I used my healing powers and saved the woman that I loved from a far for so many years...and she accepted me...accepted me when I showed her who I was...and the feelings that I felt for her...because she felt them too...it didn't matter that I was different...she just wanted to love me. There was a time that I felt that our love would...suspend time...felt it would last forever. I felt it course through my veins...our love was my life line...without it I couldn't breath...couldn't live...without it I didn't want to live.

But...now everything was different...she was different...I was different...so much had happened in the last few months...and I was so confused that I didn't know what to think about Liz and the love that we shared. I had never doubted the Love that Liz had for me in the past...she had proven to me time and time again just how much she loved me...I felt it through the connections that we shared...but now...now as I replayed everything that had happened lately...I found that I WAS doubting Liz...doubting Liz and the love that she had claimed to have for me.

I know that you want to know why...only one real reason she betrayed our love...she betrayed me. I didn't want to believe it at first...but time after time I gave her the opportunity to explain what I had seen that night...I practically begged her to tell me the truth...because I knew there was no way that she would betray me the way that she did...but her answer always remained the same...and each time my heart broke a little more. With each answer...the numbness would set in...and then the tears...the tears...I've cried a million of them. I have cried so many tears that I didn't think I could cry anymore. It doesn't matter...the fact of the matter is...Liz Parker...my dream girl...my soul-mate...the love of my life...betrayed me...she slept with another man.

I know what your thinking...if she is the love of your life...your soul-mate...your dream girl...why can't you just forgive her. Have you ever been betrayed by the woman that you loved with all your heart and soul...because she gave her self to another. NO...then please don't lecture me on how I should forgive her...I have tried...so many times I have wanted to just pull her into my arms and kiss her like she has never been kissed...tell her that I love her and that I don't care about what happened...but I can't...or at least not yet. I don't know what is going to happen between Liz and I...but I am going to give her one more chance...one more chance to prove her love for me. I still love her...but

"Are we there yet" she mumbles into my shoulder...barely opening her eyes...pulling me from my thoughts. "Not yet...go back to sleep" I whisper...placing my arm around her shoulders and pulling her against my body. She didn't hear me though...she had already fallen back to sleep. I found that I was tired...no more thoughts about betrayals...and Liz...I needed to sleep...rest up for what ever challenges that lay ahead...challenges that may or may not include Liz Parker by my side.




PART 19

My head was pounding so much that I couldn't even see in front of me...but I could sense him...and he was leaving...leaving Roswell...leaving me. I couldn't understand why it was at that time that my sensations from Zan returned...but I didn't care...he was leaving me and I felt my heart break. I tried not to cry because the tears only seemed to make the pain worse...but like everything else in my life I couldn't control them...and they just kept coming. I had to go after him...had to get him back...had to make him see that I needed him.

Slowly I forced myself off the bed...my body felt as if it weighed a ton...but I didn't care...I had to get to him. Taking a step forward...I felt another wave of dizziness flow over me...and again I lost my balance...but this time Ava wasn't there to catch me. I don't really remember what happened after that...the last thing I do remember is calling out his name as I felt my head hit something hard...and then the darkness came. ************************************************************

"SHUT THE @#%$ UP...AVA" I screamed as I continued to drives out of Roswell...she hadn't shut the @#%$ up since she had gots into my ride...and I were tired of hearin her mouth. I ain't seen her do it...but I knowed she did...cause her @#%$ ain't as strong as mines...and she ain't know how to controls them...but I hads to give her credit for trying anyway. One minute we were flying downs the road...and the next we was broken downs on the sides of it.

I were too busy staring at the road in front of me...the road that were takin me away from the princess...away from my princess and back to the fuckin sewers of New York. I should haves know that when she did shut the @#%$ up...that somethin were gonna happen...cause next things I knowed the fuckin car were dead.

"YOU FUCKIN CRAZY" I screamed at her...pulling the car offs to the sides of the road. I trieds several times to start the damn thing...even used my powers...but it ain't work. I ain't wait for her to answer...I hads to leave and if I hads to @#%$ walk to New York...then I were gonna fuckin walk.

"No...I ain't the fuckin crazy one here...Zan" she screamed back...jumpin out the car...and chasing after me. "You the fuckin crazy one if you leaves her. For as longs as I cans remember...you been talkin bout the one...the one that were gonna be the love of your life. She the one...Zan...she the one thats you been lookin for your whole lifes...you can't let her go...you needs her...you needs each other"

It were true...I knowed that the one were out there and it were only gonna be a matter of times fore I found her...and things were gonna be different...I were gonna be happy for once in my life...and I were gonna do whatever I hads to do to makes her happy. Well...I founds her alright...and what did I do when I founds her...I @#%$ it all up. There weren't no way to fix this...I hads gones to far...No...I were doing the right thing...getting outs of her life and...

"Zan" I heards her whisper. I ain't know how I heards it...but I dids and she were in trouble...the vibey things were back...and they was buzzing through my whole fuckin body...I hads to get to her...she needed me. The car were fuckin fried and even if I ran...it were gonna take to longs to get to her. I ain't know what I were gonna do and thens I saw it...a car...and whens I seen who it were drivin it...I hads to fuckin laugh.




Part 20

"Ladies and Gentlemen we will be landing in Roswell in just a few moments...we here at Desert Airlines hope that you have enjoyed your flight and we hope that you will fly with us again soon..." My heart was racing...in just a few short minutes we would be landing in Roswell...and in less then an hour...I would confront Liz....in less then an hour I would know if we truly destined to be together....or destined to remain apart.

I was so confused....I didn't know what to think when it came to Liz anymore. So much had happened....so much that couldn't be explained...or maybe I didn't want it to be explained. I didn't know....I loved Liz...there was no denying that plain and simple fact....but in light of all that had happened....I found that maybe I didn't love her as much as I once had. I know that sounds cruel....she made a mistake....but it wasn't like her mistake was something small....something that I could forgive her for easily and just move on. No...she slept with another man and I just didn't think that I could ever forgive her for that. But...I loved her still...and I knew that part of me always would. I know what your thinking...that doesn't make any sense...how can you love her and not love her. I don't know....but at the time I was so confused that it made perfect sense to me....at the time everything and nothing made perfect sense to me.

I watched her as she continued to sleep...she looked so peaceful that I hated to wake her....I couldn't stop the smile that slowly covered my face...it was my first real smile in months...and she...not Liz was the reason for it. I guess I didn't realize that I was smiling as wide as I was...but she did....and it really must have pissed her off....because she didn't stop complaining about it....as well as everything else that was wrong with her life until we reached my house...and I would bet you a million dollars that she didn't stop then either. I didn't have time for her or her complaining...I had heard enough of it to last a life-time. I had to get to Liz...had to find out if she were going to be my destiny...or was that destiny to be found in the arms of another. ************************************************************

"I love you Zan" I whispered into his ear "I'm so glad that you waited for me...that we shared our first time together" It was the single most magical moment of my life. I Liz Parker had finally given up my virginity to my true love...and I felt wonderful. I hoped that this feeling would last forever...but it didn't....it lasted for no more then a few seconds...and then my world was shattered.

"Bitch...Please. You thinks this were my first time...you fuckin crazy. This ain't been my first times...I @#%$ lots of women. I hads to lie to you....cause I knowed you ain't gonna give it ups to me if you thoughts I @#%$ other womens. Oh...and by the way...I lied to you...I ain't love you either. You was just a substitute for a real woman...you was just a substitute for Ava...my real princess. I can't believe that you thoughts I would fall for a stupid human....oh you dids...how fuckin sad"

I was too stunned to move...too stunned to speak...so I just laid there. Laid there...and watched as he climbed out of the bed and got dressed...all the time whistling some tune that I couldn't make out. "Zan...please" I whispered....climbing out of the bed...and then standing before him. "I know that you love me....I felt it"

"You felts what I wanted you to feels....I gots mind powers...just likes Ava. You is pathetic...gets the hell away froms me" he growled...pushing me down to the floor...then walking towards the door. Once he reached the door...I watched in horror as another figure appeared...it was a familiar figure...one that I knew...it was the figure of Max...and he was laughing.




PART 21

My heart was beating so rapidly...that I felt it was going to explode right out of my chest. As I got closer and closer to the CrashDown...the worse it got. What was she I going to say when I asked her